shucks! i am so dead tired man...
cant really believe that 3 weeks over is the blink of an eye
oh well...literally...sigh...
the gp paper was ok today...or so i think...
but how you regard the difficulty of a paper has no direct link to your results in the end...
or so i've learnt! *sigh*

i really man supposed to be studyin for econs now yah??
but just dun really feel like it...
someone give me some stress and kick my ass and get me working...
arrgh..i think i really need to get my butt off and start working...
been saying that for a long time but havent got down to it...

today we finally got to find out who's our civics tutor cum project work st...
oh well...not all of us are seeing her of the first time...
just the second intakers...
she's not what i've pictured her to be...haha
didnt expect her to be so petite...
but she's really soft spoken man...
then she was giving out the student records form for us to make amendments...
coz they got alot of our addresses all wrong!!
i shifted to hong san road without knowing...
and simon n omar live at raffles insitution lane...
haha...that's quite funny...and winnie moved to toa payoh...
screwed up man the system...
and in case you are wondering why they are only doing that now...
i have totally no...zero idea...
always thot that SA's lagging...oh well...
but for one they FINALLY got my religion right...
not like wad taoism back in NJC...haha...

hmmm...just checked my mail...
then i realised that i got a forwarded mail from zhiwei
she's such a sweet and nice girl...
ever so encouraging!!
it's nice knowing her...
oh well...and everybody else in 03A01 =)
but i think everyone will agree that zhiwei is nice!!


nowadays children are damn rich...
my little cousin in sec 1 now...
she owns a discman a zillion times newer than mine and a 6100...
when i was in sec 1 i dun even have a pager!! oh man!
talk about unfairness...nvm...i shall be contented with my life...

it's so err...think i'm struck in some stuoid mood for the past week man...
i desperately need to get out of it...
every little thing is making me SAD...
yes sad as in the want to cry sort of sad...
arrgh...i think i'm screwed!! freak!!
then there will be times where i felt better
then it will all go back to the 'sad' mood something minor happen...
HELP!!!!!
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Jesus, lover of my soul
Jesus, i will never let you go
taken me from the miry clay
set my feet upon the rock
and now i know...

i love You
i need You
though my world may fall
i'll never let You go...
my saviour
my closest friend
i will worship You until the very end...

it's a really old worship song that i used to sing alot...
sang it in church on sat...
reminded me of all the great things that God has done for me...

"But those who wait on the Lord
shall renew their strength,
they shall mount up with wings like eagles.
they shall run and not be weary,
they shall walk and not faint."
-- Isaiah 40:31
__________________________________________________________ was rather sad yesterday
my mood change was:-
happy--> very sad --> happy --> sad
what a day right??
havent really cried for a long time but i did yesterday...
i dunno why i did...i cant explain...
the only person who knew what happened was yun...
i guess i was kind of disappointed...
or maybe i should adjust my expectations abit...
i dunno...the people on the bus must have thot that i was a freak
coz i kept wiping tears away from my cheeks...
i cant help it...i want them to stop but i was not in control...i was HURT...period.
guess i was feeling better till i received a sms from yun then it all started again...
sheez...i think i made a fool out of myself man...BAD!
then i went home and mug (if i wld actually call that muggin coz i really am not in the mood)
then i had to go to work...
i was ok already by then...
i guess it's just a crappy emotional day for me...
then i almost cried during work coz i was sorta "framed" for sth that i did not do
it's a lousy day anyway...
went home feeling tired psychologically then physically...
then i had to msg chuwen to apologise for ignoring her msg earlier in the day coz i was feeling down...
i think even she showed more concern than i expected...
maybe it's really the manegement of the expectations yah??

lousy lousy day yesterday...
then i suddenly thought of the song that i've posted earlier...
i dont know you anymore by savage garden...
somhow it expresses my feelings in a certain way...
but it's not that appropriate at parts...
oh well...never mind...i like the title...

had breakfast just now with my dad...
had not done it for a long time...
he's so busy working like almost everday...
now i think i truly understand the true meaning of there's no other place better than home
you might not tell your secrets to your parents...
but deep down you have the courage to venture out and make friends...
coz you know that when all fails...
you can always go running back to them...
i dun go running back to them
but i know that i can go running back to God...
when everything fails...i can go running back to my Big Daddy
and it comforts me to know that...
sigh...

nobody is perfect...
i'm not perfect either...
i'm prepared to learn...
i know you are not perfect...
i dont expect you to be...
at times i get hurt...
i know you have your problems...
but i hope that despite everything...
we'll still be friends forever. I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but
Someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend
That you've forgiven me

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognise this place
The picture frames have changed
And so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

Springtime in the city
Always such a relief from winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold if you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda
Don't stop keep that chin up you'll be alright
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognise this place
The picture frames have changed
And so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it every day

So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognise this place
The picture frames have changed
And so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I see your face
I see your face


____________________________________________I dont know you anymore
_____________________________________________________savage garden
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