arrgh...
countdown 14 hours to GP...
bleah...
if i actually paid any attention to lily lim...
it cld actually be constructive...
well...no use crying over spilled milk...
bleah...just hope that the paper will go well...
sigh...

i'm officially left with like one week to study...
gosh...why do we have to be the first school to start the promos??
i guess i'll be glad when we're done and the rest are still having their papers...
but at this point of time...
i'm not that glab about it...

heheh...i got to talk to khairul!!!
so happy...i came to that realisation that there are some people
whom you dont talk to for a long time...
but every time you talk again...
it seemed like there is no time lapse...
grinne...

hmmm...im glad that things somehow seemed to be better now...
been feeling rather glad and happy for the past two days...
ok...i'm overjoyed...
all this somehow made all the stress that i finally felt seemed much better...
i'm glad that we got to do the catching up...
heheh...miss you man...

gotta go mug...
guess wldnt be blogging for a while...
hope the happiness can last me through the exams...
which i dont really think so coz i'm rather positive that i'll cry when i see the papers...
esp geog...just finished mugging slope and hydro only...
still a long way to go man...

well...i hope that all who are taking the exams all the best...
though i think i need it the most...
sigh...

EXAMS!!
ARRGH!!

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how do I
get through one night without you
if I had to live without you
what kind of life would that be?
oh I, I need you in my arms
need you to hold
your my world my heart my soul
if you ever leave
baby you wld take away everything good in my life.

without you
there'd be no sun in my sky
there would be no love in my life
there would be no world left for me
and i
baby i don't know what i wld do
i'd be lost if i lost you
if you ever leave
baby you would take away everything real in my life

and tell me now
how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if you ever go
how do i ever, ever survive?
how do i
how do i
oh how do i live...

trisha yearwood how do i live
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ sianz...
i'm starting to feel damn stressed about the promos...
which dont reflect right now...
coz i can still blog...
somehow...you just cant really study during your free period...
sianz...
count down 5 days to promos..
i'm dead...
esp for geog...
bleah...

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I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free

I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away

It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong

There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

blessid union of souls light in your eyes

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was i wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me?




then i went for services and stuff...
the usual...but i wld say i'm feeling happy...
dunno why...maybe the new friends...
definitely nice and interesting...
and there's dis cute guy that i spotted...hahaa...

went to check out that mambo bag that i wanna buy again...
i'll get around to buying it when i have the cash...
or when i managed to convince someone to buy it for me...
heheh...

somehow it feels like i'm writing to someone when i'm blogging...
think that's a habit...i always think that i'm writing to you...

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i hate to wake you up to say goodbye.
but the dawn is breaking, it's early morn.
the taxi's waiting, he's blowing his horn,
already I'm so lonesome I could cry.

[Chorus]
so kiss me and smile for me,
tell me that you'll wait for me,
hold me like you'll never let me go.
'cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
don't know when I'll be back again -
oh Babe, I hate to go.

there's so many times I've let you down,
so many times I've played around,
i tell you now, they don't mean a thing.
every place I go, I'll think of you,
every song I sing, I'll sing for you,
when I come back, I'll wear your wedding ring.

now the time has come to leave you,
one more time let me kiss you,
then close your eyes, I'll be on my way.
dream about the days to come.
when I won't have to leave alone,
about the times I won't have to say ...

-- chantal kraveasuk leaving on a jet plane
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in the years to come
will you think about these moments that we shared
in the years to come
are you gonna think it over
and how we lived each day with no regrets
nothing lasts forever though we want it to
the road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

[chorus]
sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
though its the hardest thing to say
i'll miss your love in every way
so say goodbye
but don't you cry
cause true love never dies

in a year from now
maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'll never said
in a year from now
maybe we'll see each other, stnding on the same street corner though it rains
each and every end is always written in the stars
if only i could stop the World i'd make this last

and when you need my arms to run into
i'll come for you
nothing will ever change the way i feel

--s club 7 say goodbye
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wad about us? massive sigh...
am dead tried and aching from that night cycling on sat...pain all over...
just dawned on me that promos is like two weeks away...
i'm dead...
just returned back to earth...
finally stopping work for the moment...
before everyone like meisiang starts to murder me...
and nag at me to get studying...
i'm actually starting to get stressed...
which is good...but too late...
having an econs test right after this...
which i only found out halfway during work yesterday..
bad feeling and i was right that there was a test today...darn...
didnt get to catch s.w.a.t during the hols...
neither did i get to watch turn right turn left..
hopefully i'll at least get to watch italian job when it comes out this thurs...
apparently it's damn good...the review is good and you get to watch shuai actor...
oh well...
it's t-period...
time for econs...
dead tired...
all i wanna do is sleep now...
the stupid comp in school refuse to read my geog assignment which is due today...
means i cant hand up...
bad...
bleah...
bad beginning for this week man...
sigh...
time to mug...

i miss you!

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Ooh ooh ooh
i can't believe you're here with me
and now it seems my world's complete
and I never want this moment to end
i close my eyes and still I see
my dreams become reality
and now I now how it feels to be in love
i prayed so many nights that you would come my way
an angel from above to light my darkest day
i think it's time for you to heed these lines
'cos there's something I want to say

i finally found what I've been looking for
and now you know I'm going to love you more
hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
(it's always been you)
to think that you were always there (always there)
to be my friend and wipe away my tears
now it's clear that it's always been you

sometimes you don't expect that friends
can become lovers in the end
only god knows what the future will bring
so hold me close and don't let go
'cos this is love, boy, don't you know?
and we're gonna be together for eternity
i prayed so many night that you would come my way
an angel from above to light my darkest day
a love so strong it's can't be wrong
it's with you that I belong

--honeyz finally found
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Friday, September 12, 2003 // 0 comments

走过跟你走过的街　难过感伤一些
有些事无法感谢　我终於了解
是我把爱弄得太完美　多完美还是会枯萎
你最后那一句再见　才让我学会　怎么放爱去飞
擦干了眼泪　我不要安慰
日子会过去才对　都是黑咖啡
苦得让我今晚不能入睡
不想活在重播的情节　你知道我想著谁
虽然梦想难免被现实打碎　On My Way
我在美丽的世界　回头对你说　Good-Bye
擦干了眼泪　我不要安慰
日子会过去才对　都是黑咖啡
苦得让我今晚不能入睡
不想活在重播的情节　不再跟自己责备
换来伤悲　天亮天黑　On My Way

王心凌 on my way

someone told me that it's a bliss to be loved by someone...
but i think that
if you're loved by a person that you do not love in return...
it's painful and even gets scary...
i'm that kind who believe in
if you love someone then let him or her go kind...
if it's right and fated...
he or she will come back to your side...
no point in forced staying together...

i'm sorry that your love is not being returned...
perhaps there's only that one person that i ever love before...
some things cannot be forced...
thanks for all the care and concern you showed...
i'm still holding on to someone and sth else...
hmmm...you probably wldnt ever get to read this...
i just feel better having it down...

was working yesterday when the disc went on to play
fill me up...it's the mass dance song for orientation njc 2003...
haha...it's e starting of a mass dance of 6 songs...
haha...oh well...brought back some memories...

it's raining...
descrcibe my mood...
problems problems problems...

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desperate for changing
starving for truth
i'm closer to where i started
i'm chasing after you

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held on to
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all i'm lacking
completely incomplete
i'll take your invitation
you take all of me now

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held on to
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
and i don't know what i'm tapping into
just hanging by a moment here with you

there's nothing else to lose
there's nothing else to find
there's nothing in the world
that can change my mind
there is nothing else
there is nothing else
there is nothing else

lifehouse hanging by a moment
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arrgh...
am so damn pissed off...
there are times that i just wanna go "what the f***"
but that's not right...
sometimes adults cant even think as rationally as a teenager...
money will never drop from heaven
though God can easily do it if He want to...
but why do adults seem to think that way??
"wait till i strike 4-D"
i'll be long dead by then...
if it is so easy to strike...
why wld they still be in the business??
they wld be incurring LARGE losses...
cant adults think??
if the money are not spent on smoking and drinking...
ALOT cld have been saved...
try telling them and they will say "you dont understand la"
what's their problem??
was just trying to offer constructive advice can??
and i totally hate to talk to someone who's drunk...
for one...i'll most probably end up shouting at them...
for two...
they probably wldnt even remember what the hell went on the night before...
they indulge themselves in drinking
becoz they think that the problems will go away when they are drunk...
but when they are back to earth the next day...
these problems will re-surface...
it is a solution...
it's called running away...
try telling them...
and try telling them that you wldnt be able to borrow your way out of debt...
they never listen...
what the hell la...
as if i dont have enough problems on my own...
sheez....

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hmmm...i really hate written report man...
i have to wake up early to get this done coz i have work(again!!!) later..
and like how winnie felt...
i dont understand why we are not meeting this hols...
i'm just thrown this job of putting together everything
when i dont even have the materials and ideas of what the hell i'm supposed to do...
the file is not even with me...
no research is with me and i have no idea at all how to do it...
and i supposed to get it done with bibliography by monday?
w.o.n.d.e.r.f.u.l
*bleah*

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Monday, September 08, 2003 // 0 comments

hmmm...was trying to change the outlook of this blog...
knowing that i'm a computer idoit...
it obviouly didnt work out well...
then i got bored of it...
but i still managed some changes...
the rest wld have to wait till after exams or sth...
when i have plenty of time and nothing else better to do man...

went shopping yesterday with my aunt...
she got her track shoes...
i didnt managed to get much...
cant expect her to get me the $89 mambo bag
that i wanted...
she wld kill me for spending so much money on a bag...

yesterday: a day i saw many people...
was on the bus 103 when my bus went past fengyi
she was trying to cross the road...
was knocking frantically on the bus window but it didnt get her attention...
wad a funny way to see your friend...
havent seen her for a while...
that makes my day...haha...
then as i was going down the escalator to city hall mrt
i saw first 3 months civics tutor...
well-known in njc arts...
needless to say its teo sui ho...
she's with her boyfriend..
i presume...
she still look rather stress...
wonder is it the school
or is it the class...
hmmm...i wonder how everyone's doing man...

feeling so fresh and wide awake now...
went to bed at 9pm yesterday...
dun think i have the luxuary of doing that for a long time...
it's good...but it still doesnt help much...

arrgh...thot i'll have the chance to watch s.w.a.t this week...
but my work schedule sucks man...
though i gave time quite alot of space and freedom to plan...
dun need lidat treat me ma...
tues 12-10.30
wed 12-6
thurs 12-10.30
fri 12-6
sun 3-9
oh man...the only two days i end at 6 i have to go to church and cell group...
that leaves me with practically no time to study much less going to catch a movie...
oh man...colin farrell will have to wait then...
bleah...
iltalian job coming out soon...
another movie that i hope i can catch...
another hot guy in the show...
heheh...
oh well...

should go have lunch...
a hungry person cant work well :)

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Sunday, September 07, 2003 // 0 comments

hmmm...am tired man...
slept at approx. 3 am this morning then was waken up
by a phone call from peijin this morning/.

arrgh...i totally dislike project work man...
i have to put together the written report...
not that i mind doing that but wad's the whole retionale behind this whole thing??
and you invest so much time and effort onto this...
and it doesnt account for much of your a level score...
i rather the exams have more weightage...
after all you already have to study for it right??
bleah...

hmmm...next week supposed to be hols...
not much of one to me anyway...
working quite abit...
tues, wed and thurs...
wonder how do i have the time to study...
sigh...
i need to do well...but not without studying...
sigh...God gotta help me get through this...

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there was nothing to say
the day she left
just filled a suitcase full of regrets
i held a taxi in the rain
looking for someplace to ease the pain

then like an answered prayer
i turned around and found u there
you really know where to start
fixing a broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart
fixing a broken heart

now I don't understand what I'm going through
there must be a plan that lead me to you
because the hurt just disappeares
in every moment that you are near

just like an answered prayer
you made the loneliness easy to bear

you really know where to start
fixing my broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart
fixing a broken heart

surely the wind will stop falling baby
and I'll forget the past
cuz here we are at last
you really know where to start
fixing a broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart

Fixing a broken heart... fixing a broken heart

-- azn dreamers fixing a broken heart
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i thank God for fixing my broken heart...
but times i still need a true friend to be there...

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Thursday, September 04, 2003 // 0 comments

hmmm...tired tired just dead tired...
meisiang keep pestering me and asking me
and forcing me to start studying...
havent got around to doing that...
late for school the past two days...
bad...slept too late...
no more late night phone calls for me i guess...
dead tired...

healing a sprained fourth finger from netball yeaterday...
it's painful...
havent sprained my finger for a long while even with all the bball trainings
kinda didnt noe that it actually hurt so much...

hmmm...
am still in a state of shock but chose to ignore what i've found out
sometimes in life...
those things that you dont know wld hurt you...
somethings are meant to be left the way it is...
sheez...i dunno what i'm talking about...
just feels funny about this whole issue...
i shall remain in my 'ignorance' state...
arrgh...when did life got so complicated??
scary...

haircut gotten quite a response...
which i dont usually get when i cut my hair...
my friends always say i might as well not cut...
this time its abit different...
need some getting used to it...
still in that process...
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packing up the dreams God planted
in the fertile soil of you
can't believe the hopes He's granted
means a chapter in your life is through
but we'll keep you close as always
it won't even seem you've gone
'cause our hearts in big and small ways
will keep the love that keeps us strong

and friends are friends forever
if the Lord's the lord of them
and a friend will not say "never"
'cause the welcome will not end
though it's hard to let you go
in the father's hands we know
that a lifetime's not too long
to live as friends.

with the faith and love god's given
springing from the hope we know
we will pray the joy you'll live in
is the strength that now you show

michael w. smith friends

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this song always brings bsck memories...
it came to my mind just now in geog...
happy memories...
memories that are still so vivid...
there's nothing much that will be left of these memories
in the time to come...
the only thing that captures all these times...
would be the photograpgs that were taken
the smile frozen in time...

treasure each moment that was spent
never be afraid to express love and care
a moment that's lost will never be regained
feelings that faded are difficult to re-kindle

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Monday, September 01, 2003 // 0 comments

i read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three
grandpa kept it in his coat
and he showed it once to me
he said
"boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
grandma's daddy didn't like me none
but i loved your grandma so."

we had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
get married in the first town we came to
and live forever.
but nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet
instead of her
i found this letter
and this is what it said:

if you get there before i do
don't give up on me.
i'll meet you when my chores are through;
i don't know how long i'll be.
but i'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see.
and between now and then
till i see you again,
i'll be loving you.
love, me.

i read those words just hours before my grandma passed away,
in the doorway of a church where me and grandpa stopped to pray.
i know i'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
but as he said these words to her
his eyes filled up with tears.

if you get there before i do
don't give up on me
i'll meet you when my chores are through
i don't know how long i'll be
but i'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see
and between now and then
till i see you again
i'll be loving you
love, me.
between now and then
till i see you again
i'll be loving you
love, me.

colin raye love,me

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hmmm...it's teachers' day...
so wishing all the teachers out there a happy teachers' day...
for me...it's just another holiday...
a day to sleep in and get some well-deserved rest...
haha..oh well...guilty to say that i've not done much for the teachers dis year...
was definitely more enthu last year or rather all thosse years that had passed...

and boy am i surprised that the romanis showed such great "enthu-ness" during
the supposed workout on fri...sadness...i thot that romanis is supposed to be fun..
i guess not for such stuff...sigh...

been praying alot...
yes...i dunno why...
for things... for people...
for everything...
i think that the week that just passed really transformed me quite abit...

for kelvin that the cell love so dear...
dont stray away from God...
we love you...
you must know that we love you no matter what...
i may not be the person who knows you the best...
but God is...
i dont really know what happened...
it dont really matter...
we love you and most importantly...
God loves you...
dont leave us here by ourselves...
we started this battle together...
let's end it well...

for you...you know who you are...
i was crying when i pray for you...
i dunno why...
there used to be this common point...
you and i...
we live for God...
each day knowing that God is there...
knowing that i have you to depend on...
where are you now??
dont stray away too i pray...
it's not something that i'm able to do...
it's your heart...
you know what i'm talking about...
God loves you and i love you too...
you taught me to love...
never had i so much before...
it hurts me so to see things change...
God is not about a religion...
it's about relationship...
with God...
where are you??
i cant seem to find you...
we used to share and be there...
sharing all those things that God had in store...
i knew that back thyen back there...
you were there...
have you travelled far away from God??
if so come back again my dear...
not to me...i wldnt dare...
but to God..
He always there...
For you...

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when troubles come i trust in you
for i know you will lead me through
and i know you are faithful till the end
and when the storms are drawing near
when i'm with you i dont have to fear
you're my shepherd on whom i can depend

through the day
through the night
i know you're always by my side

Lord you're always here with me
there is no changing God in thee
you are the same yesterday and today
and forevermore
here on your promises i stand
you hold my future in your hands
my solid rock
almighty God i worship you

--you are always here with me...
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