just a little bit more love
just a little bit more passion
this is how it should begin
skin on skin

if you leave me now
telling me u failed somehow
better think it all over
just as long as love's around
here's a true romance
be aware n take ur chance
tmr i'm gonna leave you
but i am here for u tonight

every single day i want u to know
my love is true
so baby let me show u what to do

just a little bit more love
just a little bit more passion
this is how it should begin
skin on skin

just a little getting close
just a little more affection
'cause i don't think it's a sin
skin on skin

don't you know that this game is to play
just as long as it's time
can't you see that my heart's gotta know
when you're gonna be mine

so we better get it on
what is here will soon be gone
when the leaves are falling
then maybe we could fall apart

n there may come a time
when you will forget
my love is true
so baby let me show you what to do

sarah connor skin on skin



k...i know that the lyrics abit the....
but it is quite a nice song...
oh well...i have a soft spot for slow song i admit..
esp when i'm missing someone...haha...

hmmm...its friday...and i'm leaving in 2 days time...
somehow i dont feel the peace to leave and enjoy myself...
i feel that alot of things are going on and its not the appropriate time for me to leave just like that..
there are dangers and problems at home...
my friend is having problems and needed people to be ard and i seemed to be her only friend left...
arrgh...i think i'll worry myself away in thailand...
how to enjoy myself???
help!!!
i'm super scared that at the time that i come back will have terrible stuffs that had happened...oh God...
sigh...

sent my 6610 for repair again yest...
the person called to say that they had to change the whole motherboard...
whatever it is anyway...so it'll take like one or two weeks coz they dont have the stock...dumb dumb poot...
cant they just gimme a new handset??
well...they did gimme a new hands free though...
not to complain...

got training later...
or so to say but it's actually for the sec4s to come down for the coach to see...
those who wanna appeal anyway...

just now learnt the SA mass dance 2003...
well...it's definitely cannot be compared to that we learnt in NJC 2003 orientation mass dance...the one we just learnt is quite touchy (it's a boy-girl partner dance) but thankfully it's only 2 mins plus...i like the NJ one still...though i cant remember much of it...but they will always be part of my memories =) heheh...

hey bestest friend...
wanted to post a msg on ur tag but sth wrong with the comp then i cant...
anyway...if you happened to read this...
i'll probably be in thailand liao...
take care of urself...
dont miss me too much(if you do at all! haha..)
anyway...let's meet up soon kayes??
love ya...

hey people from sec 4 and 1st 3 months...
lets meet up soon in the hols can??

my dearie siang...
take care...
didnt manage to catch you before i go thailand...
how's your obs??
take care...
miss you lots...

my ah girl...
take care too...
enjoy your camp...
remember to miss me...haha...

to the rest...
remember to miss me...
love you guys...




whenever i'm weary fr e battles that rage in my head
u make sense of madness when my sanity hangs by a thread
i lose my way but still u seem to understand
now n 4ever i will be ur man.
sometimes i just hold u
too caught up in me to see
i'm holding a fortune that heaven has given to me
i'll try to show u each and every way i can
now n 4ever i will be your man

now i can rest my worries and always be sure
that i won't be alone anymore
if i'd only known u were deRe all e time
all this time

until e day e ocean doesn't touch e sand
now and forever i will be your man
now and forever i will be your man

richard marx now and forever hmmm...was surfing the net when i came across lyndon chua's blog...
i think it's his la...i mean that name is quite unique and not that many people will actually out ur name as the blog add ya?? i wonder if it's the same person...
haha...but the font is abit the VERY small...so cant really read his entry...haha...

hmmm...gotta leave for the match against spore american school soon...
bleah...i'm everything except being peaceful with myself...
i think i'm feeling scared about the match...
been in bball for so long...
yes...it has been my passion and interests...
but i never liked the physical and contact...
if not for a certain best friend that re-kindled that passion and spark earlier this year...
i wldnt have joined bball again...
all the irony man...
but since i'm in...i'll try my best...
just that i feel rather dumb sometimes not able to understand some stuff...
at times i wished it'll all be over soon...and the reality is...it will...
the max is about another half a year...gosh...
time really flies huh??
there's always this nagging worry about whether i'll make it into the team not...
sigh...

end of the year is always a time when people will do their reflections...
i havent really done mine but a little bit here and there...
i reallt think that alot of people taught me alot of stuff this year...
whether it's the negatives ones or the positive ones...
i'm glad i got to know the people in bball...
they are not hypocrites...
i'm thankful that i got to know alot more people thjis year...
and i know that not all these people will stay always...
but i'm glad i got to have our paths crossed...
i think that fate is very interesting...
there are so many other routes that you cld have taken but the 2 person happened to take die path
and met each other...i think it's amazing...
there are so many other ways that 2 wld not have met...
isnt fate amazing???
i think i'll reflect further some other time...
but there's something that i've definitely learnt about myself this year...
i'm veri insecure about friendship...and need the re-assurance...
something that i didnt know about myself till this year...
wad a discovery...

5 days to training tour...
looking forward to it...
8 days of fun and learning...
and definitley a time of team bonding...
hopefully it'll help us to communicate better and clear most misunderstandings...
sigh...i hope that wad happened that day will not happened again...
i hate to see people hurt and unhappy...
and usually when this happen...
people will not say it out and that tend to make things worse...
sigh...nvm...


i never want to play e games that people play
i never want to hear e things they gotta say
i've found everything i need
i never wanted anymore than i can see
i only want you to believe

if it's wrong to tell e truth
then what am i supposed to do
when all i want to do is speak my mind
if it's wrong to do what's right
i'm prepared to testify
if loving you with all my heart's a crime
then i'm guilty

i wanna give you all e things you never had
don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
i need you back in my life
i never wanted just to be e other guy
i never wanted to live a lie

girl i followed my heart
followed e truth
right from e start it led me to you
pls don't leave me this way
i'm guilty now all i have to say

blue guilty
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hmmm...in school yet once again this week...
does not make much difference as that of a normal sch week
just that you get to wake up ABIT later than usual...
but after this week then it'll all be over...heheh...
op went quite ok...'cept that we're quite afraid that 1 member didnt do that well...the teacher seemed to be quite satisfied with my answer to his questions...since he's an econs teacher...i threw in some econs facts...
he seemed rather plaesed...which i'm definitelt happy about...hahah...
then have been back all week doing the GPF...our last hope to save our project...then it'll really all be over...

went swimming for the past two days...aching abit...
swimming is a good sport where you get to work all the major muscle groups in your body...i was however rather amazed and disgusted by this woman at the public pool showers...she had the top of her swim suit down...showing off her assets or sth and walking ard the showers lidat...i cant believe my eyes when i saw that...it's disgusting...wonders why do some guys watch porn man...yucks...it's a public pool...she thinks its her private pool or sth...

went out with hannee yesterday...and with peiyun...
it's really noce to see hannee man...it somehow youches my heart that she's still ard me and stuff for the past 13 yrs...it has been a long time...and i feel genuinely happy for the first time in a long while...
met alexis and ailin at suntec while we were out...hopefully we'll get ard to have a 03A01 v1. gathering sometimes in the dec. but i think alot of them will be busy with orientation '04...man it has already been a year... that's fast la...

well...a little more than a week to training tour...it's so exciting...heheh...
everything and every where i go i'm reminded of that...hahah...
went to suntec yesterday...den saw geok there...think she was rather embarassed when i asked her rather loudly why she looking at herself in the mtv...coz she was looking at a jay chou mtv...hahah...think i'm going to get it from her today...opps...sorry man but i'm not that sorry..hahah..

seemed to have received alot of comments about my haircut...from guys...from girls...from half guy half girl sort of people...man...what's wrong with cutting your hair short man...it does not imply that you are intending to become a butch or sth...oh please...dunno wad's wrong with this world man...
even if i'm one...also cant find gf man..wad the...
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the rise of hollywood...
that's the title of my project...
not exactly a smart move to still be researching at this hour
when my op is like in an hour's time...
bleah...
finally got to have some real quality sleep
after sleepless nights...
very scared to go home...
wished that i dont have to...
i dont might camping at someone's house for the rest of my life...
arrgh...i dont know la...
what is a home which you dont wanna return to??

when you looking for people to go out...
there dont seemed to be any...
somehow...i feel that there arent anyone who cares...
so sad...no one seem to be ard...

sigh...shall go eat now...my last meal was more than 18 hours ago...
count down 2 weeks to training tour...
less than that actually...13 days...
oh man...that's fast!!
erm...let's see,,,we're staying at 2 wonderful hotels...
one of which is the pathumwan princess in bangkok...
cant get my eyes off the screen when i saw the web...
http://www.pprincess.com
looking at the room rates i almost died...
it's not cheap man...
then the other one is just as good...
heheh...its the sunny pattaya...
http://www.asia-discovery.com/pattaya/aone-cruise/index.html
haha...so exciting...
den just found out room mate...hahah...
looking forward to it man...
any shopping list pls be early...
and i only get stuff for certain ppl..haha...

shucks!
so much for holidays...
the wonderful teachers are not so merciful
when they are going out homework man...
to date i have....
a few human geog essays, 2 phy geog assignments
alot of econs hoework and more to come
thanks to the invention of the internet...
chinese project...
bleah...
not to forget that we still have oral presetaion to go thru...
i wonder how am i going to squeeze all the things that i have to do
into the short 7 weeks that we have...
2 of which gone...
1 for training tour...1 christmas week...
not to mention trainings during the hols...
and there are so much more to do...
like catch up with my studies...
that's to make up for picking topics and not doing well for geog...
and well...there's church and work...
i dont see much holidays if you ask me...
hopefully there will be time for some meet-up with nice friends...
heheh...

friendly game yesterday...
i think i played ok but not very well...
abit tired and ut of breath...
think coz of my fever not fully recovered and stuff...
scared...i think i'm just using that as an excuse...
then coach was telling me things that i have to pick up...
then sth abt if i cant even do that i'm nothing...
then have to be more physical...and more aggressive...
damn scared...i think some of us are...
not confident about making into the next year team...
sigh...

after a long year...
the school term is finally coming to an end...
the 26th student council decided to name this day...
a day of sweet memories...
that's is if i never remember wrongly...
we're supposed to thank and appreciate the people ard us...
but like we go round doing that...
but they are thouhtful i guess...
after lots of changes...
lots of problems...
exams and lessons...
and recently...survyes....
the school term will end TML...
let's party baby....
let's go celebrate...
for the moment at least....
heheh ;)
what's wrong with e world, mama
people livin' like they ain't got no mamas
i think e whole world addicted to e drama
only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
but we still got terrorists here livin'
in e USA, e big CIA
the Bloods and the Crips and the KKK
but if you only have love for your own race
then you only leave space to discriminate
and to discriminate only generates hate
and when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
badness is what you demonstrate
and that's exactly how a n**** works and operates
n**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
tk control of your mind and meditate
let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

people killin'
people dyin'
children hurt and you hear them cryin'
can you practice what you preach
and would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
send us some guidance from above
'cause people got me
got me questionin'
where is the love (Love)

where is the love (The love)
where is the love (The love)
where is the love
the love
the love

it just ain't the same
always unchanged
new days are strange
is the world insane
if love and peace is so strong
why are there pieces of love that don't belong
nations droppin' bombs
chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
with the ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
so ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
so I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
in this world that we livin' in people keep on givin' in
makin' wrong decisions
only visions of them dividends
not respectin' each other
deny thy brother
a war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
the truth is kept secret
it's swept under the rug
if you never know truth then you never know love
where's the love
y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth
y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

i feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
as I'm gettin' older
y'all, people gets colder
most of us only care about money makin'
selfishness got us followin' our own direction
wrong information always shown by the media
negative images is the main criteria
infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
kids act like what they see in the cinema
yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
whatever happened to the fairness in equality
instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
lack of understanding
leading lives away from unity
that's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
that's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
there's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound

black eyed peas where is the love


oral prep dry run later @ 1250...
in school since 0730...Why?
good question...go ask the school la...
screwed up man...

sian...i handed up the s papers form...
abit scared and stuff la...
mixed feelings...
some people just really not good at making you feel better....
bleah...
well...since i already handed it up...
i shall leave the rest up to God...

went to town to meet siang...
then we went sakae...
haha...damn full yesterday la...
gain back all the weight i lost while i was down with fever in 1 day...
then there was training...it was not that bad...
didnt really train that much yesterday...
hope that i'm in the condition to play the friendly game today...
got a few games lined up...
including one with the american sch and one with nanyang poly...
scared...

hmmm...ash called me yest....
thought she dont know died or sth already...
i think that space and time really make people distant...
she sounded distant over the phone and stuff...
so formal and everything...
sigh...sounds familiar...
i think this happened to me and some other person
at the mid of this year...
but that's different...
this...she's much older la...different...
and more difficult to relate to her...
and she still owe me an explanation...
i'm still ABIT pissed about that day...
bleah...forget it...
haha...dont know, dont care...
sigh....
so much for the saying
"absence makes the heart grows fonder" huh??
i dont really think so...
but there are people whom you will still maintain
the same level and can just oick up where you've leave it....
but not many...sigh...

arrgh...headache...
think the 'aftershock' of the high fever...
dont know la...
bleah...oral prep......................................
all day staring at the ceiling
making friends with shadows on my wall
all night hearing voices telling me
that i should get some sleep
because tomorrow might be good for something

hold on
feeling like i'm headed for a breakdown
and i don't know why

but i'm not crazy
i'm just a little unwell
i know right now you can't tell
but stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
a different side of me
i'm not crazy, i'm just a little impaired
i know right now you don't care
but soon enough you're gonna think of me
and how i used to be...me

i'm talking to myself in public
dodging glances on the train
and i know, i know they've all been talking about me
i can hear them whisper
and it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
out of all the hours thinking
somehow i've lost my mind

i've been talking in my sleep
pretty soon they'll come to get me
yeah, they're taking me away

matchbox20 unwell

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haha...how appropriate, in every aspect...sigh

gosh...finally feeling better since thurs...
been bed-ridden for the past few days...
didnt know that you can have fever till so high a temp...
bleah...had to change the test date for SAT...
hope that i do not have to pay the US$17...
sigh...

arrgh...i think the fever burnt my brain...
i dunno what to write...
i think next tine a fever of 39++
i'll go straight to the hospital...

countdown 3 weeks to training tour...
1 week before tour talk...
muahahaha...
die i think its the effect of the fever...
bleah...

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