as i sail with you across the finest oceans
on our way to find the key to our emotions
together will me move the clouds to brighter days
some people question what i say
try to break up you and me

but i know this love between us is growing stronger
you can call me whenever, from wherever just remember that
i'll be there through all the stormy weather
us break up never, no, we'll be together forever

you dont miss your water till the well runs dry
but i believe so strongly with you and i
can somebody answer me the question why?
you dont miss your water till the well runs dry

as i close my eyes, sit back while reminiscing
of when we used to fuss and fight but end up kissing
there may be sad and painful times along the way
but in my heart you'll always be everything and more to me
for i know this love between us is growing stronger

you can call me whenever, from wherever just remember that
i'll be there throught all the stormy weather
us break up never, no, we'll be together forever

for you are always on my mind

you are always on my mind
you are always on my mind
you are always on my mind

listen, If you ever get the feeling
you when playin start cheatin me
but you dont miss your water until the well runs dry

craig david you dont miss the water (till the well runs dry)

***
heard this song from vonne's cd...
i think that its nice la...that's why i'm posting it here...hahah...
i'm in love with this song now...the moment i heard it...though its like quite an old song already..but still a nice song is a nice song...
the lyrics is rather meaningful i think...

hey...remember that i'm always here for you...no matter what..
love you lots...

***

had service learning day yest...we went to genesis school...this place for children with learning disabilities...its really a nice day and we really enjoyed myself...i think vonne amanda and i feel so accomplished painting that whole swing set man...its really nice...and it feels good to do sth for them...but i doubt that i'll ever have the patience to be a teacher there...but i dont mind volunteering though...we might go back to help for the christmas though...
then after that we went to eat the oh-so-famous nasi lemak...but it was ok la...like people always say that the food so nice but its just food...hahah...but we were hungry so wad de...
after which winnie vonne and i were supposed to go studying but in the end we ended up rotting at the mac there...talk for like 4 to 5 hours non-stop...alot of crapping and jokes and stuff like that but it was really nice fellowship...not everyday that you do that...to find out more about your friends' lives and i'm really glad that i have the chance...and somehow all 3 of us agree that we never really grow in the Lord until this 2 years...which coincide with the worst and lowest times of our lives...then i recall God saying to me that...these are the times that i'll grow the most in Him...and like vonne say...its when the darkest time that we'll not lean on our own strength but on God...that's sth that we need to learn...indeed these 2 years had been the low until cannot go any lower but it still got worse time...but i thank God that through these times that we grew even more in Him...and i thank God for you guys...yes you guys...if you ever get ard to reading this...i think that most of the times i quite ass one la..but i thank God for the 2 of you...we can do all this through Christ who strengthens us...and if anything...i'll always be praying for you guys...love you...
then ever since yesterday i still high till now except just now lessons la...hahah...but i was really happy that daddy allow me to go for the overnight prayer meeting in church tonight...SO happy...thank God for that...its indeed a breakthrough...yeah!!
on a more serious note...i think a need a super hard kick in the butt to really start mugging..damn...

vonne: saw a girl in lib who wearing red sweater...for a moment i thought it was you but thought you having claw leh...hahah...

"seek it first the Kingdom and all the things that you seek will be added unto you."

Do you love me?

Or am I just another trip?

In this strange relationship

You push and pull me

Till I'm about to lose my mind

Is this just a waste of time?

Keep acting like you own me

I keep running watch me walking out that door

I hear you behind me

Gimme that strange relationship

Never felt pleasure and pain like this

Something so right but it feels so terribly wrong

I keep holding on

Gimme that strange relationship

One of us gotta let go of this

I keep pushing and you keep holding on

I'm already gone

Do you love me?

We break up and back toghether

And I swear to myself never

But oh how you do me

You strip me of my honor

And I don't ever think I'm gonna

Break free of these mind games

All I'm tryin' to do is modify my planCause I can't contain you....

You keep acting like you own me

Like you control me

You said you never really wanted me back

Well maybe that's a fact

May I suggest a brand new plan of attackAnd in defense of that

You're hard to crackYou're way off track

I want you backI want you gone

Maybe I'm sick of holding on

Do you love me?

Or am I just another trip in this strange relationship

Gimme that strange relationship

Never felt pleasure and pain like this

Something so right but it feels so terribly wrong

I keep holding on

Gimme that strange relationship

One of us gotta let go of this

I keep pushing and you keep holding on

I'm already gone

darren hayes strange relationship

***

arrgh...i'm just so damn pissed off that i feel like crying already...someone go request for change of the prelims timetable...den now clash the CLA with geog1...i'm so going to perish...arrgh...wad a world of people...i would appreciate if they bother to ask the people affected first...and there's a better solution to this i'm sure...a day where everyone would not have any clashes...arrgh...oh well...now that my anger has died down...whatever la...crap...

farewell last fri but i was not able to eat like anything...just had my braces on you see...but its getting better now...i can actually eat wan ton mee just now...amazing...but that's not the main point...but the thing is though we're are like not super close to mr tan and some of us dont exactly adore him but i guess its the relationships that i have built up with my teammates...this special relationship...i do have alot of flaws and they are always so willing to accecpt me into this family...i dunno what what wld i have become had i not have this group of wonderful people with me...people like xiaojie who never fails to cheer me up and stuff like that...all the lame jokes that's not funny and the "rock the hall"...roommate..i'll always remember you...like i'm thankful that i dint have some other roommate...like geok...always being there no matter what...for bball stuff or non-bball stuff...always encouraging me and telling me not to dwell in it...i thank God for such wonderful people...                                                                                                                            i'll miss the trainings (like can you believe that??) but that's through and all the times that we have spent together...going to harbourfront and av to eat...den somethimes hv...all the unhealthy food that we stuff inside our mouth...my God...from cannot-make-it push-ups to standard ones...from sucky stamina to now(before we stopped trainings la...now we are back to square one!! hahah)...the waiting until very sian for trainings to start and actually not really looking forward to it...and hoping and doing all the rain dance in hope that it will rain and that we dont need to run outdoors to lab park or depot flats...which by God's grace we never once did...wad a slack batch...hahah...from strangers till friends till who we are today...let's keep this okAy?? you guys are like my only strength in SA and i wldnt have know what i had become without you guys...

not to forget the thailand trip that really bonded us together...let's re-visit the place ok?? must get janet and ah mah also la...then who was the one who say 2006 go germany watch world cup...i wanna go...heheh...we're and always will be the saints basketball 2003-2004...i love you guys tons...we were strangers starting out on a journey...unexpected what you did to my heart..and here we are i'm suddenly standing at the beginning with you..

anyway...that song above was NOT to illustrate the bballers...hahah...

hmmm...sat had a really good cell mtg...which never for a long time in my life i felt such strong presence of God...that really ministered...and that evening was the class BBQ...it turned out to be ok la...i guess it worked quite well...i mean we can actually get along if there are less gossiping amongst us that lead to unnecessary speculations that lead to misunderstaning...mrs tan and mad han came too...with su-ann (mrs tan) and her son ( mad hab)...they are so adorable...and that melvin is a paedopile...he's obesses with su-ann i tell you...oh well...hahah...but she's really cute and adorable...heheh...

sun had the church big day which we also officially launch into our sixth english service...our cell had overwhelming no of new friends which is great but i was rather down also...i hope that as we grow...the people orginally with us will continue to be with us too...together loving and serving God...trusting Him in all situations and never ever leave God for some other reason...we've started this race together...let's finish it together...we are a team, a family that without anyone would not be complete...hmmm...oh well...i guess that's about it before i get started all over again...hmmm...

 

hmmm...in the library...
weiwei not in school today...so i quite lonely...hahah...
actually was comtemplating of not coming one cos i was really tired...but the 3 periods of econs is just too much to be missed...oh well...so here i am while that weiwei is in the comfort of her bed...
got our prelims timetable today...i finish 90% of my papers in the 1st three days of the exams...hahah...die la...left with 4.5 weeks to prelims...and grades like O O F for bt2...its definitely time to start SERIOUS revision...
tmr is the farewell...so fast hor?? like everything is like so final already...
i'll miss everyone but this 2 years is not sth that i wld like to re-live...apart from the 1st 3 months of last year...

***

this is the sound of a revolution
this is a freedom declaration
this is the move of the Holy Spirit
 
this is the day that the prophets foretold
we have the promise of dreams and vision
this is the power of the Holy Spirit
 
show me the faith that will move any mountain
we're the heirs of His Holy kingdom
this is the cross, its a place of decision
this is the power of the resurrection
 
we emerge! as a new creation
born again! by His Holy Spirit
we emerge! as His generation
 
we emerge! as a new creation
on the edge! walk in revelation
we emerge! as His generation
 
we will go we will go for God beyond the limits
we will go we will go for God beyond the limits

city harvest church emerge 
 
***
 
that's the new song that kc and gloria wrote...
its funky...:)
on a monday, i am waiting
tuesday, i am fading
and by wednesday, i cant sleep
then the phone rings, i hear you
and the darkness is a clear view
cuz you've come to rescue me

fall...
with you, i fall so fast
i can hardly catch my breath
i hope it lasts

ohhhhh
it seems like i can finally rest my head on something real
i like the way that feels
ohhhhh
its as if you've known me better than i ever knew myself
i love how you can tell
all the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
all the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

i am moody, messy
i get restless, and it's senseless
how you never seem to care
when i'm angry, you listen
when youre happy, it's a mission
and you wont stop 'til i'm there

fall...
sometimes i fall so fast
well, i hit that bottom
crash, you're all i have

ohhhhh
it seems like i can finally rest my head on something real
i like the way that feels
ohhhhh
it's as if you known me better than i ever knew myself
i love how you can tell
all the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

how do you know everything i'm about to say?
am i that obvious?
and if it's written on my face...
i hope it never goes away... yeah

on a Monday, i am waiting
And by Tuesday, i am fading into your arms...
so i can breathe

ashlee simpson pieces of me

***

it wld used to describe so well sth that is in the past
but that's not the end
cos i'm grateful to have the priviledge
to have known you

***

oral in like 5 mins...
its the 'A' levels one...so dawns on you that 'A' is actually very near...in fact we're 5 weeks away from prelims in case some people are still dreaming...i know that i have to start studying and give up on all the past failures...i studied hard but the results tell otherwise...can i just sit here and be depressed...i bet many wld kill me for doing that...its time to pick up the pack and head towards the future and leave the past behind..but can i do that...i need the strength from wherever i can...

***

council stepping down ceremony today...
i felt really sad too though i wasnt one of them...wld i have been part of them if i havent chosen bball over council?? wld i have gotten in even if i did? all that i never know but i know that i wld have been someone really different...cos of the spirit and things you do..i never regret joining the bball family cos there's another kind of achievements that you earn but there is just the 'what if?' that's in my mind now...cos i know for sure that i wld have tried to be ont in another school if not here...
thanks to the 26th for all the support that you guys have shown us and believing in us...thanks a bunch...i guess we never showed you guys all the appreciation that you guys deserve...salute to you guys...
had the honour to host the thailand school that we visited back in nov last year yest...the juniors played a game against them and lost 25-26...it was a closed game..looking at them play...i have mixed feelings la..like was hoping that i was the one playing but at the same time i was thinking otherwise...as much as i love the j1s but i dont exactly wanna play in the same team...there's tremendous amt of stress that far surpass that of the current j2 batch...i'm gald that despite us being not as talented God worked for us and brought us so far into the comp this year..i'll be praying for all the j1s...they are so talented...i hope that they achieve more than us...but nonetheless...i'm looking forward to playing with my fellow j2s in the coming farewell...let's hit the court and enjoy the heat of the game...like wad xiaojie always say "rock the hall"...but then after that is more studying and mugging le...and i'm looking forward to trying a new sports hopefully in the uni...hahah...i hope so...God directs...

here's sth nice and meaningful for everyone of us...and esp to those ppl out there you know who you are...you guys are my cracked pots that i'm so glad to have in my life...and i hope that i'm one of yours too...

===

A water bearer in India had two large pots, each hung on each
end of a pole which he carried across hls neck.

One of the pots had a crack in it, and while the other pot was
perfect and always delivered a full portion of water at the end
of the long walk from the stream to the master's house, the
cracked pot arrived only half full.

For a full 2 years this went on daily, with the bearer
delivering only one and a half pots full of water in his master's
house.

Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments,
perfect to the end for which it was made.

But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection,
and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what
it had been made to do.

After 2 years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure,
it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream.

"I am ashamed of myself, and I want to apologize to you."

"Why?" asked the bearer. "What are you ashamed of?"

"I have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only
half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak
out all the way back to your master's house. Because of my flaws,
you have to do all of this work, and you don't get full value
from your efforts," the pot said.

The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and in his
compassion he said, "As we return to the master's house, I want
you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path."

Indeed as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice
of the sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the
path and this cheered it some. But at the end of tile trail, it
still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and so
again it apologized to the bearer for its failure.

The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were
flowers only on YOUR side of your path, but not on the other
pot's side? That's because I have always known about your flaw,
and I took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side
of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream,
you've watered them.

For 2 years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers
to decorate my master's table. Without you being just the way
you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his house."

Moral: Each of us has our own unique flaws. We're all cracked
pots.

Some of us don't grow old gracefully, some are not so smart,
some are tall, large & big, some bald, some physically challenged,
but it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives
together so very interesting and rewarding.

You've just got to take each person for what they are, and look
for the good in them. There is a lot of good out there. There is
a lot of good in you, everyone of us actually...

Blessed are the flexible for they shall not be bent out of shape.
Remember to appreciate all the different people in your life!
Or as I like to think of it - If it's not for the crackpots in my
life, it would be pretty boring.

===

i'm not perfect and i have many flaws...
there are many times when i do certain stuff that people thinks that i'm purposely doing it but then i'm just being me...some bad habits takes time to change and i'm trying to...for those that i know of..others i hope that you can tell me that i can change but put it across in a more gentle way...because as much as i look and act as if all the tings dont get to me...they do...most of the times...and i wld thank you for being such a true and nice friend that i thot i never had...
wad a **** load of emotions...oh well...
life is beautiful............

=== hahah...i'm 2 teeth lesser now than yesterday...
went to extract my teeth yesterday...its less painful than from wad others say...by God's grace...and that i have to go thru again on sat...sigh...the things that you do for the sake of better looking teeth...hahah...

***

i think below is a lovely story...
that in all situation i think we sld see beyond our circumstances and look at the things that we have and not on those that we do not have and blame God for that...

===

When burdens are so BIG and your Strength is no longer enough to carry them. Know this, Where your Strength ends, the Grace of God Begins.

The Invisible Letter:

Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?"

The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care anymore? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said goodbye to her son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair.

"Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else.

"I said no at first, but Jimmy said, "Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom."

She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."

Sally walked out of Children's mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house.

She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things, back in his room exactly where he had always kept them.

She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Lying beside her on the bed was a folded letter.

The letter said: Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say I LOVE YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again.

Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room, and old stuff to play with.

But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, y'know.

"Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything.

The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD!

And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important.

That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you goodbye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed.

"Well, y'know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you.

God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him- 'Where was He when I needed him?'

God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.

"Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. " To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool?

I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life.

Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore ... and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either.

That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was Special Delivery! How about that?

Signed with Love from: God, Jesus & Me.

===

when love is shown in another way that you expect it to come...it doesnt mean that the people around does not love or care for you...but in their own special way they are praying and caring for you...true love does not have to be shown on the surface...just like Jesus dying for us...we do not know it at first but He died for us nonetheless praying that one day we'll come to know Him...and that is my prayer too for all those who are yet to know God or is far away from Him...when you love someone you love them too much to leave them the way they are...that you wanna bring out the best in them... that is why God love us too much too see us remind the way we are to allow us to go thru trials that we'll emerge stronger...

hmmm...forzen...
went to put my separators yest...
like wad the dentist says...
i'm feeling a little sore...
that dont feel good...oh well..
its too late to back out now...
in two days...i'll lose the first 2 out of 4 teeth...
ouch...
its a miserable day for me...
why cant the t'chers just give back the papers...
and not try to torture us by going thru it and you know that you didnt do well already but dunno how bad it is...crappo...
arrgh... i hope that i get out of this soon...feeling so down and tired...
we changing to sunday service...2-4pm...
the new english service that the church is starting...
so we're sort of going to be the pioneers...hahah...
its ok...we'll grow...amen???
heheh...so used to a sat service already that i forgot wad it's like to be in sun service...hahah...
You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.


What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)


hmmm...in the library now with vonne and winnie...hahah...the 3 of us all same fate the internet at home died then our SINGTEL lines all got cut off..how sad right?? hahah...oh well...

hmmm...got back the CLA papers le...sigh dont talk about it man...i got a big fat F for it...my first in my entire life...so that's really bad...then mr lee was going thru the econs pp dis morning...sigh...that's my most confident pp but i think i screwed that as well...i studied the hardest for this exam but i think the results will tell otherwise...wad irony to do better when you dont study as hard...i really dunno..but i guess i have to make a decision to make it a stepping stone or a tombstone for me...whichever way that i want it to be i guess...oh God...i feel so weak...gimme the strength to carry on...i hate it...

***

what gave you the right to scold me...to question me about my faith and point fingers at other people...wad gave you the right to say so many things when in the first place you dont deserve my respect...someone who cant even provide for the child...i think that is your responsibility...so why are you complaining about it?? someone who ask me go and work and earn money when i have an important exam in three months time...do you think i like to endures all your shit if i can handle work and studies at the same time and dont?? that you say so much about everything and complain but never solve the problem...it aches my heart to say all these...but i always wonder why cant i have a proper life...that i can study in peace but i have to come out to work at the age of 14 and still get your shit from trying so hard...to be someone that will not be looked down by other people in the society...by not letting other people know that i'm in lack...that i'm ashamed to be living the kind of life that you are providing me...i just wanna complete my studies in peace...you just comes home and give me all the shit...have you thot of how i felt and how bad you appear to people?? you dont...i pray everyday that it wld be a peaceful day...usually i heave a sigh of relief if i do get...why do i have to go thru all these?? cant you pick yourself up?? i feel guilty saying all these...i know that i have to honour you...i'm just very sad...sigh...i know that if i hate you...i've become like you...so i dont...i love you...i really do but why do you always question that...i just want to be normal...i wanna be successful...i wanna be anything but who and what you are...to be able to live a normal life in any case...oh well...you just dont understand...

***

hey...i'm sorry i gave you all the crap...i know that there's nothing that i can do about the past exams...i'll work towards the more impt one...and remember i told you i wldnt cry wheni get my results the next time...thanks for the kick in the butt...not many will offer me that...thanks for waking me up...you take care...i love you...

***
really like the new worship song that our church have...
written by our own members...i shall put it up the next time...
i wanna write songs too...write chinese songs and as we go into china...it will be the songs that they will sing as they worship God...
bt2 is officially over and i await my doom...i dont deny that i studied...i studied and i really did...whether effective or not is another ting but i did srudied and i dont think i ever studied so hard in my 18 years...but i have a feeling that the results will tell otherwise...like really dunno how to answer...so wad exactly is the point of studying??? mayb i have been in the wrong fac for the past 1 1/2 year..sigh...

went with the bballers to sentosa on fri...and i finally got my long awaited tan...though its not glowing healthy but its better than nth...and we had fun..i think that my vball skills improved...hahah...then after which we went to sakae for buffet dinner...hahah...didnt really get to eat that much...come to think of it like nth like that...waste my money...hahah...den we walk to esplanade there and we sat there and talked till like midnight like that den we all reach home very late...hahah...actually we saying that tonight wanna ton to watch the euro finals one but in the end not going to la...hahah...speaking of the euro finals...so disappointing la...my c. republic...oh well... the balll is round...so sad that germany first round out liao lo...den the finals like so screwed...oh well...not that i'm a HUGE soccer fan but then...sigh...

i think that i need to cut my hair soon...people asking me to keep long wor...but i think that i need a trim...when i have the cash perhaps...

yuxing...i finally blogged le..then you have sth to read le...hahah...anyway i know that sa rox...dont nid to proclaim it so loydly in your blog...and i know even more that sa bball rox...hahah...eh...i didnt hear your blog music leh...you got put properly not??? hahah...alright la...gtg le...take care wor...i'll miss you during the week...my guai *bu yao lian* meimei...hahah...love you...
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