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Tuesday, April 26, 2005 // 0 comments
===as i sail with you across the finest oceans
on our way to find the key to our emotions
together will we move the clouds to brighter days
some people question what i say
try to break up u and me
but i know this love between us is growing stronger
u can call me whenever, from wherever
just remember that i'll be there
through all the stormy weather
us break up never, no,
we'll be together forever
u dont miss ur water till the well runs dry
but i believe so strongly with u and i
can somebody answer me the question why?
u dont miss ur water till the well runs dry
as i close my eyes, sit back while reminiscing
of when we used to fuss and fight but end up kissing
there may be sad and painful times along the way
but in my heart u'll always be everything and more to me
for u are always on my mind
u are always on my mind
u are always on my mind
u are always on my mind
listen, if u ever get the feeling u
when playin start cheatin me
but u dont miss ur water until the well runs dry
craig david you dont miss your water (till the well runs dry)
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if you search yahoo and type in -you dont miss the water till the well runs dry-
anyway...i think that i really havent blogged for very long and there are so many things that happened...perhaps in a more private ways that people dont know but really i've done alot of thinking recently and yar hopefully things will just work out better...oh well..
I NEED A JOB (BADLY!)- that's the understatement of the year man...anyone got anything to intro...pls let me know but the pay gotta be decent too la...
after slacking and shopping...i'm totally broke...sigh...
you know how people just keep asking about the university admission and whether you are accepted into anywhere yet or not...i think that has been sth that has been bothering me, like i dont think that my grades were that bad but it's not that good either and i havent heard anything from smu so not much hope and i'm banging on NUS but what if i ended up with school of building and real estate?? no offense to people out there who wants to go there but that's not exactly where i wanna go yah?? and the intensity of this whole thing is just piling up and the suspence is woah...unbearable...
went tanning with meiyan and lester yesterday...and we're totally chao ta...hahah...pain lah...i think the way meiyan describe her excitement for teh fishy is mild term yah?? she got totally excited abt that poor family of fishy(s) that she and lester spent like an hour on and off trying to catch them but then again...thank God that He created them with quick reflexes...if not the whole family wld be in heaven now...hahah...yours truly got so bored with that that i cannot be bothered with them and went to tan...hahah...but now...meiyan is more burnt..hahah...
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thoughts, things, people in your life
pain, sadness and disappointments
words, actions and scarring pain
me, myself and who to blame?
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i've been thinking alot and thanks to pms-ing that i've been feeling quite depressed..and not to forget that there are things that people said that really scarred me la...was feeling really tired and things like that...its funny how some people thinks that when other people appears to be ok..their lives are ok...just that there are people who choose to put others in front of themselves...and why is it that there are people who are intolerant of other people's weaknesses and totally overlooked their own...this few weeks had been a period of growing for myself...i've seen my own weakness in such a way that from now on i'll look at other people's with a more open mind and heart. i looked back and i thank God for those people in my life who stayed through and are still around me tis day...they've seen the good and the ugly...yet, they stayed with me, tolerating all my nonsence and rubbish and did not reject me and even more so God who sees everything look at me through the blood of Jesus and saw the potential instead of my weakness that despite everything He still used me...how many times i have failed but God never gave up on me and still believed in me and sending people into my life to help me and to encourage me, that though they are imperfect too but we complement and function together. i have to learn this art of looking past the weaKness and loving people more just as they are...after all, someone...many people did that for me...and i thank God for that...
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why that song at the beginning of the entry??? cos i was just listening to that a few days back and just keep replaying that and i recalled some things, some people and some places. funny how you lose some things and some people that you will never have them back again. they might still be there but its no longer the same. cos the feelings changed and its never the same...is it really true that you wldnt love and treasure sth till you really lose them and never have them back again...i'm not too sure but i dont think that is me.
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do you still remember those times?? those places?? and people??
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I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called
but someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me
Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again
Springtime in the city
Always such relief from the winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold
If you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda,
don't stop
Keep that chin up,
you'll be all right
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?
I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the priceI'm still paying for it every day
So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
savage garden - i dont know you anymore-
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i don't know you anymore
i don't recognize this place
e picture frames have changed and so has your name
-- what i wldnt give to see your face, to see you---
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Saturday, April 16, 2005 // 0 comments
hmmm...really havent blogged in a while...i've quit my job and at the moment slacking away man...hahah...oh well...
actually recently abit the depressed that's why people have to endure my sucky attitude...i guess i wasnt the best person to get along recently...oh well..but i'm better now...
anyway...ran into khairul on the train just now...havent seen him for quite a long time already...what a pleasant surprise...and i guess that sort of brightn my day...you know seeing someone you habent seen for very long?? hahah...people you guys remember khairul?? hahah...he's that supposedly most good looking guy in our primary school...ring a bell?? hahah....
oh well...
gotta thank everyone who remembered my birthday and so esp yun siang lest who went through so much to celebrate my birthday...i really appreciate that though it may not appear that way...esp the poor siang who is sick but still got dragged out by me...heheh...thanks guys...love you all lots...
oh and i love that zigzaw puzzle...heheh...love you guys...
and for those who forgot...REPENT!! hahah...kidding la...
think i going to sleep le...there's cell tm lasnd oh...we're changing back to svc2...i'm so going to miss all my choir people la...sigh...but i guess that the change is a good thing...
