Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

:: Look What You've Done :: Jet ::

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its one of those crap days that i really feel alot but really dunno what to put down in words.
that is the song from ~A Lot Like Love~ which i watched on friday ($9.50 is alot for a movie tix man) anyway...think that sometimes books and movies arent really a good source of entertainment when you're trying to keep your thinking sane...i've been thinking alot and just feeling alot cos of the shows that i watched and particularly the 2 books that i read the past 2 days...(i read fast when i want to...hahah)

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life is always full of people leaving and walking in and out of your life. the only difference that each departure makes is whether the person is someone whom you treasure and love or Not...another difference is whether the person is returning or not. many times we missed the chance to show someone (be it our friend or love one or our family) how much we appreciate and love them...and that moment is gone forever...nothing hold and freeze in time except for a snapshot that is taken and that is just a illustration of the emotions at that moment in time...becos you never feel exactly the same way ever again.

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farewell is hard to say but i thank God that its not today
my wishes and thoughts i send with the wind
to where your feet will tread upon
miles and miles away

when the wind blows you'll know
that there is someone that you know
sends the wishes through the air below

live life and live well
take care and farewell
only time will tell
if everything goes well

sat beside the window and looks out
how the cars like flashes just passes
how time like wind will just flies
how its never the same again for you and i

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sigh. what a load of rubbish for today...i think i better go and do something that is more productive and make sense instead of dwelling in this emotion and rubbish...hahah

=== arrgh...that stupid yahoo! mail has got problem...and i cant log in man... *sigh* so pathetic la...so i ended up blogging...

i read that article about the SPG...seems like i'm the laggin one that only found out about the article like today when i saw the new paper at ntuc...hmmm...i guess that we dont infringe on what other people's belief or anything but seriously i question the moral values la...then again...this is a free world and the net has allowed the transmission of information like never before...actually there are alot of things on my mind now and there is nothing that can stop me from voicing out my opinions...but i guess i sldnt just impose my beliefs on others and those who reads...but i do agree with the press and mo qi friend that it is getting too much publicity.. if the whole thing is just about writing and the personal life then why the interviews and things like that?? i guess that's pretty much none-of-my-business..but i pray that one day she'll come to her senses and stop hurting herself like that cos i think she's pretty much a nice person from what i know...oh well...

slept for only like 6 hours in the past 60 hours...so i think that i look like a zombie now..hahah...but that trip to the bukit timah hill is a nice one and i guess that's a refreshing change for the cell (from the usual SENTOSA) haha...and there are pretty interesting stuff that we saw like HUGE ants and lots of monkeys, not to forget the "dragon" that we saw..i like the monster caves...hahah...it wasnt that scary la...was trying to create atmosphere la guys...hahah (joy will prob go: ya la...like real...ahahah...) but i'm glad that everyone enjoyed themselves...though there were only a few people there...i think the only part that we hate is the 100 over steps we gotta climb...heheh...

* the yahoo! mail still cant access lah (with e acent of the female taxi-driver from the father's day drama) *

didnt get anything for daddy for father's day...am feeling really bad..cos i just got my pay but i gotta pay all teh bills and they are like sort of gone already...hmmm...here's a happy father's day to my daddy...i love you!! and to my heavenly Daddy too!!!! *smiles*

anyway...nus rejected my appeal for business...my results that bad meh?? anyway...since that's sth that i prayed about --> i prayed that God will lead me to where HE has called me to be...so i guess that's His plans...just like 2 years ago...the switch from nj to sa?? hmmm...His thoughts are higher than my thoughts and His ways are higher than my ways i know...so now...its all behind just look forward to the great time in school...another 6 weeks...so exciting man...after rotting for sOOOOOOOOOO long...hahah...and there are so many people in nus...particularly fass...like my roommate, da piggy, peiyun, the many people from nus pos...*grinne* my two mo qi friends..someone's crush (hahah...she's going to kill me...opps...) and prob the rest of the people who arent somewhere else are in fass la..oh well...we'll know a few years down the road about this whole arrangements and i believe that God has a great plan in store...heheh...

my weiwei...sorry ah...i tried la...so cant accompany you... *sigh*

finally got into yahoo! mail...so go check mail le...hahah... hahah...was working yesterday and guess who was filming there...i guess that is a popular filming location...that day fiona xie was there then yest was slyvester...yapzz that spore idol finalist whom alot of people where crazy about...just that they were filming at the rouge sign...then its just outside my kitchen and they totally block my way and i kept giving them black face...cos da think-he's-so-great chsf is screaming at me and the rest of the cooks in the kitchen and the people outside rushing us for the food...and to makes things worse...the people filming and blocking my way...so what if they are stars...we're just trying to do our jobs here as well la...oh well..hahah...what a day la...
but it was an interesting day cos me daniel and lihao went to check out bukit timah for our cell outing...havent been there for a while so its quite nice just alot of insects and monkeys...heheh...but i sweat quite alot...rather humid...those who are free...join my cell group to hiking to bukit timah nature reserve this sat...its going to be fun man...heheh...the more the merrier man...hahah...
speaking of bukit timah...was taking 171 down the road that passed by the good 'o road that was leading down to njc past sixth ave that brought a surge of nostagia...hmmm...the good 'o njc days...hahah...i guess that is sth that i wldnt forget...not only the place i guess but also the many people there...and not to forget the good 'o walks down the road (hahah...i think only YOU will know right?? hahah) and the brazilian waxing...hahah...dunno why i remember such dumb things man...really..hahah...and the many sunsets in njc...haha...its like 2 years already la...time files...
nevertheless....God brought me to SA and met another group of wonderful people...different they may be...but all so impt and dear to me...
anyone know of any cheap getaway?? cos i'm totally broke but wanna get away for awhile before school starts...heheh...so anyone who knows can let me know la...heheh hmmm...been rather busy with all the emerge pos prac that life pretty much revolve around pos...but i think that the efforts are worth it cos NUS...we got 2nd and when all the israelites are back we'll be on our way to marche...heheh...and our unforgettable cheer! yeah!
but i was glad that i was able to meet so many new people and not only that but all of them are so on fire and making a difference in the lives of the people around them and i'm just so glad that when school starts there will already be pple i know in school...heheh

june 7 to june 9 -- Extraodinary Emerge Conference, City Harvest Church
day 1
we went early to queue up, thank God that we manged to get into the audi and it was really good. but the highlight of the day is the pos during the night conference...cos thats what we've been practising for man...and we started all the makeup and all the hair early in the afternoon...and i guess that everything is worth it cos i'm sure that its a perfoemance that would bring a smile to God's face...heheh...then there was tons of photo taking...esp gotta take with Liwei...cos we got the same name...hahah...and the same phone and the same bottle...i sldnt go on man...hahah...then we miss the bus...took cab back la...hahah...
day 2
we went early but not that early but due to a communication error of the usher...we managed to get in quite early so managed a 4th row seat just behind the cell leaders...the session was great...there is this indonesian song that is just fantastic...though i can sing it very well...the night session...needless to say is just great!
day 3
unwillingly dragged myself out of bed for the extreme sports at sentosa...cos i told the NUS pple and lester that i would go and support...unknowingly...i got a sunburnt...not that smart...so am red even till now...but it was good...we've got great news -- we're in top 3...at the end though we didnt get first but it was ok...becos there's more to it than winning la...hahah...then there was alot of photo taking again...we got overall 2nd too...heheh...we were saying that we gotta influence all the JC cluster to come NUS next year...hahah...those who chance upon it...come to NUS next year...we're waiting...hahah...

but the main thing at the end of the conference is not the excitement or the fun but really the presence of God that was so tangible in the place...seeing all the youths so hungry for the touch and the Word of God...i remember so vividly about the 3rd night cos the presence of God was so strong there in the audi, many were there but i realised that not all were touched...maybe this year emerge conference is not a HIGH one for me but it is definitely one where this dryness and emptyness has been filled..where my visions and dreams are once again brought to life and most importantly is the closeness that i felt being reunited back to the heavenly daddy. what touches me is the zeal and the passion that our leaders had for God that kept them going for the past 15 years of their lives. perhaps it was just 1 touch but it was enough to keep them going. though the road had been hard and difficult but that 1 touch kept them going on and strong for the vision and the God that they believe in. how different am i from them, how can i ever say that i'm doing works of the kingdom when my passion and love for God is not even 1% of that of that of our leaders when they first came to know God...no wonder God is able to do so many great and mighty things with their livees and through their lives. there is no time to waste, if we were to soend time deciding and wondering the route to take...others would have gone so far ahead without us and we would miss the kairos moment of our life. life is full of decisions, this week i made mine, though its not going to be easy...i wanna stick to it and the cause that i believe it.

Bila kubuka mataku (When I open my eyes)
Dan lihat wajahMu (And look at Your face)
ku terkagum (I am amazed)

Bila kulihat hidupku (When I look at my life)
dan semua karyaMu (And all Your creation)
ku tersanjung (I am amazed)

Kar'na semua yang baik (Because all good things)
dalam hidupku (In my life)
itulah karyaMu (They are Your creation)
Kau b'ri k'sempatan yang baru (You give a new chance)
Dan kuingin mengenalMu, Tuhan
(And I want to know You, God)
Lebih dalam dari s'mua yang kukenal
(Deeper than all that i have known)
Tiada kasih yang melebihiMu
(There is no greater love than Yours)
Ku ada untuk menjadi penyembahMu
(I am here to be Your worshipper)

-that's the indonesian song that pastor sidney lead during the conference...i was crying my heart, soul and eyes out man...what an anointed song...no wonder revival is strong in indonesia..heheh...i love that song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant wait for pastor sidney to come back!

once i have turn my face from thee
yet You sought me and You cleansed me
Made me whole again
Jesus my Saviour
My Beloved and Friend
Your Praises i bring
From my heart i sing

draw me, o draw me away
Messiah today
To Your presence to stay
O Jesus now change me and mould me
that i can be
evermore true to thee

You are the shepherd of my heart
You have brought me to Your Chamber
My Master and King
You light up my darkness and gave me Your Word
That You'll never forsake me
Nor no ever will leave me

:: Once I have turned my face from Thee ::

to those who dunno...this song is written by Pst Kong...yapz...really...
during the last night of the conference i felt really ministered and really touched by this song..many a times...we draw away fom God...caught and awed by the many things in our life be it the things in the world or even our own ministry...but there is something that will never change-- the love that God has for His children...how often we turn our face away from our heavenly father but He never onve left us of foresake us...hmmm...
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