Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams sill left in my mind
But they can never came true, yeah
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain
Everytime I hear your name

The sun won't shine since you went a away
Seems like the rain's fallin' everyday
There's just one heart where there once was 2
But that's the way it's gotta be
'til I get over you…

Walked throught the park in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but
I just can't escape memories of you every where
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
I can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

: : Until I Get Over You : : Christina Milian : :

no particular person or reason for this song, jus happened to be listening to it jus now on the way home. just thought that this seems like a rather sad song, yet this is the case for alot of people that i see around me now. either they cannot get out of the valley or they get out of it by getting into new relationships. guess that life is really a long and winding journey that we have to go through many trials and testings. and becos we are all different the tests that we go through are all different. many people tests are the area of relatioships but there are other people who dont have much woes about relationships yet they are tested in other areas. *hmmm*

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you take a look at the many failed relationships in the adults life that ended in divorce and you watch those dramas where the child grew up without their mom or dad by their side. that is a scary thought that so many relationships are not working out well. yet, there are many who are taking it so lightly nowadays. its not just about a feeling but there are more to that, it requires more like commitment and much more than just plain emotions.

arrgh..what a load of blabbering...

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the more i watch the show, the more i thought of you. in fact, you were never much part of my life, just that i dont know why the things, people and even a show will remind me of you. when you chose to leave even before my memory begins, you lost the right to the title that you sld have. i think i am still quite sore about this, even though it is quite a norm in the society now but i cant find the courage to tell people that fact. but i am learning to deal with that.
watching the show, i have a question in mind, will you like your namesake in the show ever appear in my life again? will i ever get to see you again? if that ever happens, how wld it be like? i cant picture that in my mind. i guess that there is no need for me to try to do that- cos i never bumped into you in Singapore when its so small, the chances are next to none.

someone told me that i am beginning to look like you and i ask myself is that true. i dont even remember how you look like now.

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if there is sth that time can do, it doesnt ease the pain, it just make you numb from the pain becos the images are no longer as vivid as before.
OLDER | NEWER