灰色的天你的脸
爱过也哭过笑过痛过之后只剩再见
我的眼泪湿了脸
失去第一次爱的人
竟然是这种感觉
总以为爱是全部的心跳
失去爱我们就要~就要
一点点慢慢的死掉

当我失去你那一秒
心突然就变老
the day you went away
喧闹的街没发现我的泪
被遗忘在街角t
he day you went away

我看着你走过街
还穿着去年夏天我送你的那双球鞋
银色手炼还耀眼你的世界
似乎一点也没有因此改变总

有一天也许我能把自己治好
再一次想起来应该要怎么笑
第一次爱的人它的坏他的好
却像胸口刺青是永远的记号
跟着我的呼吸直到停止心跳

: : 第一次爱的人 : : 王心凌 : :

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After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end I want to thank you
Because you made me that much stronger

When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
Called your bluff, time is up
'Cause I've had enoughYou were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wanna know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME
I am a fighter and I
I ain't goin' stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough

: : Fighter : : Christina Aguilera : :

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hmmm..why the sudden loading of two songs at one go? cos i just happened to be listening to it throughout the week.
there are certain period and time frame in your life that you will remember more than some others and there are some that you totally do not want to remember at all.

i look back at my life for as far as my memory takes me and i wondered why i reacted in a certain way at a certain point in time that you have no idea why you do that now. but i think that at that point in time, it made sense to you. However, many times, you choose to react in a certain way to protect yourself from any reaction that you feel that you may not be able to contain to sort of build a shield between yourself and the world. that is a very common way that most people choose to show themselves to the world- they choose to hide behind a mask and then they choose to hurt other people just so that other people do not have a chance to hurt them.

fighter was the song that garnered quite a bit of air time back in JC1- that was quite long ago but i guess indeed there are people and situations that have really made us stronger as the person that we are. i do not think that anyone can remain the same if they allow themselves to learn and shape by the people ard us. BUT it is possible when you just choose to remain that way. when you look back, the people who were your peers had already moved on in life and you wondered what happened and you try all means to drag those people back by slanders and all the things that you knew about those people when you knew them. but what good does it do to you by pulling people back? just so that they wldnt be in front of you? that is the kind of thing that someone who is drowning does- you kill both person. if a float is thrown in- either grab it and keep your life or just allow yourself to pass away instead of dragging someone else to die with you.

alright, why all those thoughts? i dont know!! i think there is something that the "end of the year" does to you..not only cos everyone is stressed and we just snapped more easily then we usually does but it is the time of the year where people start to reflect about what happened in the year that had gone by. i am not really doing a reflection- dont even have time to do that- just some stuf that happened recently. thank God for people who are more understanding and merciful to put up with and still love me just the same! you are my God-send!! :)

i dont think that i am perfect but i do know that there are areas that i am struggling with. i dont need affirmation from people and i guess likewise i dont need to be so bothered about the criticism as well- there will always be people who are unhappy with me and i just cant please everyone..haix.




















hahah..those are the photos from yvonne's 21st birthday..and the other side is our SSB class..i think that donny is going to kill me..hahhahaha..too bad for you that i have these pictures that i can blackmail you with..better treat us nice..hahaha..i really like the fingers star..very nice...
so many people's 21st birthday recently..its burning a huge hole in my pocket but its good to see that people are happY! hee.. :)

to jo: hahha..i'll catch your nose when it falls off..BUT i know that it wldnt drop cos God will heal you! *amen*

1 project down and 4 more to go! Go liwei!!!
and 3 weeks to exam!! i need strength and grace to go through this!
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