hahah...photo whoring posts are interesting..basically after haircut is always the best photo taking opportunity..hahah..*Ego* lolx     havent been blogging and actually dont have much in mind to blog about. i decided against the Taiwan Emerge trip unless there is a miracle- if not i take it as it is not in God's will for me to go for the conference. oh well, i believe that everything will turn out for good, at least there is still the Genting trip to look forward to this coming week. *hmmm* but of cos they are going to be quite different feeling but there are certain things that need to be decided on and there are certain things that need to be sacrificed.

i feel a sense of achievement cooking dinner for Father's day.. and i dint get anything burnt..of cos i took photos to keep as momentos..hahah..but i think all the cooking skills all rusty already lar..think need some polishing up..lolx..

they dint look that bad right? i still wanna open my restaurant, though obviously i wldnt be the cook if i wanna stay in business. hahah.

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You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all

Seeking you like a precious jewel
Lord, to give up Id be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of GodHoly is your name
Jesus, Lamb of GodHoly is your name

Taking my cross,my sin my shame
Raising again I praise your name
You are my all in all

When I fall down you pick me up
When I run dry you fill my cup
You are my all in all

: : You Are My All In All : : Dennis Jernigan : :

this is a really nice song that i heard on Estelle's blog. i went for service this week without knowing what to expect but i know that many people are praying for the atmosphere of the service and God is a God who moves when His people move in prayers. the choir really prayed before the service and i am so glad that the whole service was great. the drama was fantastic and the word simply get to you. i am reminded of days where you just come for service and the presence of God will jus touch your life, no gimmicks or trying to feel it. It jus come rushing down, like a waterfall, that is how great it is to be in the House of God.

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funny how some times some people want the whole world to know the agony and the pain that he or she go through whereas there are people who went through so much yet they are not dwelling in self-pity, they do not want people to be apprehensive as of how to react around them. i believe that it is not easy going through the valleys in our lives but i guess that doesnt give us the right to be nasty and horrible to hang around. emotions can be controlled, i am not saying that we sld supress our emotions but we can keep in under control that we do not appear so emotional all the time in all the wrong places in front of all the wrong people. i guess that pretty much boil down to how much you want other's to provide you with sympathy or not. *hmmm*

Gosh, i dont know what trigger those words. but i guess that this is a world where there are so many things that we need to learn to handle and deal with. sigh.

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well, world cup has started and is well in the midst of the heat of it. i havent been watching much but i heard of those really absurd ones. haha. but i support Germany!! Go Germany! haha. dont ask me why- there is no reason for my support! haha. Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams sill left in my mind
But they can never came true, yeah
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain
Everytime I hear your name

The sun won't shine since you went a away
Seems like the rain's fallin' everyday
There's just one heart where there once was 2
But that's the way it's gotta be
'til I get over you…

Walked throught the park in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but
I just can't escape memories of you every where
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
I can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

: : Until I Get Over You : : Christina Milian : :

no particular person or reason for this song, jus happened to be listening to it jus now on the way home. just thought that this seems like a rather sad song, yet this is the case for alot of people that i see around me now. either they cannot get out of the valley or they get out of it by getting into new relationships. guess that life is really a long and winding journey that we have to go through many trials and testings. and becos we are all different the tests that we go through are all different. many people tests are the area of relatioships but there are other people who dont have much woes about relationships yet they are tested in other areas. *hmmm*

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you take a look at the many failed relationships in the adults life that ended in divorce and you watch those dramas where the child grew up without their mom or dad by their side. that is a scary thought that so many relationships are not working out well. yet, there are many who are taking it so lightly nowadays. its not just about a feeling but there are more to that, it requires more like commitment and much more than just plain emotions.

arrgh..what a load of blabbering...

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the more i watch the show, the more i thought of you. in fact, you were never much part of my life, just that i dont know why the things, people and even a show will remind me of you. when you chose to leave even before my memory begins, you lost the right to the title that you sld have. i think i am still quite sore about this, even though it is quite a norm in the society now but i cant find the courage to tell people that fact. but i am learning to deal with that.
watching the show, i have a question in mind, will you like your namesake in the show ever appear in my life again? will i ever get to see you again? if that ever happens, how wld it be like? i cant picture that in my mind. i guess that there is no need for me to try to do that- cos i never bumped into you in Singapore when its so small, the chances are next to none.

someone told me that i am beginning to look like you and i ask myself is that true. i dont even remember how you look like now.

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if there is sth that time can do, it doesnt ease the pain, it just make you numb from the pain becos the images are no longer as vivid as before. When my world was in darkness
You spoke Your word
Night turns into day
Your beauty filled this place

When my world stood in silence
You filled my heart
With songs that never end
Forever i will praise

To think that the universe
Could not withhold Your glory
You choose to live in me
I'm so amazed

(and) I worship You Lord
My life in You restored
Here is my heart
make it Your sanctuary
For nobody else but Jesus only

You are faithful and true
Glorious Lord
All my life it is You i adore
You've touched my soul
Completed my world
I surrender to You

: : Sanctuary : : City Harvest Church : :

this week passed by so fast that i dint even have the chance to register and its already gone.
i thought through alot during this past week, i guess sometimes you slow down your footsteps and think through about your life. Retraces the steps that you took and wonders what wld happen if you had taken another path instead. That wasnt what that crosses my mind, cos i believe that no matter what happened, it happened that we can learn from it.
If you were given the opportunity to live on and live again, treasure it and try to live it to the fullest potential like never before. you never know when you may not get another chance for that to happen again cos you never know what tomorrow will bring. hmmm.

there is a floodgate of things that i wanna say when i am not in front of the comp but when i am in front of it then there is a sudden blackout and i dont know what i wanna say and pen it down anymore, i guess that is what we tend to do about things and about life as well.

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what are your dreams and your vision? a man without a vision will always go back to his past. many times along our walk down this path of life, there are many dreams and desires that we have and we dream of when we are young but as we grow older we lost the ability and the faith to dream. we dismiss the dreams that we have as impossible and stop ourselves from dreaming big things but to dare only to dream of things that we know that is definitely within our reach by mere human ability and talents. but we are often then not guilty of such an offense.

*tired lar..continue in the day time* here goes our hopes of going to NIKE to shop though i may not totally adore the brand but it wld still be good but we lost the bball game to JC (this one nvm..actually we won them..) and SOT (this is the one that provokes me!!!) but its over so let's not talk about it..but the guys were great..they were 2nd!!! jus behind the team emerge who is super..not that we are not good lar..heheh..all is well..the 3 points shoot out was so funny yet its too lose face to blog about it...lolx..

i still cant go for the sessions today..hopefully i can make it tml..now that daddy has gone through the operation liaox...the doc say that things look good and i am glad and thankful for that. first of all, for God's protection and healing, of cos not forgetting the people who have been ard always praying and encouraging, whether they are here physically or not they meant alot to me.
specially people like peiyun, bingren, alice, zhaohui and bro qizhi who made a difference in my life. and bestie for always being there with constant encouragement, you made your presence known. of cos the nurses at SGH..they are some of the nicest nurses that i have met..perhaps that is becos of prior experience is AH nurses..

i wanna make an appeal here..i am not going to sue AH or anything but i think that we owe it to the future patients of AH that we sld stand up for what we believe in. i think that they havent been convincing in their service and medical care and judgement. so if you had similar bad experience with AH do let me know. its for the future of the people who are seeking treatment there. but if you can do try to avoid AH as much as possible..do not be deceived by the myth that it is cheaper there cos SGH and some other hospitals are all GOVT so their rates are the same. but you get much better treatment and quality at SGH. now, this is what i can medical excellence.

as i walked in to the ICU after the operation, i see the smiles on the nurses and the doctors' faces, i understood what do they gain out of such a non-rewarding job. the satisfaction that they get is beyond what words can describe. for the teachers is impacting lives, for the CGLs its changing lives and for the doctors its saving lives. its not an easy job..i salute them!!! (not the AH ones of cos...)

you know sometimes when things happen in life, perhaps it is indeed a way of asking you to slow down and take a look at the world around you. had i carried on with life today wld be a hectic day - POS, then SUN fan then back to POS and the conference. but this allowed me to slow down and have some time to myself and to think through and work out my thoughts.

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God You are amazing, You are a great God..there is none that compares to You.
God's satisfaction is simply US!!
thank God for everything that I have now in my life.
Lord, i pray that Your strength will be there to guide my dad through now..its not going to be easy but with you ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!!
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