had the chance to catch Forbidden City at the Esplanade yesterday night. its my first time watching a musical at esplanade and i think that its a great piece of work. the vocals of kit chan is great! i was blown away. haha. but on top of that they chose to portray Cixi in a different light- not the usual domineering and aggressive nature but it showed the inner struggles that she went through and how many truths were manipulated and twisted to show what people wanted to hear.

this shows the hidden story that no one has seen before. people from the past and the present have this opinion that if a woman were to be successful and powerful that would mean that she is a nasty person and she would go through all the means to achieve that. often, what is being neglected is the fact that there is another side to the story. In the times where man are the head over the household and of the nations- Cixi had to take on the role that no other woman wld dared to think of, she had to rule the empire. Has anyone thought of how hard it might be for her? Instead people just add salt to the wound and add on to all the rumours about her and judge her as a horrible person. All these went down into History and no one gave her justise except this girl call Katherine Carl who wrote a book about her encounter with the Empress. BUT being a lady- she was once again regarded as being emtional and inaccurate in her portryal of the Empress- whom probably only bear her heart out to this western artist.

what has the society become of? where people do not regard the existence of woman in power and judge them to be ruthless just because they are sucessful? is this the way that we are socialised into thinking? then all the education that all of us receive has gone down the drain. i am not a feminist and i do believe that there are certain role for both male and female but its saddening to know that in a time where we are supposed to be more civilised and educated that such thinking still exist. I guess if anything that would take another few thousand years of civilisation to ever be able to change that.

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seemed like i have been on a movie marathon recently. let's see, i've watched Singapore Dreaming, John Tucker Must Die, Le Grand Voyage, Akeelah and the Bee..is there anything else? apart from John Tucker mus Die which is more of a comedy to hold much meaning (it does tell us about guys..hahha..keke) the other 3 films ar really good and all sld go and catch them. it makes you think though life and think about issues that you never thought of till this point in time. i shall not start on it, it will probably take forever to finish with what i have got to say man. but you will always need the media industry!!! hahahaha

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alright, gotten over the shock that someone gotten herself a boyfriend in Austraila, checked out her blog and check out the guy's friendster- that is the use of such media when you are trying to do things like this. hahha. if all is well, we will probably get to see him at the end of the year. its so exciting when your best friend has found the "one"..hahaha..makes your life interesting and exciting despite all the mandane things that take place everyday. hehhe. i think i am really starting to not make any sense at all. man.

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the one week break is almost over and let me say that i had done absoultely NOTHING. haiz. dont talk about it. i mean i dint get to do anything that has a tangible effect lah. i've caught 3 movies and a musical and talk to best friend and found out her secret and sent fookai off at the airport (and i met kiamin there too..the world is so small and i begin to wonder how wld life had been if i had taken up the suggestion to sign on with the army---i know its maddness that your own father actually suggested that!!!). on top of that, i went to see the chinese doc (yucks!! oh..its time to take the bitter medicine)

*hiatus*

yucks...its so bitter that it actually made my bitter green tea sweet in comparison.. sigh..
and that is all that happened. man. how unproductive i am . sigh

signing off... my eyes are closing but ping and i agreed that we NEED to blog about this..hahahaha..dont kill us..we cant keep this burning in our heart anymore..there was a piece of shocking news- we might even be able to rank it as a ground- breaking news. alright, i think that it may not have been that big a thing but it is big to me and ping. someone got herself attached without telling the 2 of us for 10 days- she actually managed to keep us in the dark for a good 10 days. to think that we are her best friends, eh i really think that the song in the previous post can be dedicated to you girl..so fast forget about us liaox leH..sigh..

the whole thing actually started with her asking me what is the rose on my msn screen and i told her its a marriage seminar finale thing. and she got excited about the course and at first i really thought that she is lying that she is gonna get married and having a boyfriend. but she was not. man..i am looking forward to see your better half. i am so happy for you that you found your mr. right. long dist relationship may not be easy but leave it to God to do the rest lah..He will preserve and resore. :)
---but we are still bitter that you took so long to tell us??? haix.. *disappointment*

so i spent the whole afternoon talking to her- though my day is gone but its really good talking to you guys.

thanks for the little things that made a different. you really brighten up my day..

i am real slpy, so i shall continue blogging tml.. i realised that i havent really blogged in a long time, the previous few times- they are all rather short and i dint say much in them. *hmm*

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第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你
我不会相信朋友比情人还死心塌
地就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我
不会确定朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心
我离不开darling
更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
拆穿我留些意怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形像保密

: : 一个像夏天一个像秋天 : : 范玮琪 : : 我们的纪念日: :

went k-ing with kelvin and yun today..havent wenf for k since the cg outing that day which is almost a month ago. this is a really nice song, i dint realised the meaning of the lyrics till now. its good and it speaks of friendship.

while we were hesitating on whether we wanna get the tix for Forbidden city, there was some other people who took the seats that we initially wanted to take. so we ended up with really bad seats or so it seems. let's hope that things will be fine- like we dont get a really bad view. it would be my first show at the esplanade- that is so exciting to watch sth of artistic expression- think that would be so cool. haha. plus i heard that the show is great. cant wait!! here is a poster! lolx..

actually we wanted to go for dim sum buffet but i think God feel that i am getting too big for my own good that He arrange it in such a way that i didnt get to go for it..haha..so we went to k-box like i said and then after that we headed down to get the tickets from esplanade and after which i went down to far east to get the bag that i wanted to get and i finally got it after much hesitation- cos my bag is totally dying and i think that getting a good bag will last longer than that red one which is relatively cheaper..so here is a preview of the bag..hahahah

**the picture refused to be loaded..so no preview of the bag..hahaha ***

well, after that i went for tuition..which i wld say is the least productive thing of the day. Gosh, i really need to do sth about the way the lessons always ended up being- its really sian and sad leh..and i do want him to do well for his 'o' levels leh- even though he might be really irritating. haix.

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the marriage seminar has come to an end and this might be good news- sld be able to get a rest and maybe dont need to attend sun service- not tat i complain about it cos the marriage seminar was great and it taught us a real deal of things even though we might not be married cos it teaches the things that apply for everyone..i think many people are truly blessed by it. :)

friends- what are friends? i think the song above is a good illustration but on top of that. i think that a friend is one who is there when you need them to. you realised that when you go through a period of tough times and you find out the people who are praying and those who are there physically for you. during the praise and worship on sun- we were singing a rather old song How Awesome is this Place and there was this part that jumped out at me- it says give me a new heart and a family--> when we become believers we are not jus a new creation in Christ but we are also given a new spiritual family and tough times will come but we are going to stick with this family for good. there might be changed just like a normal family but we endure and go through the changes together and we become closer together though it might not seem to be that way.

darling Xiaomei---> i think this is what i want you to know. you came to my mind as i am typing this. not sure if you will read this- i hope that you will. we are a family and i hope that you can stay with this family :) *huggs* and everyone of this family..let's brave the storms together!!! :)

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think i gtg le..so sleepy--> dont know what is wrong with me man..

havent blogged for a long time..i guess i totally lost the interest in writing though i am taking a media writing module. haha.

i was walking home that day and i saw this old granny picking up empty cans and crashing them so that she can sell it for money, that also reminded me of those grannies who work in the fast food chains. there is nothing wrong with them working, but it just aches my heart that they have to do that. some of them look so old and weak but they are still out there trying to make a living. Maybe some of them enjoyed it and it could be a good source of income. but its just so qi1 liang2..haix..
they should be somewhere enjoying their retirement in comfort where they no longer have to worry about finances and all the rest of the things. maybe they should travel around the world and spend the money that they had spent the years wokring for before that.

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i just cant stand irritating and over-sensitive guys...arrgh i caught the show today at cathy cineplex and i felt sad as the cinema is hardly filled at all. i think that there is a certain stereotype about the local productions and i dont deny that i am one such person as well. Nevertheless, i think all Singaporean and Non-singaporean alike for that matter sld catch this show-- Singapore Dreaming. like the critics- this is truly a show where reality is shown to you right in your face, it is totally thought provoking. i enourage that one sld go with an open mind and be thrilled with the acting and the emtions that is brought out by the cast and the story of this movie. *thumbs up*

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i should really get around to doing my readings and doing my reaction paper which are due tomorrow but just felt that wanna blog about this show. it make you realise the harsh reality of the life in Singapore and its toally true. i guess another thing that came to my mind was the extensive use of singlish in the show- if it was a true representation of the singaporean life---> we simply speck too much singlish. i guess i am just too used to watching shows were people spoke in (almost) perfect english. ahh well..

that's all for now i guess- my eyes are closing but there are still much to be done. its 2am in the morning of a friday. before i can blink my eye from that monday when i stepped into tutorial totally unprepared, here we are at the brink of the end of the week. time really flies this semster. the workload is crazy- i guess it has got nothing to do with the fact that i am doing 6 modules instead of the usual 5 modules. its funny how the teachers all say that JC is the worse period of your life- you get through it and nothing can stop you in the future. right and wrong. the stress from a levels is sth that i do not want to go through all over again, yet JC life is the last lap that you can still sit back and relax before you step into this competitive environment call the university.

if you are just someone who want to slack through your whole life- there is nothing wrong with not turning up for tutorials and getting mediocre grades. but if you want to excel- there are tons of people out there who are ready to give you a run for your money anytime. i have always taken a backseat in the past few semester in school, get out of there as soon as i can. But i am seriously starting to consider what would i be leaving behind in the campus? No one would probably remember my name anymore than they do about the person who clean the toilet- that's the extent of how low profile i am- not that i am complaining about that. However, that would mean also that i would graduate without value-adding to the degree that i am graduating with. something to ponder on.

if Kristo Kai Kosmos is to be able to take place in all of our lives, then we need to make our presence felt and our voice heard. i still dont understand why there are people who like to talk on the forum so much- though i do look at them. i guess i am doing it to get my point across and of cos to get the participation points. but these people- they do that with passion.

am already feeling the stretch from all the work from school, coupled with the other things that i have to do as well- not that they are much cos i feel that i used to do much more than that, i am one who is looking forward to a short rest of the mid-terms. to think that school jus started. well- in a way.

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back to the first love// the heart of worship//
take note of the little things//
what do i want to leave behind before i move on?//

fulfilling my purpose in the places that i am put in//

show me how to live, teach me how to pray
that i can walk with You, all of my days

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