All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word
'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You made me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me
If I could freeze some moment in my mind
The second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock, make time stand still
'Cause baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel
I dont know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens everytime
: : The Way You Look At Me : : Christian Bautista : :
my favourite song at this point in time- i think that it is really nice..put you in a nice mood!!! :)
alright i promised jo that i would read my bible then it is off to slp but here i am blogging..actue pain on the lower spine, i think it is the way my body is telling me that i am over working it a little too much..but what can i do if i have to study for the exams? and we couldnt figure out why is it like that..this is sianx leh..haix..
think this is really the sem that i am studying quite a bit..the other 2 sems there were so many tings that happened that really dint put me in the mood to study for anything but i guess i could have done better..
God is really good..i spent the whole of last night studying for nm2101- its a really hard module to study for becos of all the theories that you have to remember and understand- particularly the political economy one dint make any sense at all..not to mention that turning up for lect really dint make any difference. was totally panicky and i bumped into vonne and her friend outside the central library before walking over to the MPSH and nothing that they were talking about made any sense at all- but praise the Lord..when i saw that questions- they were nothing like that of last year's paper at all and i could answer them. from someone who wanted to get MC and skip the paper to someone who thinks that this paper is actually passable- i think that God is really a good God!! favour is very important and for that to be a daily occurence in our lives, gotta walk close to God and walk according to what He wants us to do. i thank You for your grace and mercy. i have yet to start on tml's paper so am going to slp early and wake in the morning to do the revision- i know abit the last min but the body really cannot take it liaox..hopefully blogging make me slpy enough to go and slp and i pray that it is a dreamless one..i want some quality rest.
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actually its not that bad a thing talking to issac..though sometimes must control larh..cos supposed to be mugging but he was so nice to run to west coast mac to buy food for us! thanks pal..like what we were saying yest- a blog supposed to let us write what is on our mind but there is always a tendency to self-sensor cos you will think about who is going to read the post..i didnt self-sensor in the past and you get some really trashy stuff that is floating ard on the internet but that was close to 4 years ago already..
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i cant help but think what is the way that i am suppose to react- am i just purely over-sensitive?
i have a tendency to do that and someone told me off that time once and that hurts big time. but it is a different situation now. but whatever larh..got to focus of the right things at the right time- all the other things sld just fade into the background becos they are distracting me from my best friend at the moment- books and notes and my home now is NUS central library. i think my life is a huge crazy spin. FOCUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3 more papers to go!! then i can think of the things that i want to think and do the things that i want to do becos i would have the time to do that..NUS thinks that it is funny to release our results on boxing day- bleahs..what a christmas present!
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oh yah..bestie is coming back next wednesday!! heehee and that is the day that i finish my exams..wahahaha..let my mind wander off and think of you and what we can do when you are back..hees..i want a holiday and lots of sleep.
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the heart knows what it wants-
so what is it?
they sld really do something about that door that just keep opening and closing which is really irritating me cos it opens and close every other minute (yes! there are so many people studying here still at this time- i tell you NUS is a scary place larh..and i am NOT one of the muggers k? just that as yours truly has not started on the 3 papers this week there is a need for me to study overnight to make up for it. plus i watched james bond just now- you get the idea of how much mugging i have been doing larh..) and why am i at this place becos i know that i will give in to the temptations of the BED so here i am in school to "mug". oh wells.
it just suddenly dawn on me that there is so much to do but you just cant gather yourself to study- yes! i am still human larh..who likes to mug? oh..on second thoughts there are people whose favourite pastime is to mug..haix but i am not created like that..thank God..hahah if not i think i'll just be so irrelevant..hahah..actually wldnt be cos i would know so much..arrgh..i just realised that i have been blabbering things that dont really make sense..haix..
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had a fantastic weekend services with pastor Phil and the CCC band- can i go for the presence conference in april??? hai..exam break during that time so gotta study but siang we'll be going to look for you in aussie next year- you wanna sponsor my air tix as my 21st birthday present since you are so going to miss it?? hahahah..that is a thought worth considering!!!
anyway, back to the service- pastor spoke about prayer and i thought that it was just fantastic!! woah..and there is this point that he said-
if God is the only thing that we have left in the world, would it be enough? and i think that it is so true larh..there are points in my life that have said that if i only have God in my life, it would have been enough but most of the other times, we focus on asking God to do things for us rather than on He Himself and that is something that we are all guilty of..
hahah..moving place..from the noisy door..thats all for now..
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uncle, in case you dint get my comment post on your blog, i shall use some space and post it here as well..hahaha
hahaha..i am supposed to be mugging and i decided to take a break and i realised that i havent looked at yours for a long time. hahah..oh wells, the 5 love languages does not apply to how you treat people but also how you want to be treated as well- in a way is how you would feel appreciated by the people ard you..and i think yours is words of affirmation and quality time.
tell me about the way and the frequency of people hooking and breaking up- before i knew it some people changed their better half so many times that i lost track..hahah. dont be so sian larh..thingss will work out..times you wish that there is a "someone" to share everything but there is much more value to singlehood as of now larh..where got time xia..hahaha..take care k? and like i always say i do not believe in luck so all the best and God bless..
here is a verse for you:
all the best for those coming exams.. :)
agape,
Liwei
秋风悄悄的呼唤听来尽是孤单
落叶的期盼片片左右为难
心走寂寞攀跟著飘进黑暗
我不闻不问也许好过一点
被遗憾关在房间挣扎只是拖延
无望的空谈一声声的轻叹
回忆扯不断怎黱摆脱纠缠
找不到方向往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱在用幸福触摸忧
伤两个人相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光
找不到方向往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱在用幸福触摸忧
伤两个人相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光
有你在我身旁
: : 彩虹天堂 : : 刘畊宏 : :
i have never heard of 刘畊宏 before this but i thought that this is a really nice and soothing song that touches your heart..hees..oh..and there is another song i have of 刘畊宏 with is a duet with yvonne hsu..not that bad..i shall try to hunt for more of his songs- when i am more free of cos..
alright, i was supposed to be studying but here i am blogging and before that i was cleaning the house and toilet and no studying is done..i really think that my learning style is to study at night..but i think tat i better stuff a solid 2h of studying before i head out for meeting..haix..but at least n a brighter note, my room is cleaner and my fan is cleaner..arrgh just that i suffer from all the sneezing and rough hands after that..i think i shall hire a maid in the future..hahah
my latest study companion..hahaha..
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went to celebrate ryan's birthday yesterday and we went to this turkish restaurant at far east- i would say that the taste is unique..i think i am fine with it but not sth that i would eat everyday- i guess that you have to get used to the taste. after which we went to gelare!! I had mudpie..ooohhh..haha..it was ex larh..but not everyday is ryan's birthday..haha and not everyday i eat gelare...hahah..
scores for 2219 was quite good but it was bad for 3201- which is *&#%$^*()&#&$ arrgh got nothing to say about the module..for anyone who is considering nm3201 for next sem- pls think really hard..esp if they are having the same teaching staff...bleahx...
haix..
I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten,
and children listen
To hear sleigh bells in the snow
I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
With every Christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright
And may all your Christmases be white
: : White Christmas : : Carol : :
Sleigh bells ring, are you listening
In the lane, snow is glistening
A beautiful sight
We're happy tonight.
Walking in a winter wonderland.
Gone away is the bluebird,
Here to stay is a new bird
He sings a love song,
As we go along,
Walking in a winter wonderland.
In the meadow we can build a snowman,
Then pretend that he is Parson Brown
He'll say: Are you married?
We'll say: No man, But you can do the job
When you're in town.
Later on, we'll conspire,
As we dream by the fire
To face unafraid,
The plans that we've made,
Walking in a winter wonderland.
In the meadow we can build a snowman,
And pretend that he's a circus clown
We'll have lots of fun with mister snowman,
Until the other kids knock him down.
When it snows, ain't it thrilling,
Though your nose gets a chilling
We'll frolic and play, the Eskimo way,
Walking in a winter wonderland.
: : Christmas Wonderland : : Carol : :
this song is so nice..image the pictures that the song is painting..just so joyous and fun. but we cant do that in Singapore- i built a snowman before- not like those in the cartoon they are not round and nice- not easy to build when your hands are all frozen. then think again- your mind switch to another scene where you are with your love one in front of the fireplace with a cup of hot choc with melted marshmallow..nice leh..remind me of a scene out of the winter sonata..hahah..bit snow and christmas..so pure and nice..and then there is my other favourite- silent night..okok..sldnt turn this into a song-whoring post..hehe..and i do have alot of favourite songs..so the list is never ending de..hahah
christmas is coming!! that is so exciting! though before that can happen, there is exams and other stuff but christmas is coming..i love christmas!!! yeah..i think that i am bored xia..
haha..i finally had the Shilin chicken that i have been craving for but it was quite a disappointment..nevermind larh..so at least now i wldnt be thinking about it..hahaha..
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sam lest and i did something that was really funny- we went to east coast coffee bean after midnight then drink coffee and walk walk..that is something that you dont do all the time. i remember last time bo liaox with edz then we went all the way there to eat 20 piece nuggets and drink a large coke..so bo liaox..that was sec3..long time ago le larh..feels so old..
alright, i know that i have to start studying but abit sian leh..oh this is not a good sign xia..bobo leh...haix...
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i thought this is could esp the explaination- dunno if it is real not but quite nice..
On the first day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
A partridge in a pear tree.
On the second day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Two turtle doves, And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the third day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Three French hens, Two turtle doves, And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the fourth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Four calling birds, Three French hens,
Two turtle doves, And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the fifth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Five golden rings, Four calling birds, Three French hens,
Two turtle doves, And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the sixth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Six geese a-laying, Five golden rings, Four calling birds,
Three French hens, Two turtle doves, And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the seventh day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Seven swans a-swimming, Six geese a-laying, Five golden rings,
Four calling birds, Three French hens, Two turtle doves, And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the eighth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Eight maids a-milking, Seven swans a-swimming, Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings, Four calling birds, Three French hens,
Two turtle doves, And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the ninth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Nine ladies dancing, Eight maids a-milking, Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying, Five golden rings, Four calling birds,
Three French hens, Two turtle doves, And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the tenth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Ten lords a-leaping, Nine ladies dancing, Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming, Six geese a-laying, Five golden rings,
Four calling birds, Three French hens, Two turtle doves, And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the eleventh day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Eleven pipers piping, Ten lords a-leaping, Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking, Seven swans a-swimming, Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings, Four calling birds, Three French hens,
Two turtle doves, And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the twelfth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Twelve drummers drumming, Eleven pipers piping, Ten lords a-leaping,
Nine ladies dancing, Eight maids a-milking, Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying, Five golden rings, Four calling birds,
Three French hens, Two turtle doves, And a partridge in a pear tree!
: : Twelve Days of Christmas : : Carol : :
Religious symbolism of The Twelve Days of Christmas (The 12 Days of Christmas)
1 True Love refers to God
2 Turtle Doves refers to the Old and New Testaments
3 French Hens refers to Faith, Hope and Charity, the Theological Virtues
4 Calling Birds refers to the Four Gospels and/or the Four Evangelists
5 Golden Rings refers to the first Five Books of the Old Testament, the "Pentateuch", which gives the history of man's fall from grace.
6 Geese A-laying refers to the six days of creation
7 Swans A-swimming refers to the seven gifts of the Holy Spirit, the seven sacraments
8 Maids A-milking refers to the eight beatitudes
9 Ladies Dancing refers to the nine Fruits of the Holy Spirit
10 Lords A-leaping refers to the ten commandments
11 Pipers Piping refers to the eleven faithful apostles
12 Drummers Drumming refers to the twelve points of doctrine in the Apostle's Creed
thought tis was cool..hahah
havent been blogging. finally done with the projects just left with re-writes for NM 2220. and exams starts next week..went to colour hair at fox salon- so here are the photos.
actually it was quite torturous sitting there for 6hours while she did the hair for me..image how much more tiring for eve to do my hair. but i like the look that it is giving- green and blue- different from the usual one that you get red or blond that sort..hahah..
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情
还得不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多 是我还是你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽 停在这里
: : 暧昧 : : 杨丞琳 : :
actually, havent heard this song for a long time already but today we were listening to it while we were in class and waiting for the teacher to come. and we were just talking about this other friend who seemed to be too closed to this guy. hais..all these things are never-ending one. cant people just be in control of their lives and be responsible for their actions? or rather- know that you want bah..dont kou shi xing fei!! *bleah* dont know larh..
TENG WEI YAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how can you dunno who is 马德钟?? lolx..so for that matter- i put his photos here!! for viewing pleasures! haha..he is like quite old le..but still very good looking..hahahah..even my dad knows that i like him..hahaha..this is not a joke larh..but can only eye candy- you know anyone who look like him *ahem* (oh boy..what a load of rubbish..haha :p)
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exams are coming but that also mean some other things..meaning that both besties are gonna be back soon!! yeah!! why is this so exciting? cos i havent seen the both of them for almost a year- to think that you were in singapore for the whole 3 months and i only got to see you once- we gotta meet up when you are back for christmas k?
and abby!!! hahaha..must intro your dearie to us leh..so exciting *hehehe* looking forward to that already..haha..oh yah..church recently started a band- the orchestra type..so cool- and i just thought of you!! :)
miss you guys both LOTS!!!! christmas is coming and so are the both of yoU!!!!!
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i think that's all..oh yah..wenhan created a cg blog!!
check it out at http://n246.blogspot.com *smiles*
爱过也哭过笑过痛过之后只剩再见
我的眼泪湿了脸
失去第一次爱的人
竟然是这种感觉
总以为爱是全部的心跳
失去爱我们就要~就要
一点点慢慢的死掉
当我失去你那一秒
心突然就变老
the day you went away
喧闹的街没发现我的泪
被遗忘在街角t
he day you went away
我看着你走过街
还穿着去年夏天我送你的那双球鞋
银色手炼还耀眼你的世界
似乎一点也没有因此改变总
有一天也许我能把自己治好
再一次想起来应该要怎么笑
第一次爱的人它的坏他的好
却像胸口刺青是永远的记号
跟着我的呼吸直到停止心跳
: : 第一次爱的人 : : 王心凌 : :
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After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end I want to thank you
Because you made me that much stronger
When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
Called your bluff, time is up
'Cause I've had enoughYou were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wanna know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME
I am a fighter and I
I ain't goin' stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough
: : Fighter : : Christina Aguilera : :
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hmmm..why the sudden loading of two songs at one go? cos i just happened to be listening to it throughout the week.
there are certain period and time frame in your life that you will remember more than some others and there are some that you totally do not want to remember at all.
i look back at my life for as far as my memory takes me and i wondered why i reacted in a certain way at a certain point in time that you have no idea why you do that now. but i think that at that point in time, it made sense to you. However, many times, you choose to react in a certain way to protect yourself from any reaction that you feel that you may not be able to contain to sort of build a shield between yourself and the world. that is a very common way that most people choose to show themselves to the world- they choose to hide behind a mask and then they choose to hurt other people just so that other people do not have a chance to hurt them.
fighter was the song that garnered quite a bit of air time back in JC1- that was quite long ago but i guess indeed there are people and situations that have really made us stronger as the person that we are. i do not think that anyone can remain the same if they allow themselves to learn and shape by the people ard us. BUT it is possible when you just choose to remain that way. when you look back, the people who were your peers had already moved on in life and you wondered what happened and you try all means to drag those people back by slanders and all the things that you knew about those people when you knew them. but what good does it do to you by pulling people back? just so that they wldnt be in front of you? that is the kind of thing that someone who is drowning does- you kill both person. if a float is thrown in- either grab it and keep your life or just allow yourself to pass away instead of dragging someone else to die with you.
alright, why all those thoughts? i dont know!! i think there is something that the "end of the year" does to you..not only cos everyone is stressed and we just snapped more easily then we usually does but it is the time of the year where people start to reflect about what happened in the year that had gone by. i am not really doing a reflection- dont even have time to do that- just some stuf that happened recently. thank God for people who are more understanding and merciful to put up with and still love me just the same! you are my God-send!! :)
i dont think that i am perfect but i do know that there are areas that i am struggling with. i dont need affirmation from people and i guess likewise i dont need to be so bothered about the criticism as well- there will always be people who are unhappy with me and i just cant please everyone..haix.
hahah..those are the photos from yvonne's 21st birthday..and the other side is our SSB class..i think that donny is going to kill me..hahhahaha..too bad for you that i have these pictures that i can blackmail you with..better treat us nice..hahaha..i really like the fingers star..very nice...
so many people's 21st birthday recently..its burning a huge hole in my pocket but its good to see that people are happY! hee.. :)
to jo: hahha..i'll catch your nose when it falls off..BUT i know that it wldnt drop cos God will heal you! *amen*
1 project down and 4 more to go! Go liwei!!!
and 3 weeks to exam!! i need strength and grace to go through this!
