我到底做错了什么？
外头的风像我的心一样寒。
眼泪不由自主的流下来，
我到底怎么了？

原来人们活在这个世界上， 不是个人岛， 因为我们的一举一动都会音响到他人。
其实我不明白， 我真的不明白！

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actually there are alot of things that is on my mind and i wanted to write them dont in chinese but typing it out is not as easy as writing them out- as usual- the chinese stuff will be limited to writing and not typing.

do i really wanna publish this? maybe we'll just save this as draft..i dont know.

have you ever think about your own life and wonder what have you done wrong- you always think that it is the other person who has done wrong, then when you decide to take a look at it from another perspective, instead of arriving at a balanced conclusion- you end up blaming yourself and think that it is a mistake on your part. it could be something that you did wrong or sth that you fail to do or perhaps it is something tha tyou could have put it across in a different manner which can make a whole load of difference. we go to the extremes- either you blast it out at other person or you take it upon yourself. i dont know which category that i belong to but i think i belong to the latter.

everytime i dont feel good- i feel like going for a walk- so walking may not be a good thing after all..sort out the thoughts that are in your mind. off the phone and appear offline. be uncontactable for just even 30mins and just let the tears fall and walk past those unassuming people that you meet. they would think that sth must have happen to you- but they wouldnt ask you. that is the kind of attention that you want- someone care enough to notice but you just want to be left alone-- is that what we really want? not sure. i dont know.

shall go write an email to bestie..maybe by then i'll be feeling better!
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