拥抱
红色的沙发上坐着形形色色的人，他们来自社会各阶层， 每个人背后都有着自己的故事。大家结伴到咖啡厅闲聊，我想也只有我是唯一独自一人坐在那热闹的咖啡厅里。我喝了一口咖啡，然后望出身旁的玻璃窗。外头正下着毛毛细雨， 隐隐约约看得到外头的人群。那雨好像似乎没有影响正在外头赶路的人群，大家还是照样的走着。我就像是脱离了这个紧张的世界，独自一个人呆呆的坐在咖啡厅里，仿佛生活在自己的世界，对一切漠不关心。

过了不久，我慢慢地结了帐，缓缓而行离开了咖啡厅。我的离开并没有影响那里的任何人，他们还是一样陶醉在他们的世界里。我轻轻地推开了咖啡厅的玻璃门，投进了那拥挤的人群的拥抱。不知为什么，我感到彷惶和无助。 我毫无目标第往前走, 走在茫茫人海中，望着形形色色的背影。走着走着， 不知不觉的走到曾经和她一起走过的这一段路。眼前浮现着当时的一景一物，完全就好像没有经历时间的流失， 仿佛就像昨天才发生的事。

我停下脚步，傻傻的望着身旁的人群， 看着他们从我的身边匆匆的走过，我却久久都不肯离开这段充满回忆的路。突然之间， 一双有力的手给了我一个紧紧的拥抱。这个拥抱充满了温暖，强而有力。我在瞬间回过了神， 这个拥抱是我所熟悉的感觉，难道会是她？

我轻轻的回过头去，原来真的是我许久没见到的她。我还以为早已失去了她，最近发生了那么多的事，我以为她早已远去。可是每当我的心情低落，感到无限的彷惶无助时，她总有这样的本事，在这时拉我一把。这是朋友之间的一种默契吗？

有无限的感言相对她说，但又不知道要如何开口。可是有一件事我非常清楚，那就是我想对她说一声“谢谢”。 是她拉了我一把，使我从黑暗再次走了出来，给我力量去面对一切生命的烦恼与痛楚。一个小小的拥抱却能给我这样大的力量， 让我继续走下去！它是多么神奇啊！

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i found this as i was looking for sth- it was caught in between so documents. i totally do not remember that i had written sth like this before and to think that the title is called 拥抱! haha..so i thought that i want to upload it together with the lyrics of the song. :) this was a 微型小说 i think- it was an assignment that was given to us back in the JC days and i totally dont remember doing it and to think that i found it 2 years after i graduated. i've always like writing but i think that if you really wanna write a book or sth- it would take quite alot of effort becos you have to think of lots of ideas and stories to fill the pages of the whole book. that's why the authors need to be very creative and have lots of ideas! salute them!

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像我这样的
你会不会来爱我
像我这样的
不够完美洒脱
我为爱前进
梦想路程
却满是伤痕
不愿退缩

take a look at me
我不松开手
在失意的时候用音符
唱着我的美丽哀愁
take a look at me
呐喊的心头
彷佛再说黑白对错
微笑面对我的生活

曾经有过
为梦想失去选择
也曾走过
不被祝福热烈伤痕
到现在我还是我
为爱的执着

对我来说
简单生活
会是我想要
的结果

: : 像我这样的 : : 何耀珊 : :

we were leaRning in lecture today that people will reveal a different level of themselves on and off line.. and the amazing thing is that you can be totally sad offline but online you can appear to be so cheerful- human are losing that touch arent they? i just told someone that i am fine when i'm not- see that is the amazing thing about the online and offline identity- not that you have spilt personality but it just that you dont want the person to be worried- i dont think that there is a need to trouble people with your problems becos they already have their hands full with theirs isnt it? but i realised that i am beginning to be not such an advocate for that as time pass- but i still try to do it still, as much as i can do that..
why the song? cos its a xing qing ri ji- cos its what i am listening to, cos that's what i want to put there..cos, cos, cos, that is what i wanna say..every song that i put says sth- if not i wldnt put it there..what do i really want to say?????

i want a walk- a long walk, out of this stormy place with stormy weather and circumstances. i want to take a walk under the rain and wash away all of the feelings. i want to take a shower and to walk out of the storm knowing that there is a sun and a rainbow waiting for me. i want to, i want to, i want to...what do i want?

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this made me feel better yesterday..you find encouragement in the strangest and 最想不到 places. i found it on 尊's blog...

"一個從來沒有犯錯的人往往也是不可能把事情做好的人﹗
所以啊…不要害怕犯錯，記得要從錯誤中學習喔﹗"

"Quote to share: ‘The man who makes no mistakes does not usually make anything!’
So guys… don't be afraid of making mistakes but ‘Remember’ to learn from mistakes!"

he havent blogged in a long time- but he blogged at the right time!

尊， 谢谢你!!

and that was yesterday....................................................

you know they always say that it never rain, it pours- and everytime you know exactly what that means- becos that always happen.

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wearing this shirt, hoping that it will give me some comfort- but it lost its effect...or rather- its really different.

maybe i'll feel better tml le...

but anyhow- life goes on...
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