Once i have turn my face from thee
Yet You sought me and You cleansed me
Made me whole again
Jesus my Saviour
My beloved and Friend
Your Praises i bring
from my heart i sing

Draw me, o draw me away
Messiah today
To your presence to stay
O Jesus now change me
and mould that i can be
Evermore true to thee

You are the shepherd of my heart
You have brought me to your chamber
My Master and King
You light up my darkness
and gave me Your word
that You'll never forsake me
Nor no ever will leave me

:: Once I have turn my face from thee :: Pst Kong ::

pastor did his once a year thing!! which we enjoyed of cos- playing guitar and singing the song that he had written!! i love this song..dont you? even when pastor just hit the first string on the guitar- the almost falling aslp me woke up cos the presence of God just hit the place...

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okay..actually i dint wanna post..its been a long week and it is a longer week ahead..slept for 5h in 3 days and it is taking a toil on my body..and i just have to read blogs instead of going to slp (serve me right!) and it just got me thinking once again..changed my music to more peaceful sort and yes..my thinking time and mode again...dont know whether it is good or bad but i choose to take it positively.. :)

so whose blogs set me thinking? the e243-ers blog..after 3 blogs i decided that i cant go on anymore..i've been through multiplications before but never had it hit me so much before..there were tears and much 依依不舍 but not in this extent and magnitude..it really shows me the relationships that all these people have with each other..i am not an outsider in a sense but for a moment i felt like an outsider looking in through the looking glass at this group of wonderful people..

it speak to me about how denise, weiting and elise had impact the people under their care..about how their leadership brings transformation and impact on lives. thus at this point of my thoughts, the please-go-back-to-where-you-belong-devil came and whispered you-think-you-can-do-as-good-a-job-as-them thought into my mind..indeed here is a pair of big shoes that i have to fit into..it really bring me back to this song above..o God..how am i going to do this..draw me into your presence once again and gimme the strength and grace to be able to be a great leader a better leader a leader whom you want me to me..a leader that will make even more impact on these lives that you have entrusted into my hands. i must be naive to even think that i can do it on my own (in the PAST..very long ago PAST)..that must be the biggest joke that God has ever heard before. i remember asking myself..have i made impacts in people's lives before and as i look at this picture that was painted and unfold in front of my eyes..i cant help but to think that i really havent. is there anyone who will come and say thanks to me? i cant think of anyone..this thoughts scares me out of my wits and it really make me fear the Lord even more..becos i do not want to remind this way and these are lives that are in my hand and it is precious and it is important..so Lord i pray that You will show me even more than ever how can i be the person that you want me to be..that i cannot afford to go wrong...

my spilt personality begins to set in again..the S part of me, the low self-esteem part that i crucified to the cross tries to come back to life..but i thank God that He is a great God..cos He has given great people..people whom i know that will accept me for who i am and people who will still carry on this race together with me though i might and i know that i would make mistakes..but most importantly, i know that His grace is sufficient for me 祢的恩典够我用..that it is not by my own strength or my own might but by His Spirit..this song when we sang it in service this morning really brought me to my knees once again..

WHO AM I
that you would know me from the start
set me apart
WHO AM I
that you would place eternity
into my heart

You have given to me
more than this world could give
my purpose is found in You

One life, i lay at your altar
One love, i have with You
Touch me again
Fill me as you hold my outstretched hands
One Word, you know i will follow
One heart, broken to You
Use me again
Your memercise follow me
For all my days!

In your presence
In your POwer
Hole Spirit, i Surrender

:: One Life :: City Harvest Church ::

Indeed, like who am i? that i should get all the blessings and people who are so great- but i just recall that God is a good God and He is able to make grace abound towards us..its like a living in a dream but its good! its good! its good!!

going to slp le..NUS Lost orientation for TWO days..so will post all at once after this BUSY week...
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