ok.
there are things that needs to be done- like studying for the 2 EXAMS tomorrow. but somehow that is not the thing that i wanna do now. alrights, whats new about that? most people doesnt like to study for exams- i admit that i am one of them.

ok..i am in this instrumental music sort of mood now- that is why i am listening to canon..i am in this i-wanna-go-take-a-walk-now mood but time and my dad wldnt permit..siao arh?? go walk now? that is the response that he will gimme..maybe i shld just do it anyway but cannot..gotta study for the exams tml..haix..

oh no! feeling EMO...dots..what is this man..but God gave us emotions! just got to use it correctly...

i was sharing about this verse during the cgm just now:

John 13:34
A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another.

and i told the people..there is a pre-requisite to be able to love one another..to love the people ard you (not to even dare to mention enemies)..is that you must know what is love all about becos it is as how God has loved us..sometimes we try so hard to want to be more loving and want to be "nicer" but its not so hard- becos when you experience the love of God- this love that you experience will overflow from your life and it will flow into the lives of the people ard you.

this came even as a revelation- or rather i was brought to rememberance about this again today...

i was never a "nice" person mainly becos i never really understood what love was all about when i was young. but i was never a mean person on the inside..just that i dint know how to show love..so alot of people know me for being very D and some what like a dictator and harsh with words and dont care about how people feel..but what is true is actually the opposite..you dont know how it feel to feel bad about every word that you say and how it felt to think that everyone doesnt like you..that's the kind of life that i lived..the kind of life that i dont want to re-live ever again. no doubt, there are still some shadows and rembrants that may still surface from time to time..that i would be lousy but now i am stronger- i have someone stronger living inside of me..and somewhat couldnt care less not becos i have attitude problem but i know that He is in control now..the ship has changed captain...

how do you explain who God is? i can tell you that i cant explain it very well..becos it is not a theory but it is an experience..to me..its as if for the first time i found someone who love me and accept me for who i am...this love, is the reason why i am willing to do what i am doing and many times i forgot all about that..then i got lost..becos i forget the reason..i forgot the first love..this love was the love that is the basic, the foundational..it is the most important. i told myself that when i become a leader, i wanna be a leader who is love- yes my members will be strong but not becos i scold them but i teach them and they will be strong becos of my love becos of the love that flows out of my life..things doesnt always go as you want them to be..i am still learning..not there yet but on the way..to love more..to be like Jesus..that becos of my love for the people like what pastor say- this earns me the right to use the rod, to speak into their lives.

so, no matter what- i love you guys!!!

learning to be more like Jesus everyday.
without whom i dont know where i would be today.

my gentleness will make them great!

liwei...are you listening to yourself?? L.O.V.E and focus!!!
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