ok..i am in the middle of my management effectiveness lecture and it is really boring if one still couldnt tell..lols..
its pouring cats and dogs outside while i am throwing cows and sheep around in my facebook while the lecture drones on and the rest of the class rolls their eyes.

i was watching 换换爱las night- alright liwei i thought that you were supposed to be doing yout SOT assignments?? hey i finished liao k?? just left a little of the readings only!! yeah..! anyway the whole show has already been uploaded but i was watching the latest epi only..and i cried like buckets!! my God..cant believe that yeah..happens all the time..

anyway, i always thought that there is something to be learnt from most of the shows that we watch..or rather to me larh..the latest episode..i guess something that you learn is to givec people the benefit there being a reason behind what they do and dont jump into the conclusion..i begin to wonder what would i do if i am in the shoes of 霍彦..i know that the position and all are different but just think- how would u react if you were him? like would you accept your mom back? as we watch we would say that why not? but if we are really in his shoes i think that it is really not that easy..not as easy as we think.

** interruption: we are watching this really ANTIQUE and 古董 video!!!! cant image that they still have such things around man**

有些事情放在心上是不是最好的决定? 我们能有几个机会? 当我们没有把握这些机会的时候, 会不会是一个会使我们后悔的决定? 要好好把握和珍惜我们身旁的每一个人, 因为你不知道你几时会失去他!

以后，你看见的每一颗星星，
都代表霍达说我爱你。
吹过你耳边的微风，
就像霍达在说我想你。
照在你身上的温暖阳光，
那是因为我张开双手在拥抱你。
如果下雨了，那就是说霍达没有嘉蒂在身边真的好寂寞。

看来我不是唯一一个希望有一个霍达在我身边的人. 现在还不是时候啦!!以后以后！！我希望会有一个象霍达这样的人会出现 :)

anyway in the show 霍达 got a disease and i checked it out..the symptoms and the name are all real..and apprantly there is no cure for it de...

this week..dint start of well..i hope that it will get better...

last week minus 2 days..before it is all going to be over.. SICK!
my phone is once again sick and is in the SE hospital..but seriously why do i need to repair my phone once every few weeks!! that is really getting on my nerves!! and why do they need ONE DAY to upgrade my software?? haix..cannot believe it!!!
and when my phone is sick- i am falling sick too!! nose been on a marathon since this morning service and i am getting very sian about it..then got slight fever too..there are so many things to be done tonight and its the last week of SOT i cannot afford to fall sick with tutorials starting tml!!! come on..get a grip of yourself!!! arrgh!!! cannot fall sick...

***

Kau Bapa yang mengasihiku
Kuasa-Mu memulihkanku
Hati yang baru Kau berikan
Untuk ku dapat melihat

Rencana-Mu indah bagiku
Kau ada di s’tiap jalanku
Hatiku haus dan lapar
Akan Engkau

Kaulah segalanya di dalam hidupku
Kerajaan-Mu kebenaran-Mu itu bagianku
Kaulah yang kupandang selama hidupku
Mengasihi-Mu memuliakan-Mu
Bapa dan Rajaku

:: Kaulah Segalanya ::

Music and lyrics : Handy Iskandar and Sari Simorangkir
Music arrangement : Steve Tabalujan

this is a really nice Indo song that we learnt when we were at the Batam emerge and though i dint understood the song at that time, it really touches my heart and drew me right in to the presence of God and this week Bobby very nicely asked Sendy to teach us this song during SOT and its really very nice!! :)

last week of SOT already..seriously..i am going to be missing everyone..we are snapping as many photos as we can and treasuring the last few moments that we have as the batch of 2007!!! gosh..i am so going to be missing SOT!! i cant believe that i am saying that- but i really am..despite the exam tml!! :( but i am going to be missing the intensity yet the pleasure of being able to spend everyday of the week at church..its really nice!! all shld go SOT if they can!! its not the knowledge but the experience!

thanks to Siying- our beloved teammate- who sent the homilectics notes!! thanks! you are a life saver!! love you lots!

there are a few people whom i really hope can be there at my graduation on sun- so if i got ask you..i hope that you can try to come k?? :)

i thought that after i came back from batam last week will get to spend more time with the CG but this week got SOT graduation rehersal and next week also..so after service the time is all burn and gone..that is very sian!!! haix...

i dont understand why people burn all those paper thing during the 7th month..no 1- i am quite sensitive to all the smoke so i get all teary eye and i will begin to sneeze..no2- i cant believe that my dad is one of those people as well..and no3- have you ever wondered why its "hell bank notes" like if they believe that they are in hell (which is supposed to be a place of sufferings) then how are they supposed to be enjoying the "riches" that thousands of chinese burn every year? and if they do get to see it..how are they supposed to know that the tons of "money- sliver and gold" belong to them and not someone else?? hmmm..just some thoughts! dont make sense larh!!!

got stuff that needs to be done..consolidating photos for the SOT graduation dinner and also from the photo taking last night and also from NUS detention night..till then...
Been a long time since i last updated.
of cos there were many things and events that took place. for instance i went to the movie screening of HAIRSPRAY for the Lexus Club last night with Shujun and cousin + gf..not that my cousin nor any of the 4 of us drive any lexus but free tix then go lorh!! but the movie theatre is fantastic i say- the screen is all the way to the ground- like from ceiling to the ground..how cool is that? anyway the show was good..if you are into some fun and music- otherwise you can give it a miss..maybe i was just too tired larh..lols..

oh yah..and there was the Batam Emerge last weekend- which i have yet to consolidate all the photos but the trip was good and enriching..a good break from the busyness of Singapore and your gateway of escape is just 1h away by ferry!! coolness!! shall be the next holiday destination from now on!! heheh..
its my first mission trip and also the first time to indonesia..its really an eye-opener and the people there are so hospitable that i forgot that it is a mission trip..lols..it was just GOOD!!!
oh yah..i gave 20,000 for offering..hahah..just had to say that..in rupiah of cos..hahha..then serene's fried rice was like 20,000- lols..everything of cos is RELATIVE larh..lols..



met up with ping and we went to Bosses aka 黑社会 at vivocity and we had the double steamboat! which is very filling by the way!! but that place is really quite high class that kind!!

and before we go back..have to take a photo together!!!


the stuff that i got from ping who just came back from taiwan!! yay!! so i got the photo book that i got her to buy from taiwan and of she got me this taipei 101 handphone chain which is realy cute! and of cos letter!! that is so nice!! cos we are really overtaken by technology nowadays that everything is so electronic that a human touch of pen ink is so sweet and nice!! lols..

so ping, i know what you mean when you got siang's letter all the way from Aussie..and i really thank God for the both of you larh..how long have we known each other?? say like 10 years? that is so long lor..remember we were talking about 七年之痒?? thank God we made it through larh..and i know that no matter what happened, i can still count on the 2 of you!! love you guys!! :) *heart heart*

not to forgot phototaking of my fahrenheit book!!! havent have the time to read through it..but i FLIPPED through and the pics are really nice..first up was CHUN and he makes me wanna go to kenting!! i wanna go taiwan!! they somewhat make me feel that i wanna be slimer so i can go take a photobook next time when i have the money!! who wanna prac to take photos? i dont mind being the model!! lols..


and here is the back of the book! :)


and of cos, in the course of the 2 weeks, there was denise's big 21st bday and here are the pics!! you deserve the best and that's why you got them on your birthday- hope that you had a great time!! continue to be the woman that God wants you to be and continue to love and serve Him with all that you can- because you are great and because there is simply no one else like you! *love*


there was BBD..and Dr. Bernard was simply great!! the messages that he shared during the weekend and during the BBD just blew me away!!
Chasing donkeys!! :)


long overdue pics from the N397 first CG outing on national day- we went to marina bay and we had fun there!! looking forward to more great days ahead with you all! let's serve with love and passion!!
love you all!!! :) 冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面 在荡着秋千 梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变你走过的世界
你用你的指尖阻止我说再见
想像你在身边才完全是去之前

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片

要我怎么捡

::不能说的秘密:: 曲-周杰倫 词-方文山 ::



went to watch this show yesterday night after the 6pm lecture ended at 8pm- never had such a late lecture before. the marketing and cultural industries mod like not bad..but the mno mod really puts me to sleep- i really dozed off during the class- that is not good and not living testimony...opps..yet to attend the other 2 mods yet so cant give an overall conclusion but know that there is going to be tons of projects to do this sem!

anyway back to the movie- i think that it is really good- considering that it is 周董's first attempt at directing..i truly enjoyed the show!!! and i think the story is good too! you know it just enforce something that i have been thinking about recently. why is it call secret- becos once it is told- there are consequences that one has to bear with. like the lead in the show, she misunderstood him- becos she only saw things from one perspective and dint put herself in his shoes- she "thought" alot of things and got herself hurt and wounded and eventually that lead her to who she became at the end of the show. she allowed the words of the people around her to rule her emotions rather than leaning on the trust in the relationship and eventually caused the unnecessary strain. to think that all these would have been worked out if she had just go to the 当事人 and find out directly. not saying that confrontation works best, best is dont have to confront- but her mistrust cos her to be disappointed and her disppointment lead her to do certain things that caused the other party to be hurt. its a vicious cycle. if only we can just stop listening to what other people say and listen to our own hearts!

***

GOD OF MY FOREVER
by Gan KC

Verse 1
God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me o’er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace
On this altar I’ve written my life
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

Chorus
God of my forever
And forever I’m with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King

Verse 2
God of my all I’ve surrendered
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown
Nothing matters when You’re here with me
In the end just to hear You say “Well done”
Bowing before Your throne

Bridge
Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way

**
this is the new songs that is written by KC!! he is simply talented!! love the song..think that it is going to be on my playlist for quite sometime. that day when we were singing it, tears just flowed down my cheeks. "Your love has seen me through all my days, I stand here by Your grace" -- really Lord, at the end of the day- You are all that matter and You are the only one who truly trusted and believed in me from the very beginning till the very end.

***

hey bestie (that one back from US) when are you going to meet me??? haiyo so busy!!

and the one i am meeting on sun- cant wait!!! see you then -- we must cam whore!!! lols...love yoU!!! just got back from prayer meeting and i got to finish up the book tonight..so not going to blog long..but i wanna get this down and remind myself.

going to prayer meeting has always been a great thing becos God always speaks to you during times like this.

i know that there are alot of things that i have got to put in place and to begin doing that, i need to put aside things that i drag the most- confrontation. sometimes i think that i really have spilt personality, on one hand i can be quite strong character aka D but on the other hand i really drag confrontations or things that will affect other people. so which personality does it reflects the real me? how will my reflection shows, who i am inside? *sings* but seriously, i have to do it and it has to be done. confront myself and also about things and issues in my life first, then i can move on to do other stuff.

the people that we are interacting with today will determine the kind of person that we are tomorrow. sometimes we bump into people with differences and we got to learn to accept and tolerate with them. think tolerate is a strong word..but i think that is what i am feeling right now. there are 2 kinds of people whom i cannot stand- oversensitive and sacarstic people-- esp when they are guys. oversensitive people tend to think that every little action that you take is against them when no harm done or intended. over sacarstic people just really spoilts your day- to think today just began! oh my...i wish to just send my hand flying in front of the face and pluck out all the teeth!! but i cant and i wouldnt. but is it really necessary to act that way? gosh..i cant take it...

structure for growth! but got to tackle the foundations first. lay strong foundations that will build tall buildings.

haha..eunice..is this more parable than yours?? lols.. great news from NUSmail:

OPENING OF THE DECK @ FASS

We are pleased to inform you that The Deck @ FASS will be operating w.e.f. 13 August 2007.

You will be able to find the following outlets at the canteen:

Stalls @ Level 1

1 – Yong Tau Foo and Laksa
2 – Chinese Cooked Food

3 – Japanese Cuisine

4 – Snacks and Fried Kway Teow

5 – Fish and Seafood Noodles / Rice

6 – Western Cuisine

7 – Minced Meat Mushroom Noodles and Fish Ball Noodles

8 – Szechuan Cuisine

9 – Vegetarian Cooked Food

10 – Indian Cooked Food

11 – Muslim Cooked Food

12 – Fruits and Juice

13 – Drinks and Snacks

Operating Hours:

Mondays to Fridays : 7.30 am to 4.00 pm (Some stalls will operate till 8.30 pm)

Saturdays : 7.30 am to 3.00 pm

Cafes @ Level 2

1 – Burger King

2 – Lerk Thai Bistro

3 – Olio Café

Operating Hours:

Mondays to Fridays : 7.30 am to 9.00 pm

Saturdays : 7.30 am to 3.00 pm

i aM so looking forward to the start of school and the NEW arts canteen!!! cant wait!!!

2nd great news from NUSmail:

i got the last module that i needed to get..so no more bidding for me..but my timetable's kinda scary on mondays!! boos..

for the first 3 weeks before SOT graduation here is my weekly timetable that really leaves me no room to attend preaching tests...oh my...

monday: SOT- 8.45am to 1pm. Promotional Mkt- 3pm to 6pm and Culture ind. Lect- 6pm to 8pm (when tut starts i have a 2pm to 3pm tut!!)

Tuesday: SOT- 8.45am to 1pm. Organisation Effectiveness 12pm to 3pm. (alright, there is a clash but there is nothing much that i can change..will arrange sth..soon!).
Tuition- 4pm to 6pm.

Wednesday: SOT- 8.45am to 1pm. NUS- OFF!! but i shld have two back to back tuitions.

Thursday: SOT- 8.45am to 1pm. Advertising Strat. Lect- 2pm to 4pm.

Friday: SOT- 8.45am to 1pm. Research for Comm Mgmt Lect 12pm to 2pm. (another clash!). CGM 5.30pm.

ok..i actually quite like this sem- most of the mods are the mods that i wanna do but doing 2 non-examinable BIZ mod means that i am going to kill myself with the workload in terms of projects. but this sem gotta jiayou!! i wanna do thesis in year 4, so much buck up and try to pull the CAP as much as possible.

hope that i get the desired tutorial slots. must pray!!!

***

now, here is sth from the leadership files:


ENCOURAGEMENT

Quote - ' I firmly believe my job is to walk around with a can of water in one hand and a can of fertiliser in the other, and to make things flourish.' - Jack Welch, CEO General Electric

You're going to love this;

The worst enemy a leader faces is discouragement.

Beat it!

Leadership without courage is no leadership at all.

People rally to the brave.

They will celebrate your courageous, risk - taking victory!

If there is no one encouraging you, encourage yourself!

Tell yourself today is your day.

Go on. Say it!

"Today will be fantastic!"

You're full of courage.

You're unstoppable!

---

thanks pst phil!! you are the best!!!

liwei, encourage yourself!!

***

went shopping today for the BBD dress on sunday. but before that went to check out Marina Bay for the fellowship tml- i mean later, think that it is really going to be fun!!! pray for good weather and that the friends will come!!! then called chloe and found out that they were at suntec queueing for the beloved donuts and hence jumped at the opportunity to get a dozen too- so i am having donuts for breakfast later! how nicE!!! hehehe...

then off to dinner at food republic at suntec- think that i am too hungry that we ate alot but nice stuff- top with double choc donut from donut factory for dessert! fantastic. there after, the search for my dress began. went to a few places but i was not able to find anything i like. so jun and i went over to Blum and Co. trust me the stuff there are nice and there are 2 dresses that i really like but in the end i also cant afford to get from there. the dresses were like 200+++ each..so cannot larh..but if i have the money i would have bought from there. and the sales person there- Joyce, she is really helpful and nice and she made the whole shopping experience enjoyable. then back to marina square in search for cheaper stuff and eventually bought a black dress from IS cos it was relatively cheaper but after i set my eyes on the Blum and Co dress- all things pales in comparison. not to mention that the salesperson attitude at IS is also quite bad..if not cos of budget..i also wldnt get from there larh...oh my..i want the Blum and Co dresses!! poof hoof!! lols...

SOT on national day- finishing up the apostolic ministry- gonna be a long but exciting day ahead!! liwei, Get ready for more.

what do i have to offer to you that you cant find in anyone else?

p.s: Ping, you are definitely one of them. thanks for loving me unconditionally for who i am! love yoU!

i read the newpaper article and hear about the 晚报 article with much remorse and sadness in my heart. I LOVE SUN and i am not ashame to say that- becos to me, she is one of the stongest person whom i have ever came across- it takes lots of courage and strength to do that she is doing and to go through all that she has been through. yet, everytime that i hear about an article that is going to appear on the local news- i have the same reaction as her- are they going to hurt her again. how sad is this? i think she is one of the artist who has achieved the most from Singapore but how come she is not given the due recognition? i feel sad for her even if she may not feel as strongly.

Sun is the epitome of courage and strength and a role model who showed me that nothing is impossible and the sky is the limit. after so many years, the local press still disappoints me. as much as i want to defend this nation and all that is within us- i cant do that and side the local media even when my lecturer in my media writing class said negative things about the local press- why cant i take side with what belongs to this nation i call home? cos that is the truth how sad.

i want to venture out like Sun did- dare to dream great dreams and dream the impossible. but that is only possible when there is a condusive environment where this great dream can germinate- where do i find it here in this nation? whose 42nd birthday slogan is "city of possibilities" you call it that and when a fellow singaporean went as far as the hollywood to rub shoulders with the top entertainers all that she is met with is critics and more critics??

i was just having dinner with jun and we are talking about the local entertainment scene. what happened to kit chan, JJ, Yida and Ah Du? kit chan is an inspiration when i was growing up and my favourite NDP song is sang by her. yet, think she is doing more backgrd stuff now. JJ and Yida spends most of their time in Taiwan- where the people embrace them much more than the merciless local media and press. Ah Du- has never receive positive media coverage in singapore- yet he has gone to places where even stef sun's music has not reach- he is huge there. why come back when you are better receive elsewhere? i wldnt be surprise if any of these artists rather stay permanently overseas in the protection and love of the arms of loving fans than to endure the grilling of the hots by the local media in a place where they call home. yet, its a home where there is no warmth and acceptance.



Sun with 2 awards at the recent music award ceremony in Hong Kong!! so proud of you and i think you look stunning!!!




that time i watched the video about how Sun's earnings has gone to help the children in China, i broke down into tears. here is a woman who place others before herself and who has done so much- all that she is and whom she is- that is the reason why i love her so much. becos she dont just talk about it, her whole life is an example for me, for others to follow!

Sun, i Love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 加油!!!!!!!!!!!!!

專輯名稱：首張個人全創作專輯
演唱歌手：羅文裕
發行公司：環球唱片（TW）
發行時間：2007年8月3日
專輯語種：國語專輯1CD
格式大小 :Mp3/68M

專輯簡介：

街頭情歌＿WING羅文裕 ☆首張個人全創作專輯☆
生活可以很繁雜，音樂卻可以很簡單！極簡、樂活…像原木吉他般簡單純粹的聲音與旋律！
100％來自 WING羅文裕 音樂應該回歸原始 唱歌應該打動人心
創作是一種態度，否則怎能唱出自己的調調！
沒有華麗的舞台，也沒有絢麗的裝扮…… 認真感受生命的 WING羅文裕融入于人群之中，用最純粹的聲音，讓這世界都聽見。音樂DIY，新態度呈現！說的再多不如讓 WING自己寫的歌來回答所有問題！哈啰～WING~HELOO～羅文裕

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曲目詳情：

01.愛情漫游
02.我有多久沒有對你說我愛你
03.原木吉他
04.你比誰都重要
05.戀愛了
06.河岸留言
07.時間傷口
08.你是我的心肝寶貝
09.想當年
10.你給的愛
11.愛情漫游(DEMO)
12.愛情漫游(KALA)
13.我有多久沒有對你說我愛(KALA)
14.河岸留言(KALA)

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doing a promo for WING!!! his solo album is finally out..wonders if you can get in singapore yet?? lols..wait i know..ask the taiwan girl to buy for me..so smart!! keke! :)and she willing say that she will look for the CD..i really think that its only out in taiwan!! thanks darling!! :)

anyway today has been a rather fruitful day for me..first of all, there is NO SOT today..a day off after the FOP!! i love little surprises like this!! totally blow your mind away!! lols...anyway so what did i do for the day?? i went Swimming- yes the much procrastinated one..but it was a rather short one..cos got some other stuff to do..but i think that i just made my sun burnt worse..sobz..here is the evidence..i dint realised that it was so red larh..this was from the captain's ball yesterday, not from my swim today- cos i only swam 10 laps- so very short time only..



anyway..i really dint want to leave the pool today..i really love swimming- though i may not be a good swimmer. cos everytime that i go swimming or jogging or taking a long walk alone..i like to do things alone sometimes..cos there is a time that i can just clear my head and think though things. and today there are just some stuff that are on my mind..

perhaps i may be thinking too much..but to a certain extent i do feel that somehow there is a manipulation to get me to do some things a certain way as some other people is doing and i do not like that feeling. cos everyone is different..so if there is anything that is effective, can tell me and we can get it done and up but i dont like the feeling as if i am being "manipulated" to go a certain directions though the intentions may be good. cos i am not another person, i am me and i have my own style and i have my own plans..i wanna be who i am!!

anyway, wanted to go collect passport but the queue is MADDNESS larh..i had to wait 1.5h so i DINT wait..perhaps go and get it another day..just before the batam emerge i guess..

went for tuition then went to meet glen and yun- like finally larh..the whole hols dint get to meet them..so we walked ard a little and we wanted to go timbre and guess what? we reached there to find that they are closed for today and tml..sians!!! how untimely..so we went to citylink for dinner instead..they dint have what i want for dinner so i had to eat jap food- which i shld be eating in a jap restaurant anyway! lols...

here are the pics..dont have the rest till glen upload..so its only got me!! lols.






***

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours

Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, alll of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you

Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

What can we give
That you have not given?
And what do we have
That is not already yours?
All we possess
Are these lives we're living
That's what we give to you, Lord

:: Lord I Offer My Life To You :: Don Moen ::

FOP is here and over..and i am really impacted by this year's FOP..though in the midst there are certain unpleasant stuff that took place but you cant deny the presence that was felt there and this song esp brought back many memories and its just fantastic this song! thanks Don Moen for bringing this song! i simply love it! thanks!!! and thanks to pst phil for bringing us 3 great word over the 3 days!

hmmm..what is the point of blogging? maybe it is a form of record? or simply hoping that the person that you are trying to communicate to get the hint of what you are trying to say? i dont know..perhaps everyone has their own reason..i think for me..it has became a habit..this blog is like 5 years old..amazing..i cant believe that...

yun ask me today is there anyone who loves me unconditionally- i thought of God (stating the obvious!) and my mind wondered off to a few people whom i would consider that they do love me unconditionally..one is my dad (but he doesnt count cos he is family) and i think yun was asking about friends..so my mind wandered and i thought of a few people..and i hope that its not just 一厢情愿 man..so who are the people who came to my mind- i think i better dont write it here..if not later get disappointed..but i guess these are the people who really love me for who i am, those who throughout the years seen and accept my shortcomings..people whom you may not see all the time yet you are still so close..people who hear my rantings and mindless complaining but they know that i mean no harm..is there anyone like this? not sure but i hope so...

think that i really still need to think some stuff out...

while..bidding still goes on the same..school's really starting! i was just thinking..is there anyone's blog that will cheer me up de and i thought of CHUN's blog..so i went and HE REALLY JUST BLOGGED!!! oh my..like he dont blog alot now and just when i need it..he just did..haha..thank God for little things like this that lift up your life when everything else is crumpling down...

From CHUN's latest blog entry:

'Where there is a will, there is a way.'
If you really want to do it, you CAN!
Gambatte Everyone :-)

really need some encouragement and the last person that you expect it to come from would be that it is from some celebrity who dont even know you and how it will just happen to bless your life.

today murphy became my good friend..and i had a really sian day..everything went wrong and i am more sian than those people who are sian with me..sian is a understatement..but i'm not sure what is the right word to use in place of it really...

something that happened...i just wanna say...

stop screaming at me...

cos it hurts.

period.

i am not expecting you to treat me nice..but perhaps..it would make my life better that you leave me alone..and we can stop making each other's lives miserable.

and mine less painful... ok.
there are things that needs to be done- like studying for the 2 EXAMS tomorrow. but somehow that is not the thing that i wanna do now. alrights, whats new about that? most people doesnt like to study for exams- i admit that i am one of them.

ok..i am in this instrumental music sort of mood now- that is why i am listening to canon..i am in this i-wanna-go-take-a-walk-now mood but time and my dad wldnt permit..siao arh?? go walk now? that is the response that he will gimme..maybe i shld just do it anyway but cannot..gotta study for the exams tml..haix..

oh no! feeling EMO...dots..what is this man..but God gave us emotions! just got to use it correctly...

i was sharing about this verse during the cgm just now:

John 13:34
A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another.

and i told the people..there is a pre-requisite to be able to love one another..to love the people ard you (not to even dare to mention enemies)..is that you must know what is love all about becos it is as how God has loved us..sometimes we try so hard to want to be more loving and want to be "nicer" but its not so hard- becos when you experience the love of God- this love that you experience will overflow from your life and it will flow into the lives of the people ard you.

this came even as a revelation- or rather i was brought to rememberance about this again today...

i was never a "nice" person mainly becos i never really understood what love was all about when i was young. but i was never a mean person on the inside..just that i dint know how to show love..so alot of people know me for being very D and some what like a dictator and harsh with words and dont care about how people feel..but what is true is actually the opposite..you dont know how it feel to feel bad about every word that you say and how it felt to think that everyone doesnt like you..that's the kind of life that i lived..the kind of life that i dont want to re-live ever again. no doubt, there are still some shadows and rembrants that may still surface from time to time..that i would be lousy but now i am stronger- i have someone stronger living inside of me..and somewhat couldnt care less not becos i have attitude problem but i know that He is in control now..the ship has changed captain...

how do you explain who God is? i can tell you that i cant explain it very well..becos it is not a theory but it is an experience..to me..its as if for the first time i found someone who love me and accept me for who i am...this love, is the reason why i am willing to do what i am doing and many times i forgot all about that..then i got lost..becos i forget the reason..i forgot the first love..this love was the love that is the basic, the foundational..it is the most important. i told myself that when i become a leader, i wanna be a leader who is love- yes my members will be strong but not becos i scold them but i teach them and they will be strong becos of my love becos of the love that flows out of my life..things doesnt always go as you want them to be..i am still learning..not there yet but on the way..to love more..to be like Jesus..that becos of my love for the people like what pastor say- this earns me the right to use the rod, to speak into their lives.

so, no matter what- i love you guys!!!

learning to be more like Jesus everyday.
without whom i dont know where i would be today.

my gentleness will make them great!

liwei...are you listening to yourself?? L.O.V.E and focus!!! Seriously, it has been a long time since i last receive chain sms and chain mail and this is the latest addition:

Pls pray for the korean christians that are in afganistan doing volunteer
work in the hospital. They are killing 9 of them ar around 3 - 3.30pm today.
Pray that God will strengthen them and a miracle will come for them.

i thought that i'm just going to blow my top if i receive another sms telling me to pray for them. i mean we are all concerned about their well-being, in fact i ask people how are they doing over at afgan..but chain sms still and just gets on my nerves (not refering to those good night stuff larh...but CHAIN sms..those you are supposed to forward and they usually stop at me..cos i dont forward usually...unless i am in a kind of mood to forward...)

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taking a break before i go and shower and go straight in to work again- not work but lots of assignments and readings at hand..liwei decided that she is going to write down her plans for the next 2 weeks or so starting with tml.

02.08- SOT till 1pm, mock CG till 5pm, meet jun, xuan and mu 6pm till 10plus
03.08- SOT till 1pm, GOHS and HCGL exams till 5pm, FOP from 7.30pm, Ping's 21st Bday celebrations.
04.08- CG @ 1pm, FOP from 7.30pm
05.08- Tuition 10am-12pm, NUS lost camp captain's ball 10-1pm, FOP from 7.30pm
06.08- SOT till 1pm, Tuition 5pm-7pm
07.08- SOT till 1pm, Tuition 4pm-6pm, Leader's meeting 7.30pm
08.08- SOT till 1pm, Tuition 6pm-8pm
09.08- CG OUTING
10.08- SOT till 1pm, 10 Sermon outlines due, Shir's 21st bday celebration.
11.08- Area cleaning (late for SOT larh!!!) 10am-2pm, Service with Dr. Bernard 5pm
12.08- Service with Dr. Bernard 10am, BBD 7pm at Ritz
13.08- Start of School. SOT till 1pm, Tuition 3pm-5pm, Culture Lecture 6pm-8pm.
14.08- SOT till 1pm, (BUT got Classes from 12-3pm in NUS), 2 BOOK assignments for SOT due. Tuition 4pm-6pm. Leader's meeting 7.30pm...

liwei thinks that it is not so bad when you breakdown everything. seems more attainable- well looking on the bright side.
it takes more to be positive and i would try to be more positive!!!:)

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something that has been on my mind for some time and today pastor reminded me about it again. what is it to be a leader- something that i want to do- to examplify the life that we should be living and to lead by example..needs grace and lots and lots of them..

alright, liwei thinks that she needs to go and shower..lolx..dead tired!
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