一個人的晚餐無聊寂寞　
兩個朋友能開心的直說
三個人可以給你勇氣　
可以安慰　你的失落　異口同聲的說

因為有你　染上新的幽默(新的幽默)
也因為有你　世界變的輕鬆(變的輕鬆)
我們能相遇(OH OH OH)　非常難得　
所以盡情大聲唱歌　分享每一分鐘

我們擁有　一個真心的朋友(我們是　真心的朋友)
就算有風　吹不走我們感動(吹不走　我們的感動)
真的希望　你能夠永遠快樂
你懂我(你懂我)　不用說(不用說)
最想看見　彼此的笑容

如果難過　帶走烏雲的天空(你帶走　烏雲的天空)
爬到雲端　我陪你繼續作夢(爬到雲端　我陪你作夢)
好想每天　陪你看日出日落
你值得(你值得) 交換我(吼～)　
一輩子最想要完成的　美夢

:: 仨人 :: 郭靜 范瑋琪 張韶涵 ::

this is a new and nice song that is sang by 郭靜 范瑋琪 張韶涵, its very nice!! go and listen. 老婆you go and listen k?? its really really good!! :)

ok..that is all for now..nights 翻开随身携带的记事本
写着许多事都是关于你
你讨厌被冷落
习惯被守候
寂寞才找我

我看见自己写下的心情
把自己放在卑微的后头
等你等太久
想你泪会流
而幸福快乐是什么

爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好
像上瘾的毒药
它反复骗着我

爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
矛盾心里总是强求
劝自己要放手
闭上眼让你走
烧掉日记重新来过

::记事本:: 陈慧琳 ::

went to k-buffet with jun and perez yesterday and i sang this song. it used to be a bi dian song but havent sang it in a long time.

memories are a part of us that we will bring with us no matter where we go. some of us record this down in the form of blogging- some have a diary like the person in the song, some just carry it with them in the mind and memory. some of these memories get washed by time and eventually become only a part of our past that we no longer remember. does the past matter? perhaps some of us have a past that we do not want to remember, that we wished that the things that we have done wrong can be erased but the fact is, it will always be there, it will always be a part of us. perhaps then, the future is more important? we cannot move foward if we are always facing the past and thinking about the things back then. you move towards where you are focused on. this is the theory that applies into all of our lives.

what are the things that you are mediating on? you will be moving forward to these things. no point looking back and hoping to change history when you can re-write your future!

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getting philosophical after an early day with tuition and project data entry. what a week of break- i think that i get more rest if i am having normal school.

there is a burden in my heart and i want to help the people around me in their studies and right now it is taking prority over school work. but school work still needs to be done. so it is a time for stretching and enlarging my capacity!

tata..going off from this freezing cold comp lab... Quote:

"Be BRAVE to DREAM"

"Beauty of forcing yourself out of your comfort zone! Try it!"

"The beginning of all things are small. Be BRAVE enough to take the first step and you will make it big!"

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Quote from Chun's blog..yeah..i still read his blog and i know when is the time to know that he will update his blog..it is when i need a boost of encouragement and somehow by some divine timing he will update but not only that with some nice quotes to bring you through..is that why people read blogs?

but really, quoting 3 things that he said in the latest entry..

1. Be Brave to dream -- the sky is the limits, you never try, you will never know what are the things that you will be able to achieve in life and dont live a life of regrets. 有时候当机会来向你敲门的时候, 要把握时机, 不然错过了可能就没有第二次的机会了不得!! you know how we like to say that, next time this and next time that? what if there is no next time? what are the things that you would be doing today?

2. Beauty of forcing yourself out of your comfort zone! -- there are certain boundaries that we are comfortable with and we are not willing to cross it. i crossed one of it today and it will no longer be a problem or an issue to me. when a rubber band is stretched, you know that it has the ability to do it again. i have been in church for so many years and i have never open my house to be used for CG- partly because it was inconvenient in the past but also part of me i dint want people to see a side of me that i am not ready to show to the world. so NO ONE has ever been to my place apart from family. first of all, i am afraid of what people might think..i live in a simple 2 room place with my dad- reason, it is cheaper this way cos the only reason why we are at home is to sleep that kind of thing, both of us are not home much..but simply because there is only the 2 of us, we dont need a bigger place which we cant afford and we dont need. yes, i am a 穷人家的孩子, it wasnt like that when i was really young, let's just say that things change. so, part of me am embarassed to show my world, my family to the world. but i am proud to say that i have overcome that. Tml, or rather later, my CG is coming to my place for CGM and i am open about it and i think that my dad is very happy too. cos i am packing anc cleaning the house like nobody's business..i think he welcome everyone cos it gets me to wash and clean the place..hahahhaha..

but really, i am glad too!! i have stepped out of my comfort zone.

and babe, i am glad that i met you up for ah chew on wed- becos i think it is the first time that i really hear you say about what happened and i am glad that you are willing to do it. it matters to me and i am glad!! you have crossed and step out of that comfort zone and the journey lies ahead of you..it might not be the easiest path to walk on..but you are not walking on it alone because there will always be people around you to help you! :) love you *huggs*

p.s: i dont wanna be darling- esp now that you have your darlings! can i be 老婆?? hahahahha..

3. The beginning of all things are small. Be BRAVE enough to take the first step and you will make it big! -- there are times that we would look at our surroundings and think what good is going to come out of our lives. a few decades ago, people looked at singapore and wondered what good will come out of it and here you have one of the most prospering economies in SE Asia. about 20 years ago, people looked at a group of young people and wondered what good will come out of them? and now you have a generation who is taking Asia by storm and making a difference in the world that we are living in. crossing lines that no one has crossed and pioneering works where no man has ventured. we may start small but we will never remain small.

i look at my life and i wonder what good will come out of it, but i have the assurance that greater is He who is in me than He who is in the world. i look at the CG, and i think God what are you going to use us to do> and He would say, no eyes has seen, no ear has heard of what i have in store for you. i look at the lives of every single one in N397, i see nothing but POTENTIAL that is waiting to be released..it is not just something that i say to make us all feel better, but it is not only a fact, it is a truth and the truth will always remains strong. let's take our campuses by storm and impact everyone that we come into contact with!

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suddenly inspired by Chun, so that was a long blog...

there was something that i found out today that really touched my heart.

siyoung is leaving and got to stop teaching us cos there are some things that happened in the family. i used to complain about her lecture cos err..let's just say that it is not exactly the most exciting lecture but lesson is still fun and it is interesting still. so when i heard the news, i was shocked- i never thought that it would happen like that.

some mishap happened to her daughter i think its some medical condition and her daughter had to be wheelchair bound for the rest of her life. (this is really sad and i feel really really sad for her..hais) and now the condition requires her and the daughter to go to the US for surgery..so she is leaving to take care of her daughter.

but in the midst of everything that is happened and has happened, siyoung has always prepared for all the lessons and so prompt to reply to all our questions and queries. i took her for granted and now that she is going to be here no more- then i begin to treasure her. she was really sweet and nice to arrange for ALL the lectures after the mid-sem break (which has stories to fill another few entries) and she is going to still help us through our projects. i mean how dedicated can she get? she doesnt have to do all these things yet she does them and made sure that we are not abandon and we are all well taken care of. Thanks a millions Dr. CHung!!!

just want to say thanks and take care..your daughter is in our prayers always!! i dint get to give you a physical hug but here is a virtual one!! you are so awesome!!

that'll be all from me for now..nights!! projects are seriously getting on my nerves and not to mention that the whole of the next week holidays is hopelessly devoted to PROJECT MEETINGS..how nice! *faints*

initially there is a Sentosa Outing with the NUS U.N.I.T.E.D peeps but due to having the Nexcare project due on tues which is 30% of our grades, i cant go for the outing. why cant do earlier? cos need to use SPSS to do the survey generation and guess where is the only place with that program?? SCHOOL!!! so here goes my day of rewinding..boohoohoo..alright stop whining when there is nothing that you can do about it liwei.

thank God for the pre-arranged K-lunch session with Ping that is probably one of the highlights of the week until this point in time...

schedule of the week to remind myself:

monday- Mkt meeting in NUS
Tuesday- K-Lunch
Wed- Advertising meeting
Thur- Mgmt Effectiveness meeting
Friday- CGM (praise the Lord)

before i slot in tuition and all other project meetings that will make me feel even worse than i am...time to start to do something liwei!!!

and i need a CG place/ house/ venue!!!!
no weapon formed against me shall prosper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it shall be done, not by my might but by YOURS!!!

*i seriously think that procjects is to train you to work with people..who might not be very pleasant to work with...haix.. i cant get to sleep again..i think that i am becoming more and more nocturnal- which i really really dont want to!! *sigh*

its been a lazy sunday and monday and i think that it ends here..there are tons of things that are waiting for me and yaps..my nua-ing ends here..sunday- it marks the first time in i think about 2 years that i dint attend sunday service (of cos not counting those days were there are no weekend services) its been a long time that i got sunday off and i can slp in on a sunday and wake up and jus do nothing and not have to rush here and there and everything..gosh..i thought i would never get to see a day like that but i did! nice!!

though it was nice to nua and do the min things in 2 days..tummy not giving me a good time..been in and out of the toilet alot for the past 2 days but yet toi figure out what is the wrong food that went down to the tummy..hmmm..maybe i just have a weak tummy which is not good at all larh!

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你微微的笑 溫暖我心 讓我有了 衝勁動力

於是我又鼓起了 勇氣 決定要瘋狂愛上你


千千萬萬的愛意 等不及

涼風徐徐的提醒 我和你


*只欠一句 我愛你 沒膽 親口告訴你 想要照顧妳 好好疼你

只差一句 你答應 點頭說你也 願意 和我在一起 手牽著你 緊緊抱著你


盛夏的回憶 在偷偷想起 你就是剩下的唯一

我站在這裡 用最真的心 想對你說 請相信 我們之間距離

:: 只欠一句 我愛你 :: 唐禹哲 :: 詞曲:謝和弦(a Chord) ::

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每一首歌都有它的一个故事, 不管我们知不知到, 但它述说着作词作曲人的心情与人生故事. 或许我们永远都不会了解故事主人翁的心情, 但我们要了解- 我们也有我们自己的故事啊!

不行了!! 明天再继续!! 安咯! 十字街道做背景寒风当道具
气氛闷的就像要下雨我在等回忆光临
记忆中那场相遇还如此清晰
怎么转眼就面对分离

温馨片段没整理已经来不及
你说有我暖过的手心现在贴着别的心
深情像片碎玻璃散落在眼底
闪着晶莹却也痛了自己

我愿意不爱你
因为所有快乐伤悲都那么多余
我愿意不爱你
痛就放在心里不用关闭不需要痊愈

快乐点滴没整理已经来不及
你说属于我们的回忆你都不能够继续
再见说得那么轻就好像空气
可是为什么我无法呼吸

我愿意不爱你
以后所有快乐都涂上凄美记忆
我愿意不爱你
从此就将回忆点滴直接注射在心里


:: 愿意不爱你 :: 炎亚纶 :: 终极一家电视原声 ::

刚看完 <<公主小妹>>, 应该是今天早上睡太多了所以现在睡不着!! 真是的!!!

看完了 <<公主小妹>> 有了一些的思潮起浮, 忽然想起一些东西. 在里面小麦在变成公主之前, 她有她的梦想, 虽然有时会发白日梦但是还是很踏实的生活着. 谁没有幻想呢? 我也是偶像剧中读毒的一份子, 有时也会想想如果有一天醒来不必在为生活烦恼应该有多好啊!! 但是, 戏是那样演, 现实生活就不是这样的啦!! 因为我知道我不会有一天醒来会有那样不可思议的事情发生, 还是把时间用在比较有用的地方吧! :)

今天过了一个好久没有的生活, 我过了一个懒洋洋的下午,真是难得!! 难得偷来一日半夜闲真是不错!! :)

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i really dont mind blogging in chinese if i can type faster! but until i can master that, i think i wouldnt attemp to do it that much..haix..shame on me! i think that 我们的中文就要这样完蛋了!!

alright i was gone trying to save some pics..anyway..

cant remember what i wanted to say but recall some of the things and goals that i told myself that i have to achieve but along the way- you sort of just forgot about them..thinking that the things that is just ahead of you and the situations that are placed in front of you are more pressing and requires more of your attention and you forgot the longer term goals that you have..leaving them to the back of your mind and they eventually gets forgotten.

what are the goals that you have set for yourself? bring it to your remembrance! dont forget the promises that you have made to yourself..becos if it is forgotten, it will not ever come true..dreams are to direct you and not to be neglected..out of sight out of mind..keep it within your sight... you know i am stressed:
- when i start snapping at you for the tiniest thing (but know that i am just stressed)
- when i spend time on the net doing nothing productive but looking through webpages and blogs and friendsters
- when i contemplated walking back from hotel miramar after the dinner just now
- when dark circles are so obvious on my face even though i am sleeping more than ever before
- when i begin to do nothing and just sit around listening to music and doing nothing
- when i am here blogging when there are tons of things that needs my attention more!

yes..stress and what do i do when i am stressed...

ultimate, i will breakdown and cry but i am not at that stage yet..just those that are listed on top..and what i am doing now..blogging...

只好让礼物安静躺在我口袋
宁愿看著你跟他快乐聊到笑开 yeah～
当用情两字不足形容我情感
心情都随你转弯
而其他情景问我耳朵爱情都听不完
适合我们的从不是浪漫

你不会爱我的爱我明白
你的最爱那一块哪天我才存在
我不会爱你的爱受伤害
所以宁愿安静的等待

只剩下冰冷空气陪我一整晚
寂寞却多到塞车根本无法动弹 yeah～
一翻身我在半夜突然就醒来
梦里你的唇柔软
而其他情景问我耳朵爱情都听不完
适合我们的从不是浪漫

爱你我慢不下来没有哪一天例外
愿自己比快我会赶上你未来 ho～

你不会爱我的爱我明白
你的最爱那一块哪天我才存在
我不会爱你的爱受伤害
所以宁愿安静的等待
不怕空白

:: 不会爱 :: 飞轮海 :: 终极一家片尾曲 ::

was listening to Y.E.S 933 yesterday on my way back and listening to the dedication of someone and i realised that it has been a long time since i last listen to the radio- cos i like the music but i dont like to listen to all the DJ talking..hahhaa..but like what the DJ was saying- 飞轮海 was formed for about a year already and i went like "ya hor" and thoughts with regards to them and of cos not with regards to them begin to run through my mind.
from their 我有我的Young that zhaohui intro to me during k-ing last year to going for their autograph session in jan to now their new 不会爱 its been a long year too for them!

想用中文来blog..不知不觉这一年已经过了一大半. 认识飞轮海有一年了!! 哈哈! 透过他们我认识了阿姆, 筱玄, kareen, Jac - 那时候觉得偶像还有这种能力真的佷厉害!! 但也很高兴认识他们!! :)

这九个月来可说是发生了很多的事情. 其中有大大小小的变化, 当然有喜有乐! 哭过, 疯过也笑过!!

cannot take it, the rate that i am typing using chinese is slower than the rate that my thoughts are running and even slower than the rate that i would write in chinese..so switch!!

there are many things that happened in the nine months since the beginning of this year. of cos when you look at 偶像like 飞轮海- you see how much they have grown and how they have changed but seriously they are not people who are by your side- just that their songs and their shows helped you through some ot the times in your life that you just want to escape from reality and all the shows became an avenue for you to do that. when i watch shows and read books- i become an audience as if i am right there on the set itself. as i look back on this nine months, there were so many things that happened..i changed CG 3 times and it is finally settled now with N397!! :) i celebrated my 21st birthday, i went through and graduated from bible school, i became a CGL, i went for my first mission trip which is also my first trip to indonesia and there are so many many more things..

there are times that i dint think that i would be able to make it, almost throw in the towel and telling ian that i dont think that i am cut out to be a leader..and that sms i typed out and was about to send to him but i dint becos i know that i cant send that to him..there are times when i cry myself to sleep becos i felt so hopeless about my situation and finally when there was a chance for change i took it at the very first moment. i heave a sigh of relief though i know that i shldnt be feeling that way but God definitely have other plans in store for me. i may not be any better now than i was before but i know that i am happier now...

i also began to take a look at the people around me..there are people who totally moved themselves in my friends list and there are people who really made me felt so sad and disappointed but there were those who were always there and accepted me despite my weaknesses. all i can say is that i am not perfect and please do not expect me to be..becos i know that i would never be but i am trying and i am trying very hard..not becos i want to be someone that people want me to be but becos i know that there are things that i can improve on..you know its hard..its a painful process..then i was reminded that God dont just make us better but give us opportunity to learn to overcome and be better..(look at 夏天 in 终极一家..he got to learn to control 鬼龙 and it is not just sth that he can gain overnight!)

i begin to take a look at life and a look at love..i realised that i cannot love unless i experience it for myself. not love in the sense of what most people is thinking about but simply every kind of love from family to friends and of cos of God's love. what is love all about? you know it when you experience it..sometimes it is not expressed through the things that we do becos we asians are not the best demostrators of love..but there are certain actions that demostrates love..life- as i sat there at the last 2 days of SOT i begin to take a look at my life. am i doing enough? people always say that i am busy? but what am i busy doing? what are the things that i am involved in? can i do more with my life? i have one life to live and at the end of the day, i want to say that it is the kind of life that i have no regrets in and one where there is nothing more that i can do better or tried harder..living a life of no regrets!

i have learnt alot, i have seen alot and i have experience alot..i began to realise how much my dad loves me and all the things that he has done and is still doing for me..i have seen how God is faithful and He is always there..i have discovered who are the people who have been and are always around me..its has not been the most calm habour and i know that the open sea wouldnt be too calm either..i just hope and i just pray that i have the tenacity to go through it all..and perhaps like what Nick Vujicic says: not on our own strength but on the strength that is given from above!! my strength is made perfect in my weakness...

thank God for N397 and everyone in it (and who is to come!)- let's grow together k??
i know that there are things that we are still not good in, there are some who are still left out sometimes, there are things that i am not good in though i know that i can be better..BUT i also know that there are things that we are good in and i also know that there is great potential within us!! :) let's step into the destiny that God has for us all!

thank God for SOT Team 10 for a great experience and time in SOT..let's continue to do great things for God as we set sail out from the CHBTC harbour.

thank God for sending people to encourage and see me through the storms of my life. you know who you are and how you have helped me.

thank God for my daddy who is always quietly doing so many things for me. for making the effort to go for my SOT graduation when i know that you really dont want to go for it..for always making the effort to drive and fetch me..thanks!!

thank God for the time in SOT which has been a season where the word and presence everyday had always been timely and in season to bring me through!

thank God for Himself who has always been there and always been a pillar of strength! i love you Lord!!! :)

been a long post..shall go and enourage myself in the Lord! :) Nick Vujicic - Life without limbs

Living Inspiration .........read pls...

My name is Nick Vujicic and I give God the Glory for how He has used my testimony to touch thousands of hearts around the world! I was born without limbs and doctors have no medical explanation for this birth "defect". As you can imagine, I was faced with many challenges and obstacles.

" Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds."

....To count our hurt, pain and struggle as nothing but pure joy? As my parents were Christians, and my Dad even a Pastor of our church, they knew that verse very well. However, on the morning of the 4th of December 1982 in Melbourne (Australia), the last two words on the minds of my parents was "Praise God!". Their firstborn son had been born without limbs! There were no warnings or time to prepare themselves for it. The doctors were shocked and had no answers at all! There is still no medical reason why this had happened and Nick now has a brother and sister who were born just like any other baby.

The whole church mourned over my birth and my parents were absolutely devastated. Everyone asked, "if God is a God of Love, then why would God let something this bad happen to not just anyone, but dedicated Christians?" My Dad thought I wouldn't survive for very long, but tests proved that I was a healthy baby boy just with a few limbs missing.





Understandably, my parents had strong concern and evident fears of what kind of life I'd be able to lead. God provided them strength, wisdom and courage through those early years and soon after that I was old enough to go to school.

The law in Australia didn't allow me to be integrated into a main-stream school because of my physical disability. God did miracles and gave my mom the strength to fight for the law to be changed. I was one of the first disabled students to be integrated into a main-stream school.

I liked going to school, and just try to live life like everyone else, but it was in my early years of school where I encountered uncomfortable times of feeling rejected, weird and bullied because of my physical difference. It was very hard for me to get used to, but with the support of my parents, I started to develop attitudes and values which helped me overcome these challenging times. I knew that I was different but on the inside I was just like everyone else. There were many times when I felt so low that I wouldn't go to school just so I didn't have to face all the negative attention. I was encouraged by my parents to ignore them and to try start making friends by just talking with some kids. Soon the students realized that I was just like them, and starting there God kept on blessing me with new friends.

There were times when I felt depressed and angry because I couldn't change the way I was, or blame anyone for that matter. I went to Sunday School and learnt that God loves us all and that He cares for you. I understood love to a point as a child, but I didn't understand that if God loved me why did He make me like this? Is it because I did something wrong? I thought I must have because out of all the kids at school, I'm the only weird one. I felt like I was a burden to those around me and the sooner I go, the better it'd be for everyone. I wanted to end my pain and end my life at a young age, but I am thankful once again, for my parents and family who were always there to comfort me and give me strength.

Due to my emotional struggles I had experienced with bullying, self esteem and loneliness, God has implanted a passion of sharing my story and experiences to help others cope with whatever challenge they have in their life and let God turn it into a blessing. To encourage and inspire others to live to their fullest potential and not let anything get in the way of accomplishing their hopes and dreams.

One of the first lessons that I have learnt was not to take things for granted.








"And we know that in all things God works for the best for those who love Him."

That verse spoke to my heart and convicted me to the point where that I know that there is no such thing as luck, chance or coincidence that these "bad" things happen in our life.

I had complete peace knowing that God won't let anything happen to us in our life unless He has a good purpose for it all. I completely gave my life to Christ at the age of fifteen after reading John 9. Jesus said that the reason the man was born blind was "so that the works of God may be revealed through Him." I truly believed that God would heal me so I could be a great testimony of His Awesome Power. Later on I was given the wisdom to understand that if we pray for something, if it's God's will, it'll happen in His time. If it's not God's will for it to happen, then I know that He has something better.

I now see that Glory revealed as He is using me just the way I am and in ways others can't be used.

I am now twenty-five years old and have completed a Bachelor of Commerce majoring in Financial Planning and Accounting. I am also a motivational speaker and love to go out and share my story and testimony wherever opportunities become available. I have developed talks to relate to and encourage students through topics that challenge today's teenagers. I am also a speaker in the corporate sector.










I have a passion for reaching out to youth and keep myself available for whatever God wants me to do, and wherever He leads, I follow.

I have many dreams and goals that I have set to achieve in my life. I want to become the best witness I can be of God's Love and Hope, to become an international inspirational speaker and be used as a vessel in both Christian and non-Christian venues. I want to become financially independent by the age of 25, through real estate investments, to modify a car for me to drive and to be interviewed and share my story on the "Oprah Winfrey Show"! Writing several best-selling books has been one of my dreams and I hope to finish writing my first by the end of the year. It will be called "No Arms, No Legs, No Worries!"







I believe that if you have the desire and passion to do something, and if it's God's will, you will achieve it in good time. As humans, we continually put limits on ourselves for no reason at all! What's worse is putting limits on God who can do all things. We put God in a "box". The awesome thing about the Power of God, is that if we want to do something for God, instead of focusing on our capability, concentrate on our availability for we know that it is God through us and we can't do anything without Him. Once we make ourselves available for God's work, guess whose capabilities we rely on? God's!












Sunflower : We bloom most beautifully when we keep our faces toward the Son.

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this was taken from an email of the life story of Nick Vujicic!!
Visit and support him at Life Without Limbs

the life story of Nick really blew my mind away..he was able to do so much despite his disabilitie..there are things that he doesnt comprehen but he doesnt not throw in the towel or give up, he is the epitome of all things are possible if you believe. personally i dont think that i am as strong as nick and looking at my life, i probably complained alot when there are people like nick who had went through so much more. kudos to you nick and keep on doing the things that you are doing!! you are so awesome!!! *huggs* 我穿梭金星木星水星火星土星追寻
追寻你时间滴答滴答滴答答滴身影

指头还残留你为我擦的指甲油
没想走你好像说过你和我会不会有以后

世界一直一直变地球不停的转动
在你的时空我从未退缩懦弱
当我靠在你耳朵只想轻轻对你说
我的温柔只想让你都拥有
我的爱只能够让你一个人独自拥有
我的灵和魂魄不停守候在你心门口
我的伤和眼泪化为乌有为你而流
藏在无边无际小小宇宙
爱你的我

你听见了吗我为你唱的这首歌
是为了要证明我为了你存在的意义

爱你的我
不能停止脉搏为了爱你奋斗就请你让我说出口

:: 够爱 :: 东城卫 ::
☆词:a chord 曲:东城卫修☆

so what is my life after SOT- tv watching..been watching 终极一家 but in a very much controlled manner k? only one episode per day..that is very controlled..if not i would be waiting for the show to be aired and that feeling is very sian de..anyway i saw the soundtrack at popular today!!! and i was very tempted to buy it but i DINT!!! must be so proud of me..cannot larh..i bought contact lens and also the marketing textbook so am quite tight now...

what else have i been doing?? tuition everyday to make up for the missing lessons for the past few weeks toward the tail end of SOT when there are make up exams and all the stuff going on. there is more time now to meet up with friends who were all so understanding throughout the past 4.5months that i was not able to spend much time with them..to meet up with CG members whom i had not spent much time with..feels bad..but now got more time..i hope that i can do more!! :)

caught 881 and No Reservations the past week. saw the 881 soundtrack on the racks today at popular too and was really comtemplating to buy it as well (though i would say that i wanna buy 终极一家 more..hahahha) but kudos to royston tan- i think that the show was good (though some parts i think a little too lame!) but its good and the acting is fantastic..and did i mention that Qi Yu Wu is so good looking in that show!! haha..anyway 够爱 is one of the songs in 终极一家 and think that its a nice song..check out the lyrics done by A Chord (aka 大树 in 花样) not bad..rather talented. and danson's album's out too le!! and i saw the Secret's soundtrack too..think its been rather long since i last been to the record store issit?? like many discoveries..

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sometimes things dont exactly go the way that we do and things dont just rectify itself at the click of our fingers..times that we really hope that we have the ability to do that..but do we really want that? i remember the story about the guy who tried to help the caterpillar breakthrough to become the butterfly but by cutting the cocoon, that butterfly never took flight becos the wings without going through the process and experience of growing out of the cocoon never fought before and never had the strength to fly.

many times, we would think, why do certain things happen in our lives? if God is a good God, why do bad things happen to good people? then we will never be able to reach a conclusion becos certain things there are just not any conclusion...the Bible says that we are hard-pressed on every side yet not crushed, struck down yet not forsaken..but we forget that all the time. without going through the testings in our lives, we would grow to be butterfly that has the form but not the power, we would not grow to understand the reality of God and what He can really do for us as we place our faith in Him..what is the things that matters to us more? Us or God? then that would affect the way that we think.

Life is full of contradictions already but what is the truth remains the truth. listen to the voice that is calling out to you to make you stronger!!

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我要穿美美的衣服, 所以我要运动!!! alright, i shall finish my SOT post since tonight got no work to do- though there are alot of catching up to do!! :(


wanna thank everyone for everything that i receive on my graduation- i felt as if it was my birthday all over again!! i am really really really very touched and happy!! thanks!!


this is the card from the CG, the person in the card is supposed to be me!! hehehe..thanks..i really love the card!!! nice!!! thank GOd for creating creative people to make nice cards!!! <3


and this is my gift from the CG, imported from India- lols..no larh..got from little india there..thanks alot..this was unexpected and i just happen to need perfume- so it was really really timely!!! thanks for all the efforts and all the time and everything put in,i really appreciate that!! thanks!!!


this is the graduation bear from JO!!!!! super cute and nice!! huggies!


what we have been working for- the certs of Advanced Theology!! nice eh!!


Are you game for it?? SOT 2008. YOU should go for it!!!

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Let me carry on my thank you speech here.

First of all, must give weiyan a longer speech.
what should i say?? i think that i am really thankful that you are always around to listen to me and i know that there are things that you dont say out but at times that you may not be in the best of mood, you would still listen to all my grumbles and you know that what i need is not someone to tell me what to do but to know that there is someone who is on my side and knows how i feel- so you are the best babe!! my 老婆!! you are the best!!

there are actually many many people to thank...so i think that i cant finish all..so just some that are on the top of my mind now larh...

ian..
he was the one who asked me to go for SOT and he was the one who gave me a chance and believed in me though i did not have anything to give him the faith to believe in me..but he still did!! thanks!!!

shujun..
always tolerating my nonsense and you kana all the trash from me and you never complained- though i know that you 不爽 but you tried your utter best to dont show it and to accomdate with me. (though i have not forgiven you for missing the graduation and go find mickey..but..that is for another time!!)

TEAM 10- you guys are the best!! we are the best team no matter what other people say!! we are the only team with NO foreign students, so all the more we got to meet up more ok??? Thanks for this fantastic 4.5months together every day..through the thick and the thin!! thanks guys..love you all!!!

ber!
one of the few closer friends in the team..thanks for everything..the shopping during the cultural mandate test, the cutting and colouring of hair..the waking me up..the taking tons of photos together..the batam trip..the SUN-loving..the going to NTU to do assignments together..the accompany me go and eat..the telling me all the hebrews and greek words coming out during the exams..the spelling out of all the chim words that i cant spell..all the things!! thanks girl!!! love you..

mad..
the listener- you were always there to listen to me and you will always tell me the frank truth cos you know that is what i need to hear..all the crapping with me and making me know that i am not in it alone and you are there to listen and to lend a listening ear when there are things that i cant tell other people!! thanks..

SERENE!!!
thanks for being so nice all the way..you were the one who made an effort to make us breakfast, to give morning calls, to remind us that class will start earlier the next day..remind us of deadlines and exams and to help us in our exam revision..thanks..for being so excited whenever we dint do much but you appreciate us so much!! thanks!!

Janie
for always being so sweet and nice. :) you are the epitome of NICE!!!

JingJing
for always looking out for me in the little ways!

Joanne
for being such a nice angel and for always speaking words of encouragement into my life. for always believing that i can do great things! for always being so dedicated to your CG- that really inspire me!!! thanks.

wilma
for always being so enthu!!! its nice hanging around you becos you taught me that love means that though you are a vergetarian, you still go steamboat with us!! you are so nice!

xubin
your unique laughter will always be with me!!

sijia
the best usher that i have ever seen- so focus and so dedicated to doing your job!!!

OMC!
what would our team be without yoU??? so you are what team 10 is all about. Fun, Joy and Laughter!!!

Sarah
for being so willing to be part of us and being such a nice person to be around.

wanjun
for being so quiet but always there!!

Siying
what to say?? thanks for always taking photos and always be there to encourage and to motivate.

Chris
without you whom the whole SOT cannot start..but also your magic tricks amazes me and how your journey as a guitarist- that totally blew me away!! continue to shine and do great music!!

Tianyi
hmmm..always hearing you talk about SMU prayer meeting..always burdened for your school..makes me think about what i am doing for mine!! lols...

Garvin
the handsome chap! lols..for always sharing your adaptor, for always typing faster than me so that i can copy your notes!! lols..for lending me the teachers' guide so that i can give BS..so giving me the softcopy of the lessons so that i can study for the exams!! for being my walking guitar4christ when i ask you songs you confirm know and advice whether can it flow or not!! thanks!

yaohui
for always serving..without whom we will be without ppt slides and all the lyrics!!

bingren
for always skipping his breaks so that he can listen to the announcements for us. without whom the exams cannot start..always so fast that we can be the first team to leave after the exams.

dannon
for being who you are..for being the xiao di that we can all have fun with!! your milk sweet keeps us going. AND..ok..this is important --> thank Dannon for a sister who says that i am pretty!! nice sister!! hehehehe :)

kenneth
for always bringing camera and taking photos and uploading them for us. you helped us to keep all of our memories!! thanks!! for giving me your NTU password so that i can print notes..for bringing me to NTU to print the notes..for going the extra mile for us your teammates!!

daniel
for keeping us going!! you are the lao ba figure!! lols..

peiyun
your suggestion of angel and mortal allows us such fun..always bringing fresh ideas and thoughts..

terence
for showing us what is perserverance and what is never giving up!!! continue to shine!!!

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eyes closing again..so that is all for now!!! you ask me, if i ever dreamt of this day- yes, i dreamt of it before. you ask me, how much did i believe that it would come true, i will tell you that i never thought that it would have been possible (at least i dint think that it would have been this year). this year had been a year of many first(s)- its the first time and the only time that i celebrated my 21st birthday and the first time i had a party. its the first time i led a CGM, its the first time that i went for a mission trip, its the year that i went for Bible School. People ask me why do you go for SOT, seriously apart from knowing more about God's word i couldnt answer that question but somehow, it is God's divine timing that it is in this year, the year two thousand and seven of the Lord.

i started this 4.5months journey emotional and it ended emotional as well. the beginning was tough, there were so many things going through my life, there were so many thoughts running through my head that i really felt like throwing in the towel and just take a break from everything. but everyday as i step into Jurong West B4 the Audi, as we begin to praise and worship Him, at times, tears of hopelessness just flowed down from my eyes- i dint know what to do, i dont even feel like seeking God but i was "forced" to and i thank God that i had the chance to be "forced" becos through those times, God was so close and so near to me that those experience brought me through the valley and out of it. i ended this journey emotional the past 3 days, thinking about the life of Dr. Oral Roberts and how one man made a difference in the world that we live in. How he made a difference in the thousands of students who graduates from ORU each year who in turn bring the oral values into the different pillars of society and i begin to look at my life and think about what i can do for GOd. there are many dreams that i had and times where i would see myself do great things for God but fear and doubts creep in and my dreams diminished..time to pluck them down from heaven's throne once again. life does not end here, it is only the beginning to something greater!!

there are some people whom i really wanna thank for this 4.5months.

first of all, an very important man -- DADDY!!!
this is the man who drives me to schol everyday throughout most of the 4.5 months course!! Daddy, Thanks so much and i really love you!! Thank you for showing me that you love me through the things that you do and not only the words that you say. and i thank you that you came today for the graduation, it matters ALOT to me..thanks.

Susan Aunt
thanks for coming down for the graduation- cos it really touches my heart.

N397
Thanks for doing so much for me. taking time to do my card and going the extra mile to buy my present at 10pm at night. and most importantly by being there and cheering for me. you never know how much the cheering means to me, i was so afraid that there would not be anyone cheering for me. (also E243-ers and marg + wenhui cg who cheered, i could hear everything so loud and clear.

Denise, weiting and Kelvin
thanks for the card and gift- its the bible that i want!!! thanks!! and making the extra efforts for me!! thanks :)

Sam, marg and Joanne
thanks for making the board and your friendship matters alot to me.

weiyan
thanks for being there and cheering me on!!! love you babe.

i am very slpy le..i continue tml..eyes cant open le.. This week's leadership files:

RESULTS
Quote - ' ...begin with the end in mind.' - Stephen Covey

Be result oriented.

Know what it is you want.

See it.

Can you believe you're going to achieve it?

How are you going to get there?

Work from the end, not the front.

See the end. How does it look?

Now see where you are.

Now see the road between you and the result.

This is the road you have to take to get there.

Write that down. It's called strategy.

It's your road map to a great result.

Stick to the plan.

:: Phil Pringle ::

write down the vision and make it plain..when you fail to plan, you plan to fail..

it is the not the end, it is just the beginning of a new chapter in all of our lives..i know that i am going to be dis-orientated, i know that i am going to be at a lost of nothingness..but my life doesnt end here, it just gets better...

never thought that i would be going for this batch of bible school, peiyun and i always joke about wanting to go for the 11th(for her) and 14th(for me) batch of bible school but never did we dream that we would really be going through it and we made it through this 4.5 months journey..

in this 4.5 months, there were times that we feel so stretched, not just becos of school but cos of the things that were happening and i feel like just running away but somehow it seems all divine..all planned that we the graduating batch of SOT 2007 is brought here by God's timing and God's planning. it is not the things that we learnt but it is about the things that we experience. and these things we might not be able to articulate all of them but they will always be in our memories.

i thought that i would be happy that we are finally graduating..and i would have more time for school for the cg for things that i wanna do for the past 4 months but i cant do..but now i look at the path in front with much apprehension though i know that it is going to be good. the thought just dawn on me that there is no more protection in the safety of the habour but soon we will be launched out to do more and to do great things.

your greatness is only limited by the boundaries that you set for yourself. i want to do so much more, but fears and apprehension draws back my steps..doubts holds me back and grips me..oh God, draw me into your presence to gain the strength and the courage but also direct me to the places that you want me to go..

today is the last day of lesson together as the SOT. cant wait, yet i cant believe that this is it!
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