to tell the truth, i was rather devastated (alright, the use of this word is TOO STRONG) say disappointed when i went to collect my MNO paper from the MNO office today..disappointed with myself and the way that i dealt with things. if i dont wake up my idea, i am just going to be another mediocre graduate who have learnt nothing much in my 4 years in NUS and then i would be just your average person in society who wouldnt amount to anything great in life. there i've said it. dont they always say that the enemy of greatness is average? that is the topic that has been running through my mind the whole day.

what have i done in the past 3 years in NUS? i can say- nothing much and every sem i say that i would do better the next sem and see how far i have gotten? prob an inch from the time that i started. complacency will bring us to nowhere but destruction. diligence is the way to go..where do i want to go? i dont think that i want to be just another name in the world who has nothing to leave behind. i dont want to be just a mediocre leader who does not impact lives. i do not want to be a mediocre person who failed to step into her destiny.

wake up call..anyone home??

stop thinking that you are good- becos that is the attitude that will destroy you..stop just talking the talk and start to walk the walk..start doing something please i beg yoU! cant stand it being myself sometimes dissed myself off sometimes. those dreams, those things that i say that i want to achieve- i know that i can achieve them all- what is stopping me? this couldnt care less attitude and this slackness that i feel all over my body!! gosh..what have i done to my own life!! i need to stand up and start fighting all over again!!!!! ARRGHHHH..what is wrong?? i cant stand this slackness- WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!!!! time and tide waits for no man!!! no time to waste, get on with the plan!!!

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alright, enough of the rantings..

dreams and ambitions- things that you think is a fragment of your imagination- a part of your past that is unrealistic to think about it when you realise the reality and harshness of life. is that the way that it is supposed to be? God says that the yound men shall see visions and the old men shall dream dreams- read that again OLD men shall dream dreams.

once and again, i have to remind myself of the dreams that i have and i want to achieve that after so many failures i come to think of them as not possible..i started out wanting to excel in my studies but i am just not that good enough that people should make mention of and over time i resign to the fate that i am not as smart as those who are from the better schools- fact is i know that i just dint apply myself hard enough to deserve the good grades that those people get. excuses? i am so busy doing so many things that i just dont have the time to study like those people. is that a truth or merely my opinion? God reminded me of disciplines- i am just not disciplined enough and i know that.

i started out wanting to be the best leader that i always dream of becoming- but it dint start out well and i got discourage and i ended up being the leader i am today who cant even do anything when my member backslide. great job man! do i want to compromise on the things of God or do i care more about what He thinks? more efforts, more hard work, i know that i can do better. discipleship, teaching, whatever it takes becos the lives are more important than their comfort..christians who are strong and will not easily be moved. i am confront my fears, i must confront and set things that i have never thought is right back to the state that they are supposed to be in. restore everything back to the original purpose!

i always wonder what would it be like if everything at home would just be a little better off..and that remains a dream and wonder until i make a decision to apply myself, no one will help someone who doesnt help herself.

there are much to be done- once those exams are over.

no more living a compromising life, but the fullness of life that Christ has came to die for. can let the blood go to waste.

get your life back liwei!

actually i ended up still ranting..oh well..first paper in 10hours time..i think its time to get some slp and finish the studyin in the morning! think i was the last to know about the sailors who met with the tragedy in cambodia..this really reminds me that life is unpredictable and you really dont know what will happen tomorrow. i know that not everyone will get into an accident and just die like that but you never know..really!

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I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

Springtime in the city
Always such relief from the winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold
If you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda, don't stop
Keep that chin up, you'll be all right
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?
'Cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from these sentences
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it every day

So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I see your face
I see your face

:: I dont know you anymore :: Savage Garden ::

was talking to a friend today about another friend and this song just came to my mind. you know sometimes you really feel that you dont know the person whom you grow up knowing anymore..and you exclaim and say "他以前不是这样的" as if we know the person very well..but people do change and as much as we hope that it is a change for the better sometimes it is not..it really aches our hearts esp when we look at a situation and we feel that there is nothing that we can do becos the choice is still up to the person to make and all we can do it to hope that the right decision is being made. sometimes you want to give a tight slap and wake the person up from the trance and the irrationality but you cant cos somethings you have to learn the hard and long way. 旁观者清- i came to realise the truth in this phrase! oh wells..nothing much that i can do..so..all i can do is to hope that everything turns out well..

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went to watch Stardust with ping and siang today!!
- to ping and siang: i know that i am supposed to be studying..just let me blog finish!! hahaha..

and please gimme some credits..i DID study this afternoon before going out and i am going to be in school from 8am in the morning to study tomorrow..so i think i can take a LITTLE break..and its siang larh..my best friend is back from australia i think there is nothing wrong with going to meet her!!

so glad to catch up with them- you know there are some friends whom no matter how long you have been apart..it felt that there is no time gap at all..but some you just feel that you dont know them anymore..haix..anyway siang welcome back and ping..we shall meet up again after my exams on sat!!

anyway the show was GREAT!! whoever told me that it is not nice is so WRONG!!! i think i really really enjoyed it..i think i dint go with much expectations so i was thrilled!! i think its really good!! i like the way that the story goes and how there are twists here and there..claire danes is still so pretty after so long!! and i like the ending!! and i like the captain!! and i got to say that Michelle P. is a great actress!! no doubt about that!! its definitely worth the money (to think that the tix is only $5.60 cos ping got OUB card!! hehe..great bargain!!)

alright, back to hit da books!!! ): alrighty, here are some of the pics from the BBQ and pst Phil's service last week..i havent got all the pictures yet..so here are those that i have!





















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havent slp in for a long time and it really felt good..just that at this time i have yet to eat breakfast and i really really need to stary studying but at least i packed my notes..that is a good start..brainstorming for a place to go and study..hmmm...

was looking at culture notes then the last lecture is regulation..this thought had been on my mind about blogging..you know that it is public sphere that you are blogging in..so if you are someone in the position of authority and you read about something that you assume that is talking about you..how are you going to react?? sometimes that really stop me from reading blogs which i dont really do often except a few who are overseas to get updates about their lives and all..but the thing doesnt just end there are you going to respond about it in your own blog..then you start a never ending assuming and it might just make things worse..that's the whole thing and issue abour blogosphere..

with the advance in technology, people can now publish their thoughts online and one thing - they are archived forever..so imagine: you want to be a president next time and you have great credentials and all..then someone run a search for your blog and ta-ta they realised about your deepest secrets which you posted online and what is going to become of you? of cos i believe in the freedom of expression but i guess there needs to be a certain degree of self-censorship esp if you are in a position of influence- you might just start a world war 3 with the words that you say you know! the irony of life isnt it? that's why i would always think what do i really really want to blog about? of cos you read about the real me- what is the point of being fake? but perhaps certain things i know that i really really cant put it down into words cos i know it will trigger a world war..haha..then have a secret blog?? and who is going to read it? then some argue that you dont blog for others to read..i think that most of us have to agree that its quite pleasing to get people tag on your tagboard or when people offer some words of encouragement and all..oh wells..the irony of it all...

make your choice but choose responosibly..regulation..arrgh..studying drives me crazy sometimes!! that make me end up blogging about what i am studying about..and i guess you will only find me blogging about new media stuff..but that makes what i am studying relevant and applicable and i like such things as compared to history(NO offense but i did get a D for that..so it still hurts!)..

well, back to da books!! (actually only papers cos no text!! hahaha)

oh yah..and HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUAY SHIAN (my beloved tutee from last year!!) (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY 亲爱的!!!
dont think you even have my blog link..but anyways..
its great knowing you!! have a great and blessed birthday!! (:

飛輪海—小小大人物MV

new MV of 飛輪海..i think that it is a song for the Hong Kong Disney land..cos they have the part that goes M.I.C.K.E.Y M.O.U.S.E --> siang and ping you guys remember this..but its quite a cute MV!! lols..nice!! (:

cant wait for 篮球火 the cast is like woah..you got show, jerry yan and CHUN!!! and to me cos its a bball show!! yeah..think its going to be interesting show and the nick for chun inside is 无极尊 which is derive as a spoof from his name 吴吉尊..quite funny right?? then their coach is female..coolness- think she is a real bballer or sth..not too sure but one thing- she is like TALL!!! think taller than show..hahha..i guess that is a show to look forward to in 2008!! hahhaa...

my goong s is spooling so slowly!! nvm..i shld be studying really..so i guess its ok..one more week and its the HOLIDAYS!!! woah oh..

today seems like a slpy day for everyone (during cgm somemore!!) hope that everyone get a good rest though..anyway i realised during cg today that it is SIX WEEKS before the new year..dont you wonder where the rest of the 11 months went to? oh my..its time for new resoultions and new planning and all..gosh..but CHIRSTMAS is coming!! cant wait!!! the lightings at orchard this year is actually quite good!! nice..i like it!! i'm dreaming of a white christmas!! lalalala...

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slept late last night and i am suffering from the after effects of it..not too smart if you ask me..totally feel like sleeping in today but arranged to meet yu chen and its good seeing the people whom you have not met for a long time..but dear me i forgot to tell eunice and jiahui the time to meet- i really really think that i am starting to get OLD!! failing memory seems to be a part of me recently,i hope that it will not be part of me during the exams!!! oh dear..

side note: the top PSLE girl scored 294 setting the new record for the previous guy of 292 (currently at NUS an undergrad of archi) but how is it possible to get this kind of score?? my god!!

anyway, after meeting yu chen went to see max, vincent, cedmond, jiahui and eunice prac for the coming cg concert- i have to say that they are good!! its the second time that they are prac at the jamming studios and they could already do the whole song of 不能说的秘密..and i like the song that max wrote for everyone to sing- its a very best friend kind of song but its also very high school musical..proud of them!! am glad that God place talented people like them in the cg..so blessed to have them ard..and it just make me feel like going to take up music lessons and learn the keyboard/ piano that i always wanted to learn since young!!

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misunderstandings do arise and the only way out is to talk it out- either that you choose to love and move on..trust is not build on solid ground..trust is build on grounds that are not strong but cos there is a faith and a belief..i choose to trust..and God you do the rest!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOYRA!!!!!! (:

this is a much procrastinated post..wanted to post on monday and i wondered what happened! lols...

anyway been a long week, well in a way larh..though i have yet to really get down to studying which i really shld cos is already FRIDAY!! on my god!! seems like there is no one to kick me and get me going..ah wells..

Monday:
Marketing presentation to 3M- that was really mind-wrecking seriously..think we are not there yet and you can really sense it from the way that Mr. Lee put it across..seems like only the 2 top teams have what it takes to be out there in the real world. oh wells..its all over..no matter how bad it went..thank God for His grace..we made it through and we got second..like what cheryl and cindy say- we are really the dark horse..from always being QUITE bad (and quite is an understatement) we became second..haha..thank God..but i also believe that it is the prayers of those who are ard and God will always give seed to the sower..i thank God that i sowed my A&B for this month last weekend!! heheh (:

you know how is it that you always have alot on your mind that you think that you wanna blog about and you wanna talk about but the moment that you really get down to it- they just vanish from your mind and you are like a blank piece of paper. is this what you call the writer's block?? *ponders*



i went to watch enchanted and i like it!! was supposed to go and watch stardust with ping but the timing were bad and she had stuff so we cancelled it in the morning..so i made other plans and i like the show..haha..call me your romantic bluff..alrights, its NOT that romantic larh..but i think its still nice..good for relaxation!! not too bad..better than BEE movie i would say..there are some other shows that i wanna get ard to watching though..hehehe..christmas always have alot of shows to watch.. (:

i think that God's been really good..last friday we had the CG BBQ and thank God that there was no rain!! its been raining so much that i am really really worried that it will rain but God is good and He answers prayers!! so everything went well and we made alot of new friends!! and pst phil was fantastic too!!! power packed weekend last week and think this week is going to be just as good!!

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dreams..
not the kind that you want to achieve but the kind that you get in your slp at night..been dreaming alot- some of which are rather weird..like things that you know wouldnt happen in the real life: either cos the timing is off or its just too unrealistic to happen in real life..quite interesting and this had always intrigued me..why do we have dreams? and to me..some of these dreams they do come true: when it happens i have this sense of deja vu..and i know that this is a form of prophesy and that i am walking in what God has planned..kinda exciting isnt it? i had this whole scene of deja vu on the day of the 3M presentation from the moment i walk down from the back to the front to arranging the stuff on the table before my presentation- that whole 5-10mins i had these whole sense of deja vu...woah..anyway back to dreams...

A dream is a wish your heart makes,
When you're fast asleep,
In dreams you lose your heartaches,
Whatever you wish for, you keep.

Have faith in your dreams and someday,
Your rainbow will come smiling through,
No matter how your heart is grieving,
If you keep on believing,
The dream that you wish will come true.

A dream is a wish your heart makes,
When you’re feeling small,
Alone, In the night you whisper,
Thinking no one can hear you at all.

You wake with the morning sunlight,
To find fortune that is smiling on you,
Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow,
For all you know tomorrow,
The dream that you wish will come true.

A dream is a wish your heart makes,
A dream is a wish your heart makes,

No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
The dream that you wish will come true

:: A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes :: Daniel Bedingfield ::

ha..is this true?? then what are the dreams that my heart is making? i always dream about the cell group and the people..i think this is more of 日有所思, 夜有所梦..then there are dreams about my projects and all..lols..like the 3M one i mention above..and there are dreams of things and people that i am not thinking about..does it mean that they are what i am yearning for sub-consciously that even i am not aware of? oh wells..who knows..the secret things of the Lord shall remain of the Lord larh!!

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i took a walk that day after tuition with zhuang at bukit timah..cos i wanted to spend sometime just walking and praying and i realised how much i missed doing just that..been awhile since i last took a good long walk..but i dint walk for very long either..but i really really miss those feeling..no longer do long walks cos no time (well, this is an excuse) and it has lost its meaning for now..some things are better left to be part of your memory becos they remains beautiful..something that will never fade with time no matter what happens, something that will always stay with you..frozen memories, a snapshot frozen in time..

i shld spend more time with myself before i permanently move to bedok..lols..

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Christmas wishlist!! i'll be a good girl santa!
1. White Baby G the one with the square face
2. 2008 Organiser
3. Crumpler
4. New Havianas
5. CK fragrance (CLEO is too cluttered..i cant find the ad anymore!)
6. to be updated again! 飞的越远越看不见
你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天和海之间那条界线
慢慢地走远
你曾经是我的地平线

你有没有一点想念
我们一起去年的夏天
有种爱的感觉
在心里面
那么的强烈
而这一切好像只是昨天

我才发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认的
我比想像中爱你

浪花掠过沙滩边境
(海风就像你的呼吸)
我又看见我们的脚印
(那曾是回忆的痕迹)
如果遇见幸福的机率要千万分之一
不顾一切也要找回你

:: 我比想像中爱你 :: JS ::

Yun reminded me of this song the other day..used to like it quite alot but havent been listening to it for quite awhile..we were talking about this song and how real it is that alot of times we love someone more than we realised and becos we dont treasure these people- eventually when we lose them, we regret and we are disheartened..treasure and look at all the relationships in your life..

its been a real long week!!! there is a presentation tml and we are still in the midst of writing the report..stress always build up and its totally taking a toll on me and i sense s sore throat brewing- no good at all..and there is marketing presentation on monday and that one also quite behind time..oh God..there are just so many things that are going on at the same time..

some random stuff..
1. Bangkok trip 11-16 Jan 08!!!
2. My fridge 起死回生 already..suddenly it just freezes!!! hahahaha
3. Caught Lust. Caution on monday and i think that its good..not bad..My first R21 show!! hehehe..

actually alot been running through my mind..thank God for people ard me whom they know it or not encouraged me this week..thanks to Denise!! - i hope that i live up to the expectations you have of me!! (: BUT its good to have you back on the team- i always know that you will make a great leader- dont ever doubt that k? though it may tarry but it will definitely come to pass and its great to have another teammate on the team!! as i have said it- let's do it TOGETHER!!!

was talking to yanzz on the way to prayer meeting today..feeling on the verge of nervous breakdown..there are so many things that we have at hand and the pressure is madness..and some things we would think- actually we dont have to do all these things..dont have to do what we are doing..dont have to be so busy and have no time for our lives..but all these is cos we have a calling and there is a higher cause..alot of times- it is others can but we cannot. and i am glad that i went for prayer meeting- felt much better after praying with the members!! and thank God..i believe that we are going to have a great BBQ and a great weekend with Pst Phil..

its not we have to but we want to!

stuff been on my mind..i think that i am a workaholic..hahaha..but i truly felt that i havent been very productive..like quite nua for awhile..just doing nothing..gotta change that..now is the time for the harvest and cannot wait any longer..God will only give the increase to the diligent and not someone who is going to waste it all away. known for efficiency and someone who get things done..i know that i can do better than this!

watching Goong S now..still a long way to go from finishing it..although i watch quite alot of shows but i feel that it is not just a waste of time for me..maybe i think too much some times but i do make it a point to learn sth from the show..haha..something that i learnt from the queen in the show till this point in time (epi 8)..like her- there are alot of times that i avoid dealing with the problems or issues directly as a way of dealing with it. but this is not going to solve the problem or the issue- instead it is just like a way of running away from the problem. Got to be like her in the show, voice it out, deal with it and get over it..so that we can all learn and grow from it..of cos, its gotta be done with love.

something that encouraged me even as i was giving BS- Logos will guide and sustain you in your daily lives but it is a rhema that will give you your breakthrough! listening out for my rhema.. as i sow my littlest talent- God will make the best out of it and He will multiply it..God, show Yourself strong on behalf of the CG!! God will make a way when there seems to be no way!!!

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last note:

Adalia - 1 1/2 cups of fun - 2 teaspoons of romance - a gallon of playfulness Serve hot.

'What is your personality recipe?' at QuizGalaxy.com

ripped this off denise blog!! (: do you think its correct?? lols..

alrighty, back to doing projects and powerpoints!!!

Went to watch this last night with yang and 老婆..wanted to watch stardust or brothers but dont have..so we settled for this cos i think that we need a no-brainer and not sth that requires us to think too much..and i quite like the show..i think that i am easily pleased..but its not bad- quite nice and i like the twist at the end where you realise that everything on this earth leads to a chain reaction.
so what does this mean? it means that every decision that we make in life does not just bother us but everyone who are around us. meaning the decision that i make is going to affect say my family, my friends and my cg for instance. of cos not those like what i am going to eat today that kind of thing though i am quite sure that if you decided that you wanna eat that burger king meal you are going to deprive another person the chance of eating it..its about opportunity cost and sacrcity..

not go into the econs and stuff..

faith leaks, it really does. its pastor Ulf's service later..i am looking forward to it..yet at the same time, there is this sense of drag that i am feeling..what is wrong with me? a healthy cg is suppose to grow but cant see that, cant feel that..i know that i need to have faith but hope defers make the heart sick..heart is sick..keep telling myself and telling ian that it will get better and the people will come..sometimes i feel like i am cheating myself..cant let this go on- its draining life out of me and its draining life out of the people..God i reached my lowest- would you do a miracle on our behalf PLEASE..

can i just dig a hole and hide inside? "可怕的不是很多事情冥冥中早以注定, 而是我们竟然在毫不知情之下, 目睹它慢慢发生." - 尊

we were discussing that day- that 尊 would be the guy that pastor was talking about during the service over the weekend- just lacking the spiritual aspect to it- otherwise he make it to no.1 spot of what women would want for a husband. (:

oh wells..love is in the air- dont know whether is is cos of what pastor preached last week or it is that phrase of your life where people around you are starting to LOOK for their better half- but i learnt sth: matchmaking is quite fun! lols..

we celebrated lester's birthday today in advance- i hope that he enjoyed himself and i realised that i enjoy shopping for people's gift and i like the way that someone would be happy cos of the thing that i bought or i have done. you can employ me to do the shopping if you dont like to shop..and i stress the word EMPLOY!! gimme a job!!! really- i need a job!! today shopping experience is quite pleasant..even the 7-11 uncle was very nice..but i MUST comment about this shop call celio* its located at paragon at the bakerzin side (the extension wing there) and its above guess and banana republic..its a french shop and many people probably dint hear about it before. but we went in just minutes before they close and spend a good half an hour there trying to find sth that we want for lester..and the cute salesperson was very helpful to us, i felt bad for holding up their closing time but i spend like almost $300 there- so not bad for a last customer of the day..anyway he know that i like this bag but it was a little expensive- so he went to talk to his friend then he came over and say that if we buy 2 pieces or more he can give us 20% discount..without us asking!! so nice right? then later we bought 3 pieces then he was like can only give 20% for 2 pieces cos he used his staff discount for us..then we abit de sad but he say can give us 10% on the other piece!! so nice right? and the best part was that he gave us 20% for the 2 more expensive pieces and the 10% for the cheapest- without us asking..so nice..though the things there a little ex but the customer service there make you feel so worth it..so bosses get good-looking and helpful staff is very important!!! (:

some stuff that i read in the book about billy graham last crusade in NYC..i literally cried when i was reading the introduction. its a great book- make me think twice about my life and what i was and am doing. ponders over my life and all. i never felt that i could do it and there is this sense of worry that is constantly in my mind (not all the time though)..wanting to believe that things would be ok..yet not totally able to..realised that no matter what- you dont know what is going to happen but one thing that you need to do is to do sth without regrets. are the things that you are doing of eternal value? what are the things that you are doing today? what are you waiting for?

reading the prayer list of the CG..i feel so so so glad. feel that i am not going through this alone- know that they are fighting this war together with me and we are going to make it through together..though the current situation may not look too bright but God is good and faithful..make every bullet that comes this way worth it as long as at the end of the tunnel is the light. at the end of the tunnel we are walking in God's will. i dont know how and i dont know what but i know that as long as we take one step at a time, one soul at a time, we can make a difference. Never Give uP!!!!

sth that ian said during meeting:
we can impact someone we dont know by impacting someone whom we know!

you might indirectly influence the next person who is going to take the nation by storm and you might indirectly influence someone who is going to re-write history and turn the world upside down.

The Spice Girls Greatest Hits
1. Wannabe
2. Say You'll Be There
3. 2 Become 1
4. Mama
5. Who Do You Think You Are
6. Move Over
7. Spice Up Your Life
8. Too Much
9. Stop
10. Viva Forever
11. Let Love Lead The Way
12. Holler
13. Headlines (Friendship Never Ends)
14. Voodoo
15. Goodbye

ok..i read in interest at the reunion of the Spice Girls. though it might be a little embarassing but i am proud to admit that i was a Spice Girls fan! i think it has been a decade since then and they are still the biggest thing around. lols..i really like Geri (though most people dont understand and agree with me!) but seriously hearing about their news and reading their news again is like a big deja vu (which the first time i learn of this word is from their song Viva Forever)..

maybe some people think that they cant sing and some people say that they are just a band but at least they are sucessful..now they are back and they bring with them a titch of maturity which they dint have in the past. they bring with them experiences and a life journey that they dint have. its going to be an interesting reunion. think i might just go and get their album when it is out.

funny thing is that it never occured to me that they were Brits- i guess i used to think that everyone ang moh is american- what a wrong mindset and the frame of thinking..anyhow, it brought back memories of those primary school days where your favourite talentimepick for girls would be a spice girls song and every girl wanna be like one of them (alright NOT exactly!) but you get the idea- they were that big! and we were that crazy about them. still am over different people only..i think that i will grow old to be a 星妈 but the other kind- the kind that will still like stars and all- who knows i might not be..oh wells.

i guess life when you were young were much simplier- when you quarrel with your friends its about petty issues that you dont even remember the next day. crushes and puppy love takes place all the time. i remember lots of letters and pen-pal stuff --> in those days!! i know that is not relevant in today's context but yes we do fall into the not-everone-owns-a-computer era. makes me feel like going to listen to their songs again.

check out headlines on youtube- nice spice girls sort of song (but personally felt that they MV can be less sexy and revealing)..but i just love ballads!! oh my..

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report to do but braindead... 你不开心的眼
仿佛将我推到悬崖边缘
距离就算再靠近眼前
我们一样没交点
没有你的世界
就像寒冬没有春天依偎
少了你陪在身边
我的四季只剩下冬天
悲伤喜悦回忆不断重演
静下来的世界
有我的思念
也有你的空虚无边

你有没有听见
寂寞的声音悄悄在蔓延
它住进我们之间
消耗着我和你的永远
思念的呼唤传遍每条街
就算你走的再远
累了回头我就在你的身边

:: 听见 :: 方雅贤 :: 恶作剧之吻电视原声 ::

i really like this song..nice!! i just finished watching ISWAK (it started with a kiss)..a little draggy larh..but there was something that it got me thinking.

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been a long 2 weeks. 2 more weeks and its back to the basic studying for the coming exams- mugging in school and doing all that you can to try to salvage all that had failed for you during the whole semester in your papers and your reports and projects.

unknowingly, it is also coming to the end of the year. time when you start to begin to evaluate your year and think of what are the things that you can improve on. felt that things havent been going well- the busyness yet unproductiveness and barrenness- things that you have to handle by yourself and try to be strong when you yourself is under great stress and sian-ness but you cant be indifferent like the rest. with leadership comes great responsibility. times when you feel like blowing your top and when you are so discouraged but yet you have to put up a brave front and smile in the face of all these negative things and trying to stay positive in spite of the situation that face you.

God reminded me of sth this week during the service- it dint change the situation but it was just sth to keep me going. when i want to relax and let it be easy since like things are not happening and you just feel like giving up. i was reminded- its not going to cost me something- it is going to cost me EVERYTHING. times we think that we can just be relaxed about our lives, putting in efforts here and there when we are told to and when we are supposed to. but its not about this- its about love and love has no seasons and there is no break for love. we gotta love at all times and for all times. and loving doesnt just cost us something- it will cost all all of our being and all of our efforts. at least for myself. i need to love more, do more and persist more. dont know how and what i can do but i think that all that i can do is to try and God will do the rest. right??

and just to talk about this once and i for all- i DIDNT go and wait for fahrenhet at the airport larh..faints..
but i did buy the 2 issues of u and i weekly with chun on the cover..hahahha...oh wells..

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