请不要分了以後还记得 亲吻过的承诺
你的永久 已不属於我
默默低头 那时我 很多话梗在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐不是我 爱太多想太多
我能感受 他比我适合
爱放了手 我伪装冷漠 比你先说分手

请原谅我 原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口 好让你离开我
请原谅我 好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受 换你过更好的生活

爱过恨过哭过也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱
原谅我 必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流 我怕说不出口
原谅我 没有解释太多心痛
别无所求彻底忘了我 爱原来要舍得
我 难过
我 才懂

:: 原谅我 :: 萧敬腾 :: 你笑的时候还是很可爱
好像从来不曾给别人伤害
多久没聚会了
你双眼眯起来 问我好不好

同一家餐厅却变了口味
再怎么熟悉也不是滋味
曾几何时我成了局外人
而无言以对

我已经不是你最好的朋友
是什么让我们生疏了太久
我生日才过 你也忘了吧
时间带走的比想象中还多

我再也不是你最好的朋友
分开以后默默一人往前走
有你的感动 我都记得啊
为什么那个最好的人却只能经过

想跟你说 我过得还不坏
善感的个性也都没有改
年少相知的人
即使过一辈子 也无法忘怀

你晓得吗我其实非常感慨
总算还是能撑到现在
此刻才明白
所有的无奈 都只是无奈

恍如隔世这个故事
回忆的结局剩下几个字
你说爱 终究是 一个人的事

品冠 - 最好的朋友

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Saw this song as i was looking for songs about friendship this morning. the first impression that i got from the title of this song is that it shld be sth positive but then it actually turned out to be a very sad song when you look at the lyrics. you think that this is a situation that happens only in movies, drama and songs that people write so that people can feel sad and sorry about themselves and their lives, think about it- where did the inspirations for all these came from? not birthed out of the great imagination of man but from the bits and pieces of life that is taking place ard us all the time. Isnt it?

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the MV of 萧敬腾 with my current favourtite actor ethan! lols..enjoy!



*** Quote to share from Chun's latest blog post: -

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but remember... it's never too late!"

"Anyone can start today and make a new ending."

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As i take a look on the MSN list of mine, there are so many nicks that says "tired", "solitude", "sick" to name a few of the negativity that you see online and you get the idea of the situation that is happening right now in the lives of the people ard me.

yet, there is another camp of people who are positive who will are saying that they are revived and they are keeping on.

Really, i think that everyone is going through some sort of situation in their life at a certain point in time. There are some that are taking it well while some are struggling with what that is on hand. i read Chun's blog with interest particularly at the quote that he ended with. Everyday as i go to work, i cant help but wish that there is a hole that i can dig and hide in it to avoid all the scoldings, the finger-pointing, the accusations, the unlovingness of the whole place make me feel and wonder why did i decide to take on the internship. Yet, at the same time, i cant deny that there are things that i have learnt and it is through situations like this that i learn to be stronger and learn how to handle things that come along my way. Alot of times, i hide in the protective shelter of the church, unwilling to come out to face the reality- yes, the reality is brutal but what doesnt destroy you just make you stronger. Once in awhile, God allows you to go through challenges to bring you out of your comfort zone into a period of testings- not to destroy you but to make you stroner- when you choose to bite the bullet and go through with it.

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Played basketball with the girls yesterday at ccab- coolness! i miss those training days and it is time to get my butt that has been glued to the chair to do some exercise before it leaves an imprint on the ground. hahha. it was a good time, but i really really really de-prove alot! oh wells, not that i am surprised though. Anyway found out sth that leave me with regrets from edna during out bball session last night. I found out that Mr Tan, my bball coach from anderson passed away last year. this meant that 2 of my ex-coaches passed away last year and for this one, i dint even know about it till now. Though i dont exactly was on the best terms with mr tan, there is still a tinge of regret that i dint get to go down for his funeral. Dont even know what happened and where he has been laid to rest in peace. Yun, Glen and I visited him once at the home that he was in and busyness kept us from visiting him again and that was the last time that we saw him. this thought just ran through my mind, if he had been waiting for our return to visit again, would he had been disappointed? its the very least that we can do- to visit him and spend a little time with him when all that he ever had- he lost them all at old age. There was no one and there was nothing left- just this hope of his former players would remember him and spend some time with him from time to time. We never managed to do that. and i am ashamed that i did not even know that he passed away.

Are we too busy to let the people ard us know that we love them? Are we too caught up in doing the things that we are supposed to do that we dont even have time to do what we want to do. At the end of our lives, what are we storing up for ourselves? I look at the friendships and the relationships in my life, apart from a few, the rest are either forgotten or pretty left for time to wash away what is left of it. How sad is this. Wei, you must do sth about it. Never leave something to tomorrow if you have decided to do it today.

Dont live your life with regrets but do the things that you have decided that you want to get it done. 我永远不会忘记
主你那丰富恩典
如今我在天父怀中
因为你舍下自己

你不看我的过去
只是完全接纳我
主你的爱何等伟大
我的心完全融化

我亲爱救主
我心何等感谢
你单单在意
我这爱你的心
我愿一生
追求跟随我主
谦卑为你服事这世界

我亲爱救主
我要一生敬拜
在我生命中
你是唯一的爱
毫无保留
我愿献上所有
何等渴慕能为你而活 耶稣我主

:: Hati Hamba (Chinese) :: True Worshippers ::



A cover of the chinese version of this very nice song that we heard from its author last tuesday at the leader's meeting with Pst Jeffrey. Its in line with what pastor has been sharing the past few weeks in church.

music has this power of condensing what you have been thinking about and learning about and putting it into words and melody and you carry it with you through your daily lives- wherever you go and it blesses your soul for the whole day. Music has that power- if you want to make music, make good music that will bless people.

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As i watch and see the great things that SUN is doing, i cant help but marvel what great things that God can do through ordinary people. What does it take? not talents, not the gifts and the abilities but a pure heart that simply is obedient and willing to serve. That is more precious than anything else in this world.
continue to blow me away with all the greatness that couldnt have been possible without the answering of that call years ago.

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much to be said but i guess not now but when my thoughts are more gathered and the past 3 weeks definitely warren a long post. yet, let this be the few words from me for now.

*** Just A Gentle Whisper Told Me That You'd Gone
Leaving Only Memories; Where Did We Go Wrong?
I Couldn't Find The Words Then So Let Me Say Them Now
I'm Still In Love With You

Tell Me That You Love Me, Tell Me That You Care
Tell Me That You Need Me And I'll Be There
I'll Be There Waitin'...
I Will Always Love You, I Will Always Stay True
No One Else Will Love You Like I Do

Come To Me Now
I Will Never Leave You, I Will Stay Here With You
Through The Good And Bad I Will Stand True
I'm In Love With You...

Now We're Here Together, Yesterday Has Past
Life Is Just Beginning, Close To You At Last
And I Promise To You, I Will Always Be There
I Give My All To You

Living Life Without You
Is More Than I Can Bear...
Hold Me Close
Forever...
And I'll Be There...
I'll Be There For You

I Will Always Love You, I Will Always Stay True
No One Else Will Love You Like I Do
This I Promise
I Will Never Leave You, I Will Stay Here With You
Through The Good And Bad I Will Stand True
Hold Me Closer
Our Love Is Forever, Holding Us Together
Nothing In This World Can Stop Us Now

:: In Love With You :: Jacky Cheung & Regine Velasquez ::

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY

yesterday pastor kong said that our earthly father is a reflection of God the heavenly father and i always thought that this is really true- even though my Dad may not be a believer. for my dad- i always thought that mothers' day has been overplayed and no one actually put emphasis on fathers' day. We always think about all the single moms and how hard their life is but what about those single dads? their lives are not easy as well.

There was this once that i truly felt that my dad is a reflection of God the father. My dad would call me every night (and seriously that got a little irritating- i think that most people would be able to identify with how i felt) and he would always be waiting up for me every night till i get back. But he never utter a word, he never said much about it, he was just concerned about if i get enough rest and if i am well. once he saw that everything was ok, he would go to slp and leave me to do my own stuff.

As i begin to grow older, it dawned on me that he does have his own problems and thoughts that would get to him, yet he never shared cos he doesnt want to burden me with things that he dont think that i would be able to handle- to him i am always his little girl (the irony of it all that i am taller than my dad).

Then there was this day that i came back home, there was no one waiting for me, there was no one calling me. That was the period that my dad was hospitalised. at that point in time, i wished with all my heart that he is just resting safely at home and not at the scary hospital ICU, where there are tubes coming in and out of him and for a moment i realised that i was so close to lose the only family that i have. I broke down into tears at that thought. At that point, i realised that it is the same for Father God as well. He is always waiting for us, right where He is, waiting for us. Each day, we would live our lives, school, work and even ministry. We become so busy that we do not have time to spend with Him anymore, but He is still and always there, no grumbles and dont mutter a word, just there waiting for us to return and look for Him. What if one day, we were to turn and find that God is not there anymore. Made me realised how grave and important it is for us to not go to a place that is past repentance. Yes, God is always forgiving and merciful- but what if we come to a place that is past repentance? and the worse part is that we dint even know that we are in that position?

I thank God for a dad- like i always say- he is a place that i know that i can go out and make all the mistakes in the world with all the wounds in my life, after i have failed a thousand times and still come back to him and he would just say, its ok..you try and you learn, just pick yourself up again and move on. The same thing is also true for God, no matter how many times we have failed and might have disappointed Him, each time we come back wounded and hurt, He wouldnt scold us but just pick us up and tell us that its ok, pick yourself up and here we go again.

Though i would feel sad at times that i do not have a mom with me but i realised that i have TWO wonderful DADS in my life. My earthly and the most wonderful dad in the whole world and a heavenly father who loves me from the day that i was formed and made in His mind.

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY to both my great daddies!!


One of the few pics that i actually took with my dad- i think this was taken 21 years ago on my 1st birthday!! :) I LOVE YOU DADDY!!

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My First Pedicure in my life!! lols..that is serious ok?? i think that it is time to start enjoying the finest in life!!

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My regrets of the camp is that i DINT take any photos with my CG!!! arrgh!!! how can i allow that to happen??!?!!? so we had some cam-whoring after cg on friday to make up for it!! :)










in case you are wondering why only got girls in my cg- that is becos the guys dont wanna take photos- the only guy that is more willing to take photos- MAX has left for 爱心晚餐 at home..so you end up with photos that are all girls..oh well..and as for the stuff that i was holding in my hands are from my dear beloved CG- something to cheer me up with!! heehehe..super nice n397 爱的Barley水 and famous amos cookies in a bear bear tin and a card for me. those stuff is 吃在嘴里, 甜在心里!!

Guys, let's run this race together ok?? LOVE YOU GUYS!!











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its such a long post, shall talk about Narnia 2 another time!!
in the meantime, a touching father and daughter story for viewing.

* Author edited this entry on Sat 07 June 12pm*


DATE
8 Aug 2008
Fri, 8PM

DURATION
Approx 2 hrs

VENUE
Singapore Indoor Stadium

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee)
Standard - S$148, S$128, S$98, S$68

LANGUAGE
Mandarin

SYNOPSIS
F.I.R is a popular Taiwanese band formed by renowned producer Ian Chen (陈建宁), and comprises of lead vocalist, Faye Zhan (飞) and guitarist, Real Huang (阿沁).

The group is well-known throughout Asia for their hit “Lydia”, which is also the theme song for the hugely successful Taiwanese idol drama “The Outsiders” (斗鱼). “Lydia” caught the attention of many and led to F.I.R’s phenomenal success when they finally debuted in 2004.

Four years, four studio albums and numerous hits such as “Lydia”, “Fly Away”, “Our Love” (我们的爱), “Let Love Go Away” (把爱放开), “Every Day and Night” (天天夜夜), “Flight Tribe” (飞行部落), “Get High”, “Crescent Moon Bay” (月牙湾), “Three Wishes” (三个心愿), “Flame” (光芒) later, F.I.R. is ready to thrill and entertain with their debut world tour at the Singapore Indoor Stadium on 8th August 2008 at 8pm.

Presented by M1 and Sony Ericsson, and brought to you by Unusual Entertainment, tickets are now available for sale!

2004 年出道的台湾团体 F.I.R.飞儿乐团凭一首 “Lydia”，配搭高收视率的偶像剧 “斗鱼” 的片尾曲后在亚洲一炮而红。

由三位团员 - 制作人兼团长陈建宁、主唱飞以及吉他手阿沁组成的 F.I.R 至今发行了四张专辑，创造了百万销量的佳绩，和无数脍炙人口的歌曲如 “Lydia”、“Fly Away”、“我们的爱”、 “把爱放开” 、“天天夜夜”、“飞行部落” 、“Get High”、 “月牙湾” 、“三个心愿”、“光芒” 等。

8 月 8 号，他们将带着最初的音乐感动和无限的音乐惊喜来到新加坡室内体育馆呈现“飞儿乐团『第十行星』世界巡回演唱会”。

演唱会是由 M1 和 Sony Ericsson 荣誉呈现，Unusual Entertainment 带给您。门票现已开始发售。

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Its crazy! i bought the tickets to the concert! cant believe this maddness, its the first time that i would be going for a real concert! woah!!

to think that we were just talking about their concert last night!! woah

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COUNTDOWN to NEOS Camp: 1 DAY

CLAN: LEMNOS!!! (BLUE)--> as of yesterday that is the clan for me too but now its only for N397 cos i am going to be the clan leader for DELPHI!! the red clan- so i think that i am going to have divided loyalties! wahahahhaa..

anyway its not countdown anymore as i edit this..

this is THE DAY!!!

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blog about internship would be up when i am back from the camp! adios! SEX AND THE CITY



Featuring:

Sarah Jessica Parker...Carrie Bradshaw

Kim Cattrall...Samantha Jones

Kristin Davis...Charlotte York

Cynthia Nixon...Miranda Hobbes

this is a must watch with your girlfriends! :)

Quotes:

"After years of living in the city, i assumed that if my friends and I ever got our fairy tale endings, that would be the end of the story. But real life- Always has a twist." - Carrie Bradshaw

"Don't give me a diamond, just give me a big closet" (Carrie to Big)

another part that i really like is the "growing a national forest" part- which those who have watched would know..hahha

and the best classic line in the movie

"Ever thine. Ever mine. Ever ours." (Big to Carrie...)

seriously, as much as every woman know that fairy tales do not exist in the real world, no harm looking for it. and sex and the city was about to do just that, to bring out the reality in life yet portraying the happy ending that the audience is looking for.

it really brought one thought to our minds- what would we be like when we are like samantha celebrating her 50th birthday? it may seems like a long long time to go kind of thing but we are almost halfway there and just 18 years from reaching 40. What kind of person would we be like then? Would we all have our own families? our own careers? our own whatever..would the sisterhood still be as strong as before after all your girlfriends found their "manfriend"?

guess on top of all the jokes and all, like what the show says, your girlfriends are like your mirror- they show you what you dont want to see and dont want to face in the mirror. they are sometimes more blatant their your mirrors- you cant avoid them. and who are the one whom you can go to when all things fail? who are the ones that you are going to eat your chinese takeaway on a new year's eve? Who are the ones who are going to save you from all the embarassment at your rehersal dinner? who are the ones who are going to help you clean up your closet and your mess in life?

thank God and count your blessings if you ever find girlfriends like that. if you havent, keep searching and looking out for them. Perhaps, one day we would all find our group of girlfriends. its only my second day at work at the internship and i am already like a walking dead who is lacked of sleep.

i was in the office for 11hours for the first day ok?? I am already starting to miss Jav and the rest!! *sigh*

but i gotta snap out of this if not i would not be able to gain anything out of it. So, one more month to go and i can survive!!!

in the meantime, off to sleep as i just finished the assignment that i did for freelance!! :) i hope that it turned out ok cos my eyes were half shut toward the end.

ok..off to sleep before waking up to pray- totally not in a condition to pray now.

Countdown to Camp: 3 DAYS!!! God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me o'er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by your grace

On this altar I've written my life
Tells of the story I have with you my lord
I want the world to know

God of my forever
And forever I'm with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and king

God of my all I've surrendered
My heart finds its rest in your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown

Nothing matters when You're here with me
In the end just to hear You say “well done”
Bowing before Your throne

Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way

:: God of My Forever :: City Harvest Church ::

i woke up this morning wanting to get some work that needs to be sent to Denise sister by tonight/tomorrow. Yet, as i turned on the computer, i somehow felt that i have to watch the service online.

you know simple songs like this, it reminded me why i love this church, becos even here in my room, just singing the song making sure that i do not wake my dad up. the presence of God fall into the room just as if God is here personally. i believe that the presence of God must have been even better right there in the service.

i sat through the whole sermon again, listening to it a second time and it never fail to bless me again. My favourite preacher- Pastor Tan. a revelation that is existing yet we never linked the 2 together till this week.

pastor talked about the DNA of Jesus : Faith, Hope and Love. and this can be sumed up by the word Servanthood.
Pastor talked about how the whole of our human body is held together by the sacrifices (servanthood) that were made by the rest of the body and he talked about this protein in our body that held all the tissues together called Laminin. then he showed us a picture of it:



Yes, it is in the shape of the CROSS.

God from the creation of the earth has created even in our body the cross to hold our lives together. In our lives, let us be held together by the Cross of Jesus.

i was blown away beyond words. How wonderful and amazing is our God.

As I come into Your presence
past the gates of praise
into Your sanctuary
till we’re standing face to face
I look upon Your countenance
I see the fulness of Your grace
I can only bow down and say

You are awesome in this place, Mighty God
You are awesome in this place, Abba Father
You are worthy of our praise
to You our lives we raise
You are awesome in this place, Mighty God

:: Awesome In This Place :: Dave Billington ::

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prayer meeting- chance to be in the presence of God again.

Start of the 21day of prayer! its gonna be great!!
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